I think today has shown me the issues I will face in the short term. I overdid things, like I promised myself I wouldnt & I am now paying the price with pain that I cant even curle up into a ball & sob at... I know things will be tough going forward, but Im starting to realise just how tough...

Sorry for bleating on, just one of those days!

Bleat away. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult day.

Andy_Pablo,
I remember when you first came here and how horrific the pain was for you then as well. I'm curious if after the surgery the pain is any less than it was or is it just a different type of pain form the surgery? I truly hope that the surgery you finally had done will help you in the long run. I'm just sorry your recovery period is expected to be so very long. ugh!

Take care of yourself. I often wondered how you were doing when you weren't around for so long.

hang on tight
don't let go
holding you tightly
your not alone
lots of love
me

Its strange because its different & fluctuates, but at the moment its worse. There is nerve pain from the 'moving about' they did, but there is still surgery pain. That has gone down a bit as the incisions have healed a little, & I have stopped bleeding now, but I think yesterday was an overdoing it sort of pain... It is slightly less today, so gives me hope that thr increase is just settling pain & part of the process. Surgeon did advise that things will be erratic for a while...

It feels I only ever come here to complain & its frustrating as thats not really me, but I dont want my family & friends to see me like I am at present.. I need to have more of a positive mindset, but on days like yesterday, it is difficult... Thank you for listening.

((Andy)) This is the right place to come for any and every reason. Sending positive thoughts for some relief very soon.

Andy,

Your mindset will change as things settle and you have better days.

It is right that you come here when you are feeling low if you do not want your family and friends to see you in so much pain. Isolation is not the way to go and our Community is a great buffer. We go through it, so we understand - and family and friends are protected from the worst things our conditions bring.

Your improvement will come gradually, just try not to overexert yourself.

Dave.

I read that you had fallen & hurt yourself quite badly Dave, how are you feeling now?

I have my own vent in another forum and wanted to share this as it seems like the best place ... sometimes I feel like this I like this song too https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyoeJr6ZcPM Leaving good energy and want to say Never surrender Keep holding on.
PEACE BMW

Thanks for asking, Andy,

Sorry to say the neck, and referred pain in right arm, are not easing at all - even with my many meds. The worrying thing is the new numbness in right hand and forearm, typing is painful and weirdly numb at the same time. I am stuck on my phone as I cannot even lift a Tablet because of my neck.

Laying flat with a semicircular neck pillow as support eases the pain, but makes the numbness worse. Not doing anything positive for my Depression.

Still, I see my PM Team in 2 weeks. That is an important appt, lots to cover.

Sorry for being so negative, but not being able to participate fully here is grating just a little.

Dave.

Sorry to hear that mate. Hope it settles soon.