Very nice to see you :hug:

I wonder why my aunt and sister couldn't send me a text to say, "Merry Christmas" even though I left them voice mails...
I wonder if they're punishing me for my s/s attempt last year.

I know this isn't a "wonder," but I'm sorry about your son Eva. I hope he gets well soon.

I wonder about Hippiechick.

so glad the holidays are coming to an end. heres to a new year, new beginnings, and a new normal. :grouphug:

where does it all come from
 

wondering how many tears have i cried in my lifetime

wonder if i could find a way to keep a happy mood going
they are so short lived

wonder if in this year i'll have a very special someone to love
and be loved in return

wonder if my daughter will have a better year
conquering her addiction and not be sucked into the abyss
she has a child who is waiting

wondering if my father is at peace
in his afterlife

wonder if sadness and depression can be eradicated
with the understanding it is part of this families history
and it is okay

wondering how all are holding up

wondering if i can say thank you for having a place to come to

wondering why my sister is having some complications
after having a complete hysterectomy
a possible bacterial infection
the hospital called her
and she has diarrhea

wonder if it will subside in less than 48 hours
if not directly to er

wondering if my eldest will not have anymore complications
she too will have a procedure to relieve a kidney stone that is lodged somewhere i cannot pronounce

wondering if i'll ever stop wondering

Oh how I....
 

Will not stop wondering at the love in this place

Wonder at the many needs and whether blessings might abound

Wonder whether cancer, depression, hurts and pain might be banned from all

Wonder at my own absence as Abby does her own, along with a dose of hope for her schoolwork

Wonder about those Alffe tacos......since I am so fond of Hispanic food

Wonder as I wander at this time of Epiphany about miracles and what they mean for us

Wonder at the blessing I know because my SCS stim is still reliable

Wonder whether I, too, may leave hugz :grouphug::hug::grouphug:

Wondering
 

how it can be done

Wondering when I can take a deep breath of relief
everything will be taken care of

Wondering if I can help her see it isn't over
it is the change that needs to be made

Wondering what the heck is wrong with the medical community
and the responsibility of dispensing medication that can kill so blatantly no reguards to addiction

Wondering when MENTAL DISRUPTION TO ONES BRAIN will be taken seriously

Wondering why I do not see any improvements in the hospitals in my neighborhood

Wondering why all talk no action

Wondering when MY doctors will get their turd together
something underlying is going on
Scratch head
Scratch head
Scratch head

Wondering about the wondering
I could go on forever

Wondering if the day will be calm
while it is week three the fibromyalgia
on back is out of control

Wondering if this feeling of being burned will just stop

Wondering if I will ever be able to let go of the mistakes that were made on this body

Wondering how it will be five years from now

Wondering if happiness could last a little bit longer

Wondering if my depression will ever be lifted
as it is part of my daily routine
Fighting it off every morning
The tears I cry every morning
The pain I suffer every single moment
of my waking and in sleep mode will I one day
Snap

Wondering

Just

Wondering

Wondering

Wondering if Eva knows I'm thinking of her today :hug::hug::hug:

wondering if you knew
i needed that
thank you
love
me

So "wondering"
 

Wondering how doctors get away with deplorable behavior

Wondering if God the Father can see and feel my determanition

Wondering if this be the winning items to help strengthen my body and it is fact I have a deficiency that a body needs to work at its best

Wondering how my shrink is feeling when I called and told him
I will no longer be seeking his services for his remark was it being so dubious and most importantly how the work required
by insurance law say "your asking us to do tedious work for you"

Wondering why he has call in the last two days as I will not pick up the phone

Wondering if my words are screwing with his head
as I stumped him in my abundance of research

Wondering if the company that I await central time and speak with someone directly at the manufacturer

Wondering in the end if I will ever get a chance to try this very expensive vitamin that needs a script and an explanation why my insurance should cover it

Wonder what my shrink is thinking when I told him
"Why won't you let me be the judge of it"
It's my body

Wondering how long it is going to take to finally not be a slave to Xanax hoping for it to be replaced with this vitamin

Wondering why the luck in my lifetime has been miserable

Wondering why I have to fight for a vitamin

Wondering if the withdrawals will be mild

Wondering will I ever have something this important
come to a resolve

Wondering why I'm visited by this gut depression
that manifest physically in my gut

Wondering why I have to fight for eve thing that is right

Wondering what is wrong with this country

Wondering why nobody will listen and see the bigger picture

Wondering how to not be depressed

Wondering how can he live with himself

Wondering if I left him thinking and NEVER FORGETTING ME AS MY NEUROSURGEON FAILED ME AND MY BODY

Wondering if the doctors,FDA,pharmaceutical companies,
insurance companies who are killing me
and so on

Wondering if all my work over the years made a difference

Wonder if I will ever feel happy in my gut

Wonder

Just wondering about me

wondering if i can leave Eva a {{{HUG}}}}