Suicidal thoughts always there in the back of my head

bizi · 07-04-2016, 11:05 AM

Thank you kay for saying this.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

eva5667faliure · 07-05-2016, 03:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Sam you have made my day

So aware of yourself
You describe the DÉJÀVU exactly like my eldest daughter
explains
Remember
She is my epileptic baby
You are on your way
It is helping
Just in your expression of where you are today
I am so happy for you
You are fighting the fight
Enjoy life to the fullest
Love
Me

In my daughters case
Who is with her very educated epileptoligest
she has been with since her first seizure
Having the liver be our filter system it takes a beating
She has had stones to pass
And some they needed to blast
Because of her meds for her seizures
She has been on the mentioned two meds spoken of
And some additional s
For her it was for the better
Hope your doctor takes their time and find out where the real problem stems from and why
Hoping for all good news
And guidance by well informed doctors

eva5667faliure · 07-17-2016, 07:16 AM

Sam
Just wondering how you are doing
Hoping to hear happiness has found its way
into your life
That there is a better understanding of your case
You are thought of young man
Smiles
Love
Me

SamG11 · 08-01-2016, 07:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Sam
Just wondering how you are doing
Hoping to hear happiness has found its way
into your life
That there is a better understanding of your case
You are thought of young man
Smiles
Love
Me

Hi eva,

Sorry for taking so long to respond again.

Everything is pretty much the same. I've noticed that when I forget to take my medicine I end up feeling worse and more dreamy. So it must be working, but not to the point where I feel 100% recovered.

I'm still active and trying to live a normal life, but when I feel worse I lie down in my bed and rest.

bizi · 08-01-2016, 08:13 PM

Keep taking your meds they are a life saver.
rest when you need to but keep living/doing your life.
thank you for checking in.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi
there is no do over for living....

eva5667faliure · 08-01-2016, 08:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SamG11

Hi eva,

Sorry for taking so long to respond again.

Everything is pretty much the same. I've noticed that when I forget to take my medicine I end up feeling worse and more dreamy. So it must be working, but not to the point where I feel 100% recovered.

I'm still active and trying to live a normal life, but when I feel worse I lie down in my bed and rest.

hi Sam
happy to hear from you
knowing you are so intune
aware of your body
stood firm that something just was not right
i applaud you
may i just say
having introduced your med slowly
as it should be
the doctor may
may add to it
known as a cocktail
the brain
a truly amazing organ
and having gone on that road with my child
now 35 she was 23 suffering her first grand mal seizure
a sad story
but pulled through it
even after brain surgery
removing part of her occipital lobe
and 3/4 of her sight
hoping to irdicate the seizures
my point
you never gave up
you never gave in
you knew
it will take time Sam
my daughter would also lay down when not feel right
loves to read
and now a published poet
so proud of the both of you
you are strong
stay connected Sam
it's important
because you both are very special
strong individuals
you have much to offer
hoping you feel happiness
happiness
love
me

OhKay · 08-03-2016, 07:55 AM

Although you aren't feeling 100%, I'm glad that you have seen some sustained improvement, and can tell that the drugs are helping.

I'm so happy to hear that you are engaging in life and are maintaining your positive attitude

Please don't forget to check in and let us know how you're doing. We're all pulling for you

I wish you the best of everything,

Kay

Phoenix3 · 08-09-2016, 02:23 PM

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Originally Posted by SamG11

Hi all,

I'm 16 and having been dealing with the same thing for 10 monthes now. I have that same dream state feeling and lost a lot of my chances to run in college. I too have lost many friends in this time. It's very possible we have grown more irratible due to the concussion. Perhaps a fresh start would be good for you. Think about transferring schools or if that is out of the question remember college isn't too far away. Try a new activity. I started rock climbing and have met some terrific people while being able to take some of the edge and stress of running off.

New here on the "Survivors of suicide forums". Been very active for almost a year on the traumatic brain injury and post concussion syndrome forums.. And I love it there. And will continue to stay active there.

But I'm here for help, advice, and just overall talk to people who are willing to listen. So, here's my story, and why I'm here.

I'm Sam and I'm going to be 15 years old in October. Many tell me I'm extremely mature for my age.

Let's start...

At the beginning of this suffering.

October 17, 2014, I hit my head playing football on my friends lawn. Without knowing, I continued to play and had a concussion. Weeks passed, then months, and I was diagnosed with Post Concussion Sydrome. Been suffering with a nightmare feeling of feeling in a dream like state all the time. Everything feels more unreal than usual.

Been suffering with it for almost a year now. I'm extremely sensitive, and every so often I just break down and cry. I cry so hard it hurts. I hate myself, and I have no friends. I have one friend that's a girl that I talk to, but that's about it. I'm so scared, and loosing hope, and want to just end this because I feel like I will never get better.

My everyday life consists of me either hiding in my room, playing video games all day, and sleeping. My parents and family get extremely angry when they see this, and want me to go outside and hang with my friends. What they don't realize is that I honestly have none. For some reason everyone hates me, and I struggle to find true friends that actually want to hangout with me for me.

Hopefully someone out there cares.
Sam

I'm 16 and having been dealing with the same thing for 10 monthes now. I have that same dream state feeling and lost a lot of my chances to run in college. I too have lost many friends in this time. It's very possible we have grown more irratible due to the concussion. Perhaps a fresh start would be good for you. Think about transferring schools or if that is out of the question remember college isn't too far away. Try a new activity. I started rock climbing and have met some terrific people while being able to take some of the edge and stress of running off.

OhKay · 08-10-2016, 08:27 AM

Phoenix,

There is link to your thread above this one that I have responded to.

Thank you so much for the advice you've given to Sam

Phoenix3 · 08-16-2016, 03:14 PM

Hi Sam,
I'm 16 and am pretty much in the same boat at about 10 monthes now. It's really hard to be a teenager and deal with this. Before you think about killing yourself maybe there is another way. Perhaps you could ask your parents to switch schools. Like you, I can't standing talking to my parents about that kind of thing. But try. Or at least remember just a few more years til college.

Did you take time off of school because of the concussion. I did, and it defiantly caused a lot of distance between my friends and I. Maybe you just need to reach out to some of the people who could have simply forgotten. I think being a male with this is tough because boys aren't supposed to be sensitive or whatever. And this being an affliction that isn't visible makes it very hard for them to understand. My friends all think I'm just a major wuss right now and that I'm making it up or something. One of my buddies used to hit me in the head every second period because he thought it was funny, don't know if I can blame him, I act like a jack ***** to him and josh around and what not so he comes around and hits me.
I have had to redirect my whole attitude and can't really josh around anymore because I get hurt. I totally get the whole friend things I lost a lot of mine as well with the concussion but remain hopeful maybe try to meet new people this school year or reconnect with old pals. Maybe ask that friend who is a girl if she could introduce you to some of her friends. Joining a team can help you meet people, or if it really feels hopeless ask to switch schools.

I too find myself suicidal at times but life is worth living even with the headaches. We have so much left to experience it be a shame to end it now

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