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I wonder at the awe I feel towards marriages (partnerships) that last forever and ever! Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Alffeee!

I wonder at how I coop myself up in my home for days... eat what is on hand, don't get dressed, clean/organize now and then ... watch a lot of tv, spend a lot of time reading on the computer, stitch a lot of fun stuff (knit and crochet) ...

I wonder, sometimes, if that's ok... and why I think I have to wonder about it?!!

I wonder that I forget to come over here to SOS .... and then I remember... seems I spend so much time on Facebook... which can never, ever replace the intimacy and support we receive here... sigh....

I wonder at all the sadness felt by folks during the winter months...

I wonder at the ads that were on tv through most of December and January.... asking/telling/soliciting(?) folks to "come back" to the Catholic church... if I can be honest, I found them quite annoying because I thought of the $$ spent (wasted?)... but I guess that if they reached just one person who was searching and crying out for help - then, of course, the $$ were worth it... I just don't know...

I wonder at how glad I am that more and more people are talking about suicide and depression... mostly on the media
I wonder, however, if all this talk brings thoughts to others to end their lives... because, to be honest... it makes me think about not being here anymore... just thinking and not acting or even planning an "act"... just thinking...

I wonder if I do too much thinking?!!!

I wonder at how happy I am when I sing and how much I am enjoying the challenge of re-auditioning for my Chorus...

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