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What's happening, wren?
You having difficulty with the site?

Thank you for asking .... This page goes through spells for me ...... for days it will not let me click on anything .... then every thing is fine for a few days ... then back to being unable ......
awwhh - poor me.

That's no good wren.
I don't know why it would be doing that.
If I find something about it on the computer forum, I'll let you know.
I remember you had this problem a while ago as well.
I'm glad you were able to post again now.

:hug:

Quote:

Originally Posted by Wren (Post 1096726)

Wren, you do not have permission to access this page. This could be due to one of several reasons:

Your user account may not have sufficient privileges to access this page. Are you trying to edit someone else's post, access administrative features or some other privileged system?
If you are trying to post, the administrator may have disabled your account, or it may be awaiting activation.

How many pagers are there?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm....:hug:

OT Error messages Wren

My apologies to Andy_Pablo for being Off Topic again, sorry.

Dear Wren,
Here are some ideas to try to fix your error messages.

:hug:

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread209545.html

Lol, no worries at all ;-)

Struggle will be hard, and time must tell, heart won from the brink, avoided ravage of hell. Andy, it is no easy path to restore self to safety, yet you have the deep strength to be well in all things. I have been there. The wholeness, the treasure of daily overcoming tempter's call to an "easy solution" is surely worth the effort.

I hope all of the best for you,
A fellow traveler,
Mark56

got sick six years ago just as the market and my 401k hit rock bottom. had to take the money out. 6 years later the market has tripled, people at my old job doing great and raising families in their own houses. God has a great sense of humor. And I hope I can vent just this ONE time without getting responses about how much god loves me blah blah blah. I dont even really believe. it's just I have to put the blame somewhere or ill go crazy.

I understand. I have had too much loss too fast also...deaths, rape, robbery, accident, etc. Overwhelming, turned my world upside down. I isolated and freaked. Had dark thoughts....but I still want to know what is around the corner. Re-inventing oneself can be an adventure. Life's challenges can make us stronger and better, even tho it can be so painful...it also contains joy. When the dark clouds hide the sun in your life, always know the sun is still there.

I was first going to post this as a reply to a TBI/PSC thread about relationships but it belongs here more.

my relationship will likely end soon due to me. My complete surrender to the injury along with my INTENSE hatred of the doctor who gave me oxy and bup together thus making a minor head injury major, is dooming me.

I even pay doctors online to tell me what I already know.
The buprenorphine must be started only in people who have not used oxycodone for at least a day or two.
Paid 18 bucks for that info. Info I already knew 1000 times.

I relive it over and over and over and the ensuing suicide attempts and psych ward visits and horrible pain and loss of career, friends, etc. over and over and over and the medical board finding him not guilty over and over and over and that I started this whole thing by drinking with maois over and over and over.

I don't groom, I don't leave the house. I don't watch TV. I just lay here and think about that doctor like Ahab thought about the whale.
From hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee.