[jaded2nite]

I Have always been proud of my strength , have ALWAYS been the one that was there for others.

I am on my knees right now, I can't see myself going on this way for much longer.....I am depressed and YES never thought I would say it BUT ready to end it.

I kept hanging on because I have to care for Mom.....but she is so far gone now that it doesn't matter anymore, even if she goes to my sister if I am gone she will probably be better off.

I am losing my mind and will soon lose my house, I am paying 20.00 an hr to have a caretaker come in and care for Mom while I work full time for less!I can't pay my bills. I have no HELP from my SIBLINGS ......I am DONE!!!! let them do it!!!! My sister DOES not work!!!! But can't handle Mom!

Can't see the light that I always thought was shining so bright at the end of the tunnel!