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Old 09-17-2014, 11:59 PM #11
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this a, a pattern for her to
get what she wants and
do what she does
excuses excuses
it's herself and her ungrateful attitude
not a care in the world
as i make a choice everyday
to stick it out
there isn't an option for me
and with that choice comes
much pain in all kinds of forms
and i want to be well and happy
and this monster has a hold on me
it just isn't fair
what is the defense
i am just a person who tries to
find joy in any little thing i do
where will my love for You shine most
i tell her no excuses will be tolerated
i know and try my best
i get turd in return
my own fault
this much i know
i have custody and doing my best
under the circumstances of all i try real hard to do is keep You
alive

alive

Alive i want to be

Eva,

I offer prayers for you and your family daily. As you know so well; "One Day at a Time".

My daughter; a recovering cocaine addict who has been clean for 17 years, passed her certification to work with addicts. She reaches out to the younger ones with great concern for those using heroin.. ...
I offer you hope.

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Old 09-18-2014, 12:21 AM #12
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Thought is all we really have, and a great gift. You have the power to think good thoughts. Doom and gloom, or peace and love? Choose what you want. Spread the love. What is best for your highest good?? This is what matters. Health is a great goal...we are all working on getting healthier, body, mind and spirit. I am so sorry so many of your loved ones struggled with depression and opted out. That is hard. You can change that cycle. Glad you are reaching out. Here comes a hug.
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thank my caring dear friends

i come with much experience with depression
i has not escaped any of my family
suicide has claimed my father
a very sick individual
a narcissistic individual
both ill here i will speak of the mental
well-being
horrible prototype for parents
i come here today
to say how addiction captured my sixteen year old
now coming from a mother
who never kept it a secret
it is my life changing moment
when the obsession was lifted
and you will not understand that
unless you have been there
you see it all starts with the
company you choose to keep
and then not feeling okay with themselves
begin to try things
and before you know it
as you may feel good temporarily
the problem or uneasy feeling you
might be experiencing in the end is
dependency
i don't know
you have a child
you talk and talk and hope some would stick
you are responsible
i am responsible and hope to get clear to her
you do have a choice
i know what i'm talking about
alcohol drugs
pain
me
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Old 10-16-2014, 05:15 PM #14
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God

she attempted to kill herself
she was unconscious
and is being transfers
to a different hospital

i don't know what to do anymore
her baby my grandchild needs me
as my sixteen year old also
when she is released
we will sit down at the table
all of us

my fears
all come to life
dear God keep us together
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That's terribly sad news.
I felt lately that you'd been very worried that this may happen.

Is she in an hospital near to you or is she further away?

I'm so sorry.
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(((Eva ))) I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you and your family.
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No contact
No contact

As its the law

So so much happening

God help us all to keep it together
Her baby needs her
God save her from herself
Let her see some light
All well wishes heartfelt
This my fear
Addiction
It kills
All
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That's terribly sad news.
I felt lately that you'd been very worried that this may happen.

Is she in an hospital near to you or is she further away?

I'm so sorry.
You felt it my dear
You did
No contact at the moment
She has been transferred to
another hospital
No clue yet about anything else
Addiction has a hold of her
It kills
It kills us to the Core
My father taken from us
From depression
An amputee at a young age
He was turned on to hard drugs
after the accident in the hospital in
South Africa where I was born
His life came to an end by his own hands
Shot himself in the heart
In one of the cars
He was only 47
Not myself
To scared
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I am at a loss to say anything positive about your daughter and the choices she makes. I can say that she has an amazing mother who is in my thoughts and prayers.
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Default not about me

have i not been the mother i have hoped to be

do my action or lack of option reason enough

i had to close the door behind me

have i not been a good role model

even in my darkest times

there is no option

she is a mommy

her pain i understand

though i am taking care of my grandchild

and have temporary custody of her

operative word temporary

this entire family is suffering

WHY

what have we done in our past

that was so terrible

what is it we are all suffering in one way or another

what makes my daughter think she can check out

with a baby that is waiting for her to make a home for them

if i have no option nor does she

we are both mothers

my tough love i'm afraid might have pushed her over the edge

and because she was not successful

i find myself very sad and very very angry

all i can say is

REALLY?

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