March 12 I go for a hearing with the BVA over VTell.

The problem is in NYC I am all alone, so I have to convince lawyers I am hurting.

If I fail, I am going to jump in front of a subway train, nothing to lose.

I have been going through this for years, I give.

It's got to the point I don't care about what others think, I was injured in the military, and they should take care of my pain (and they don't).

I'm sorry everyone, but why go on? Why suffer?

Keep fighting - keep contacting them-
who to contact for a VA claim issue- list of links /info -
https://www.google.com/search?q=who+...sue&gws_rd=ssl

I echo Jo*Mar

Keep fighting. You don't have a chance of finding an advocate or at least someone to help you get through this hearing??

I'm so very sorry you're in such pain and so tired of it all.

Keep talking here. We can't do much but we sure can listen.

what are these abbreviations?
bizi

BVA is this-
[Board of Veterans' Appeals Home
www.bva.va.gov/
United States Department of Veterans Affairs
The Board of Veterans' Appeals (also known as "BVA" or "the Board") is a part of the VA, located in Washington, D.C.. Members of the Board review benefit ...]

Don't know what VTell is...

Some other members have had luck with contacting senators, congress, local politicians... write up your main points & story and the problems you are having with the system..and send it to all of them..

A long time ago another member from here called hsiw posted this in a message for you.

I don't know if you ever saw it or not, but it is a list of Therapists in the New York area who specialize in the area of
Traumatic Brain Injury.

https://therapists.psychologytoday.c...te=NY&spec=206

I think VTell is the telephone system they will use for the hearing.

What I have is caring for you, July63. I hope that which is right will be done for you and that these issues will be resolved.
Caring lots,
M56

dear friend

first i would like to say
Thank You Thank You
so very much for your bravery
in serving and protecting the place we live in
this WORLD

it is you i am writing to
at this very moment
i needed to come and write
like a blink of an eye
as the water works came on
as out of nowhere i began to
slip into and am feeling as you do
right now
my appreciation to the honesty
something i am very aware of the state i am in
and like i say and live with the truth
that there is no option
this will pass as i let myself
help you see
i, you, the unfortunate, the sick

pardon me my granddaughter is
demanding my attention

back to what's priority
keep coming on
if there isn't anyone who can be with you
at this
excruciating mind ****
and just like i tried to say
i was right there just a little while ago
do no stop talking
many beautiful souls here
God give us strength
for better days
love from a concerned
human to another
me