[FeelinGoofy]

I wonder about all this stinkin, rainy, flooding, tornadic weather we have been having. makes it very triggering. sigh.... Friday will be the one year anniv of my younger brothers drowning.

i wonder if it is ok to admit the "dark side" has sure been calling my name the past couple months.

wondering if i can leave a hug for our room

[eva5667faliure]

Originally Posted by FeelinGoofy

I wonder about all this stinkin, rainy, flooding, tornadic weather we have been having. makes it very triggering. sigh.... Friday will be the one year anniv of my younger brothers drowning.

i wonder if it is ok to admit the "dark side" has sure been calling my name the past couple months.

wondering if i can leave a hug for our room

How right you are about the weather
It certainly is a trigger
Wonder if I could tell you
I am right there with you
However
You and I breath for a reason
I wonder what it is I need to still have to experience
For the dark side is close
Wonder if the light could shine for us
Wonder if we could find the sun inside us how differently
we would feel
Trigger the weather has been hurtful
Barometer killing everything
Goofy
Wonder if I could mention how awesome this place is
Not able to understand why I am going through the stuff
at hand
I just don't understand it
Yet I trust it will reveal a sunny day
And a happy smile in our heart and soul
We are important
You are important
We a have a purpose
Thank you for sharing
I feel horrible simply from how the weather is this morning
I will push through the day
May your heart feel the sun
Love
Me

[OhKay]

I wonder if Goofy knows it takes strength to admit that the "dark side" has been calling and a lot of self-awareness to recognize our own triggers

I wonder if everyone effected by the harsh weather lately knows I am thinking of them, and hope that they, their loved ones, and their property are safe

[Mark56]

Oh yes, I have wandered
Filled with wonder
Driven by overwhelming issues
Of family
And of work
And of life
Yet I have wondered how my friends here have fared
Praying in wonder that calls from the dark will go unfollowed
Wondering how all have been through Mother's Day and myriad graduation
Wondering at life which launches anew for many who have achieved degrees
Wondering at creeping Poison Ivy? Oh....itch!
Wondering at changes in life, and praying for the best
Wondering why we endured the blaring sun for so long from the skylight in our bedroom!!!! Oh, the blissful restfulness of a Saturday morning sleeping in because we inexpensively jammed foam in that blasted skylight thus darkening our room......YAY!
Wondering that it took me so long to return here among you......

[eva5667faliure]

Wonder if I could hold on for just a bit longer
as I am withering slowly and it s.u.c.k.s
So much energy is taken out of me in my day
Wonder how much longer it will be this hard
Wonder if we could get lucky enough to hit the numbers
and there be some financial relief
Wonder how it will be as time goes on
it is a small income I am working with
It is so difficult to not wonder how it got like this
How did it all get like this
Wonder if My desires will fade
People are not in my life
It to by choice
There is no true relationship
I can speak of that doesn't require approval from
And this I do not need
I look to Heavenly Father and ask for true sincere love in return
Not a hard thing for me to do
Yet for strangers to judge and pull one down for ones own selfish reasons not what I look for
Wonder if my father is the one who suffered with the mutation and it be the base host of all his problems
I still wonder about him
Just this weekend
Me and my sister were talking about the day
She tells me
Her then grammer school teacher she seen many years later
told her how she heard the shot early in the morning of April 8th
thinking it was her veteran father with his guns
Wonder how many others heard the shot
He was found in the second car
white station wagon
Around the corner from the house
What was he feeling
How sad must he have been
To endure sadness like mine
Makes me wonder

[OhKay]

Originally Posted by eva5667faliure

Wonder if I could hold on for just a bit longer
as I am withering slowly and it s.u.c.k.s
So much energy is taken out of me in my day
Wonder how much longer it will be this hard
Wonder if we could get lucky enough to hit the numbers
and there be some financial relief
Wonder how it will be as time goes on
it is a small income I am working with
It is so difficult to not wonder how it got like this
How did it all get like this
Wonder if My desires will fade
People are not in my life
It to by choice
There is no true relationship
I can speak of that doesn't require approval from
And this I do not need
I look to Heavenly Father and ask for true sincere love in return
Not a hard thing for me to do
Yet for strangers to judge and pull one down for ones own selfish reasons not what I look for
Wonder if my father is the one who suffered with the mutation and it be the base host of all his problems
I still wonder about him
Just this weekend
Me and my sister were talking about the day
She tells me
Her then grammer school teacher she seen many years later
told her how she heard the shot early in the morning of April 8th
thinking it was her veteran father with his guns
Wonder how many others heard the shot
He was found in the second car
white station wagon
Around the corner from the house
What was he feeling
How sad must he have been
To endure sadness like mine
Makes me wonder

I wonder if Eva knows how good it is that she was able to talk about such a painful memory with her sister

I wonder if she knows that it is good to try relate to her father's feelings before his suicide attempt as long as she's not relating too much

Stay safe. You are loved.



Kay

[eva5667faliure]

Originally Posted by OhKay

I wonder if Eva knows how good it is that she was able to talk about such a painful memory with her sister

I wonder if she knows that it is good to try relate to her father's feelings before his suicide attempt as long as she's not relating too much

Stay safe. You are loved.



Kay

Thank you Kay for your warm felt words
Comforting they are
Nice to see you around
And a comfort to so many
Know you are recognized
and are a treasure in many ways
Constant
And it is here I get to meet
persons like yourself
I came here hoping to find others who had the same medical problems I had and it turn out to become a live journal
of my experience strength and hope
I have come to meet some very very special friends
No understanding of the wifi world
Just come on here and get my medicine for the day
With empowering words
It has become a place I hope to help by my own experience
If it be just one person I can comfort and can help
are rewards I get in return
And get to wonder about it all
Unconditional bonds

May you be filled with joy
However you can get it
I at times get it here
You are that example
Thank you for caring
Love
Me