Medications, lotions, medical supplies are doing nothing. I give up. I am done. I have suffered too long to add this physical pain to my long list of suffering.

to quote Mark

Keepin on keepin on. I must focus on one step, one day, one feeling that I matter and make a difference. We are community. together we make a difference.......
Yup

Dancing Lady

Please don't give up. I know it seems impossible right now but your search for answers is not exhausted. Diabetes may be the cause of your painful neuropathy but something else may be causing your extreme despair.

You mentioned in a previous thread that you were taking Cymbalta. Can you remember back to what you were like before starting cymbalta? This medication can have severe side effects including increasing anxiety and depression. Please consider this and also any other medication you may be taking.

We're here for support and want you to stay here with us. Take care - let us know you're okay.

the pain is that great
dear friend
i myself am not in a good place either
having no control over our own body
is more then i could swallow
my life changed forever

yet...

in all the despair
and sadness
the void of my family
i must have a reason
for as badly as all is
i must make it to the end
of whatever day it may have been

only to be awakened
and go through the same feeling
of doom every single morning
this is the hardest
pushing through the day
with that feeling
yet i do
i ask God to help
let my daughter know how i feel
my grandchild sees me cry more
than i would like

and so will you
you will
with much understanding
love
me

Please don't give up there are to meany people that truly care for and about you

the pain is that great
dear friend
i myself am not in a good place either
having no control over our own body
is more then i could swallow
my life changed forever

yet...

in all the despair
and sadness
the void of my family
i must have a reason
for as badly as all is
i must make it to the end
of whatever day it may have been

only to be awakened
and go through the same feeling
of doom every single morning
this is the hardest
pushing through the day
with that feeling
yet i do
i ask God to help
let my daughter know how i feel
my grandchild sees me cry more
than i would like

and so will you
you will
with much understanding
love
me

Dancinglady,

I have been in chronic, severe, debilitating pain for 25 years, ramped up for much longer. The Anxiety and Depression started over 3 decades ago. I have lived through 2 rare Cancers, the last in '13. Now, my body, mind and Soul are at their all-time worst.

Yet, I have the pleasure of my Grandchildren, even though I cannot bear for them to touch me. I watch and hear of their growth and development, I participate as I can as a Grandfather in my state.

I know the rest of my family are better off for my limited presence in their lives. I have found extended family here at NT where I try to make a positive contribution.

We all have reserves of strength that we can draw on when times seem at their darkest. Please, dig deep and find your inner resolve.

The alternative is final and irreversable.

Dave.

Well no one but you knows what it's like for you now, what you value and what you do not that makes life worthwhile or not. I just want to say I hear you and I support you in any decisions you make for yourself as a free person. I wish for you what I wish for myself, peace and a mostly pain free existence.

I know for me it's very hard to face all this and that I may have to advocate for myself soon but then I think the end is always going to be the same and for everyone. I will die one day no matter what I do now. So it all comes down to nothing more than a matter of timing for me.

Sending love & positive thoughts to everyone in the room...

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