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11-27-2019, 06:12 AM | #1 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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Hello
It’s me I’m sorry to hear all the losses But you bring up something most cannot grasp That includes me at moments I control but myself and only myself I’m blown away to have found while sitting in my oncologist office how many men are there for reasons like mine Breast cancer Sadly after all these years I finally addressed the pain I was suffering Only to have be mutilated I did my homework Surgery was July 19 of this year Cried like a baby Bed bound for 5 weeks It’s one thing for a second badly heals job due To see him post op 6 months Both hurt badly the pig skin was sewn to the ribs Both from under the arm under to the center They are not symmetrical in anyway I wait to ask why did you not just close me up I feel as if I were a project that failed I cannot look at myself and will still never be able to wear a bra I did everything I was supposed to and in the end The very end of it all the only thing left is acceptance I’m alive Right You would think With all the situational crap that is sucking the rest of my life Turning it over and over and over Why does it have to be so hard to fight to want to be alive I still yet to find true love if that even exists My chest hurts so badly right now refuse to take any pain pills I have managed to decrease 5 mg at a time 1of my three anxiety meds and two of my four muscle relaxers And as much as that be a huge accomplishment it is as far as I can go I’m still learning David And the truth of it all We lost sight of us I sure learnt the extreme Acceptance is a B***H I just do not want to have to fight wanting to live Take good care of you Wishing you great recovery and happiness to you Take care Me
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