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Old 10-19-2016, 08:19 AM #61
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Every single morning
Upon stirring
My mind already wondering
Wondering do I have what it takes to be that person
want to be and not let others spoil it
I wonder how that would feel today for a change
Eva half day at school
Corissa riddled with dirty laundry
Took her to school
Just came home going back to bed
I do not agree she should have any burdens put upon her because she knows what would happen if I and her did not take on the job
I just couldn't imagine
And my child does not see how she is hindering her sisters life and her trials
It isn't easy when I want to explain
When she says or rather asks
"Mom, how did you do it"
And I said
"What are you talking about, I'm still doing it
Only this time I need help"
Yeah
How did I do it
Oh my God
That how
Wonder what will it take
I won't let go
I have to stay strong in it ALL


Thank you for your guidance
WONDERING what it would be like to
just have a good day
wouldn't that be nice
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Old 10-21-2016, 08:23 AM #62
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I wonder if Eva knows I wish she could have a good day, too.
I wonder if Eva knows that that good day may be just around the corner
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End of the road
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Wondering how many more days
It just comes and goes
Wonder how much more
In your arms I lie
Wondering how blessed I am
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I'm wondering what Eva means?

I'm wondering if she knows she is loved?
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It all is in Heavenly Fathers hands
I have done all I can
And wonder why it is so hard for this family
The only thing I had for his life was awesome
Are his ashes
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And be loved in return
To have a place in this world
I'm lost
Forever wondering why
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sending you virtual hugs xxx

QUOTE=eva5667faliure;1227859]It all is in Heavenly Fathers hands
I have done all I can
And wonder why it is so hard for this family
The only thing I had for his life was awesome
Are his ashes
To love
And be loved in return
To have a place in this world
I'm lost
Forever wondering why[/QUOTE]
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I'm glad that you find comfort in your faith in God, Eva
I wish I could make life easier for you
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I'm glad that you find comfort in your faith in God, Eva
I wish I could make life easier for you
I know how you all care
I'm pooped
I just want you to understand
How very much you and some very awesome
persons who are real and speak about real issues
Mental illness
Always falls at the waist side
I am living it
And am not heard by the PROFESSIONALS
Money
Money
Money
Root of all evil
May you feel my love
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It's important to have a good PCP because he/she is your team leader and main point of contact. It's harder to find specialists with good bedside manners.

Your PCP and mental health professionals should be approachable and be sensitive and responsive to your needs. I know that it's hard to find good providers, but if you aren't getting the care you need, it's time for change

I'm sorry you're so discouraged
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