i made it
 

through another day
sad
very very sad
broken
me

Eva,

Just wish there was something to help get you out of this dark hole you are in. It seems like more than the pain. Sometimes some of the meds for depression actually can make things worse.

Concerned.:hug:


Gerry

Sharing Brokenness
 

As one who is also broken, I share your understanding
and do know you have deep sadness
for this reason I pray
quite a bit
seems like unceasing
for in this, I can find through existence peace
OH how I pray the darkness of strife and sadness be lifted for you
and that we all hug each knowing of the need for daily, hourly, momentarily
to be lifted up

HUGGING,
M56 :hug: :grouphug:

eva
 

We've got your back Eva!

it isn't any better
 

i again woke up
as if i had something to do
and realize i haven't had a reason

my desire is less and less each day that goes by
my lump in my throat grows bigger and bigger
my heart shrivels into a hard dead organ

i
me
this person
knows many different pains
the state of affairs
well lets put it this way
i don't know who they are
as proud as i am of my offspring's
the children who are now adults
in there thirties a sixteen soon
to be seventeen
a granddaughter
and i will be misunderstood
if it's all four of them
it must be me
when growing up
when did it all get broken
it always was
anything good to come
quickly gets pulled from under my feet
why oh why do i give such a crap
why is my sad pathetic life
that
when i say to my child your behaving
as if you are ready to get your menses
after her fresh foul attitude asking her
to please knock it off with her look and then say
what's wrong with you
and i tell her you
then i hurt so badly for saying that
as true as it is
just want to find a rock to crawl under
and seek comfort
that flannel shirt wrapped around me
searching searching
hoping to get a sent of love

this i express over and over and over
and having to make that choice
i have family who count on me
then turd on me
my bad
me

i need it more now than ever
dear friend

sending positive thoughts your way, as always.

:hug:

Eva -- I keep you in my prayers.

Hi Eva
 

Sad, I can truly understand
Yet I know and feel definitely not pathetic
Sure, with all which drives the sadness
It is so easy to slip into the darkness
Of,I have little, and things are going so very badly
But
You know?
You bring light to so many of us
That flannel shirt IS wrapped around you
That little granddaughter does revel in your very being
You light her life
You share hope with me for a better tomorrow
I pray for you the same
Please don't stay hidden under that rock for long
Since your being does crave the light
And we all are holding you in HUGZ aplenty

Even now :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
:hug: M56

One Foot
 

One foot in front of the other
Even hesitatingly a walk does make
Each day in every way
Those choices in sum weave the path we take



The next stanza is yours.....let's see where it goes :grouphug: