Oh how I know that one decision can be made.....
It may be accompanied by terrible belief of hopelessness,
Throw in a real healthy dose of helplessness......
This....this is where I was in 2010
The details nearly drove a very final decision.......
The decision is nothing but personal
That part is always true
Thing is.......others showed me their care beyond my own perception.....
It wasn't that I was living for them
They
We're living for me
Beyond my pain
Beyond the thrum of the spinal cord stimulator which helps manage ......but not eliminating my pain
They
Helped me receive prescribed meds which Did bring anxiety and depression under control with therapeutic help
Then I learned to help others
Save homes from foreclosure
Inspire thoughts some Could find employment again
Lately
For other reasons those old feelings resurfaced
Unbidden
Unwanted
Soul wrenching
Then I knew there was help in the prescribed meds which saved me before
Thus saved
I am here
Bringing hope which I pray will catch ahold of you
Can you help me hope?
I hold hope for you :hug:

be sure and read the comments in the coloring pages link. :grouphug:

Does anybody know how dancinglady is?

There was a post from her on another thread on 09/20/2015. That was the last I can find. She may be active on the PsychCentral forum. Have you tried to PM her?

Hello
 

I have been constantly working on moving to a state that had legal assisted suicide. Once there I can pursue my death and not fail this time. I have not been here because I am too busy with all of the moving plans to Oregon, state of Washington or Montana.

dancinglady,
 

Unfortunately, PN is such a "downer". Very difficult for those not afflicted to understand what this does emotionally as well as physically. Can't say those thoughts have not come to mind every now and then; but the plus outweighs the minuses'. I have been dealing with this for quite some time; but am still able to get around very well. Still do laundry, cook, et. Also go out to dinner weekly. There are still so many good times ahead.

Take care dear lady.


Gerry

Dancinglady,

Two doctors must confirm a diagnosis of terminal illness with no more than six months to live in both Oregon and Washington State to even start the process of Physician Assisted Death. I doubt that there would be Doctors in Montana who would assist on the grounds of PN as they are still open to prosecution.

I would urge you to explore the avenues of Counselling and Pain Management. This would be a better use of your time than trying to move.

There are treatments coming online all the time, there are multiple combinations of meds which make life somewhat bearable. Family and friends here (I have lost them all in the Real World) give even my life meaning and my Chronic Pain journey began 25 years ago.

Dave.

Dearest Dave
 

dancinglady
 

I wish you the best!