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04-18-2016, 06:12 AM | #1 | |||
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Wondering if anyone would mind if I can respond without all the "wondering"?
I often wonder how my family members are doing or what they are thinking of on the anniversaries of family members' deaths or on their birthdays. These occasions stir up memories- good and bad. A suicide is much worse. One reason is the lack of closure, and you have many unresolved issues with your father I can't imagine how it must feel to have to live with the conflicted feelings you must have about your father and his suicide… even after 36 years. I understand your mother had a difficult life, but it must be so hard to make peace with the decisions she made and have any kind of relationship with her I am thinking of you, and hoping you are doing okay dealing with the memories surrounding this life event I'm so sorry that you're still struggling with issues with your children. I don't know the specifics, or the extent of the problems, but it seems to me like you love them and really want them to be part of your life. You can close the door part way because their behavior right now is hurtful and you need to protect yourself, but leave it open a crack so they have an opening to get back in when the timing is right I wonder if you realize you are still young Eva… I wonder if you know there is still time for change I wonder if you know I am hoping for good things for you because you are due |
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04-18-2016, 05:27 PM | #2 | |||
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I pray only for the better I am wiser and as hard as it is I have begun to put my foot down No more pooping on me Thank you for the comforting words They did the job Yesterday was my eighteen year olds birthday Spent in her chosen place not to hear from her It hurt It really really hurt I do love them way overboard Just do Love Me
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05-15-2016, 11:10 AM | #3 | |||
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To wonder as I do every single day
Are or rather is my family doing well To wonder if your children are happy To wonder if they still blame me and God for their unhappiness Not something I can stop my brain from wondering What my children are exhibiting are many symptoms of the MTHFR MUTATION wonder why my son stopped his meds Bi-polar from me Me And to let them know and not do anything about it Is then on them How much more can I do I told them I am the one for certain can and till now those tested are positive So many things going on under this particular umbrella Labeled MTHFR MUTATION WONDER what Eva's mother has to say about her knowing she is positive and addict so many of her symptoms answered and just got off the phone with trying to express what her sister is wondering when I told her Wonder about this you have occipital lobe epilepsy Chances you are positive And ponder on this Your doctor should wonder real seriously about finding out if she to is positive And not God Wonder what my youngest is doing If she is wondering about us and how much I miss her and wish she would change and come back home My child's father knows about her getting high Wonder what he is thinking He told me his opinion about my parenting Only she is worse off in the current situation So many lies that are being shared And hurting each other doing it Do they not wonder Something is REALLY wrong So wondered Rather then help them see the Unappreciative response and behavior my children put upon me in their thirties now And still blame me Now because it isn't recognized I ask the question "What haven't I done for all of you guy's" Silence Not a thing to speak of But to wonder if my youngest is still in the hospital And not call me Or my children not call me Isn't okay They will never know a mothers worry And she nor my son are parents I am gifted from my third child Wondering when she too will take care of herself She is returning back to waitressing And not pursue her phlebotomist license This I cannot stop wondering about Or to use her culinary degree Wondering Left here sad Wondering Wondering if Heavenly Father touch my sister She helped me so much She loves me My baby sister Wondering Me
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05-15-2016, 03:22 PM | #4 | |||
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l wonder why I can't just talk on this pad like I do on my phone
I wonder if Eva knows that I thought about her on Mothers day said a quiet prayer that her children would show her a little love. I wonder that I have galloping poison ivy I wonder what the realtor will tell us tomorrow about selling this old house now that she has researched it for a week. I wonder about the tragic suicide death of our daughter friend and the heartbreaking honesty in her obituary. . l wonder if I can leave hugs for the room
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05-16-2016, 08:47 AM | #5 | |||
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I wonder if Eva knows if she is in my thoughts
I wonder if Alffe's poison ivy will get better soon? I wonder if Alffe knows how sad I feel for her friends' loss, while still feeling conflicted about hearing there was "heartbreaking honesty" in the obituary |
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05-16-2016, 10:23 PM | #6 | |||
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I wonder about all this stinkin, rainy, flooding, tornadic weather we have been having. makes it very triggering. sigh.... Friday will be the one year anniv of my younger brothers drowning.
i wonder if it is ok to admit the "dark side" has sure been calling my name the past couple months. wondering if i can leave a hug for our room
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05-17-2016, 05:27 AM | #7 | |||
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It certainly is a trigger Wonder if I could tell you I am right there with you However You and I breath for a reason I wonder what it is I need to still have to experience For the dark side is close Wonder if the light could shine for us Wonder if we could find the sun inside us how differently we would feel Trigger the weather has been hurtful Barometer killing everything Goofy Wonder if I could mention how awesome this place is Not able to understand why I am going through the stuff at hand I just don't understand it Yet I trust it will reveal a sunny day And a happy smile in our heart and soul We are important You are important We a have a purpose Thank you for sharing I feel horrible simply from how the weather is this morning I will push through the day May your heart feel the sun Love Me
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