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06-06-2016, 06:25 AM | #1 | |||
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Wonder if I could hold on for just a bit longer
as I am withering slowly and it s.u.c.k.s So much energy is taken out of me in my day Wonder how much longer it will be this hard Wonder if we could get lucky enough to hit the numbers and there be some financial relief Wonder how it will be as time goes on it is a small income I am working with It is so difficult to not wonder how it got like this How did it all get like this Wonder if My desires will fade People are not in my life It to by choice There is no true relationship I can speak of that doesn't require approval from And this I do not need I look to Heavenly Father and ask for true sincere love in return Not a hard thing for me to do Yet for strangers to judge and pull one down for ones own selfish reasons not what I look for Wonder if my father is the one who suffered with the mutation and it be the base host of all his problems I still wonder about him Just this weekend Me and my sister were talking about the day She tells me Her then grammer school teacher she seen many years later told her how she heard the shot early in the morning of April 8th thinking it was her veteran father with his guns Wonder how many others heard the shot He was found in the second car white station wagon Around the corner from the house What was he feeling How sad must he have been To endure sadness like mine Makes me wonder
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06-09-2016, 07:54 AM | #2 | |||
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I wonder if she knows that it is good to try relate to her father's feelings before his suicide attempt as long as she's not relating too much Stay safe. You are loved. Kay |
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06-10-2016, 07:32 AM | #3 | |||
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Comforting they are Nice to see you around And a comfort to so many Know you are recognized and are a treasure in many ways Constant And it is here I get to meet persons like yourself I came here hoping to find others who had the same medical problems I had and it turn out to become a live journal of my experience strength and hope I have come to meet some very very special friends No understanding of the wifi world Just come on here and get my medicine for the day With empowering words It has become a place I hope to help by my own experience If it be just one person I can comfort and can help are rewards I get in return And get to wonder about it all Unconditional bonds May you be filled with joy However you can get it I at times get it here You are that example Thank you for caring Love Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | OhKay (06-10-2016) |
07-13-2016, 01:43 PM | #4 | |||
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What is the lesson
Why do I have to wonder What if this time they will succeed Wonder what will it take if there is anymore to go through to "get it" Wondering why I am totally **** on the moment things seem okay for my grandchild mother who is still in the hospital and talk fresh to me calling off the hook and picking up every call upset with me because of something her and her sister are going through Wondering why is this happening again Rather then concentrate in what just happened a couple of days ago Wonder how much does she want to throw my way when she doesn't get her way Wonder why she gives me grief when she can't see she made it the way it is And only she can change it Wondering why she can't see that Why am I used as an enabler Wonder why is she pushing me to not wanting to pick up the phone because I will be sad hearing her with the same excuses She has been through soooooo much Put herself through so much Looking for love in the wrong places I can never fill her void Just be there Wonder if my body is full of toxins How much more can it take I need to be here for her daughter Wondering what it will be like for Eva in September and starting school Wondering what that's going to be like all over again we go Do I have it We shall see We shall see Wondering isn't helping And I cannot stop but to wonder I can't even hear what on when in such deep thought How much more Heavenly Father I won't give up Is that my test To see if ill give up I will not take my last breath into my hands That is for my Father to decide Wonder if I could leave a huge hugs for anyone who needs one right from the heart Love Me
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07-26-2016, 07:58 AM | #5 | |||
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Wonder if its just to late and things have settled
How much longer before Eva decides I don't want to leave the home she has only known What will happen then Wondering why she cannot take it one day One moment at a time One situation at a time What is it that she must go through I fear So much pain already Her trial and error Closer and closer to one another I want so badly to pick up the phone Is she wondering what happened for it to be as it is Does she even get it My child who lives with me Who is in fear to explore the outside world Like the real stuff Not hanging out stuff But work School Driving school Her health (doctors who she needs to see) Just to mention some of my wonders Wonder if she ever sees the light Rater then the darkness It doesn't have to be like that Darkness Replaced with the light that still shines within them Wonder if it can be doable and in your face love What will happen with my grandchild Does she not wonder about this I wonder
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09-19-2016, 06:39 PM | #6 | |||
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To a wonder-full day with my entire family
If he could be would have had us all We sat at the table all ready to eat Wondering how this was going to go down It was awesome Wonder why my child did not want to spend the time with her child Wondered why our dog submitted to everyone there A full house of my family My babies Wonder if they felt as good as I Wonder how much time our family pet has I spent the entire day with him in my arms His heart calm while in my arms Wonder if we can do it again They have grown And wanted to be in my company Wonder if they know I love them ever so much And it never stops When I think about it all Heavenly Father you know my heart and brain All the wondering a mother does Like my granddaughter said to me while taking her nighttime bath And said to me "Mimmas job is never done Right mimma" Mimma does wonder all the time Thank you Heavenly Father And to my dead father Wonder if your soul can see the love of a mother for her children Your grandchildren and great grandchild Can you feel us We were a family
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09-20-2016, 07:42 AM | #7 | |||
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I wonder if Eva knows how happy I am for her, for that day?
I wonder if Eva knows I will pray for more happy moments in life like that for her, and her family… |
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