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07-12-2016, 09:18 AM | #7 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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It was a tough day yesterday
Many things happened It all started when I was put on hold for 16:22 seconds on the phone She was still in the ER First nurse to attend to care for my child Nurse Rob when got that phone call At 1:30 in the morning I do not have to tell anyone what that feels like All of her insulin she would have been successful the doctor said if just less then a half hour before she went to the hospital Spoke to Rob again in the morning she was stable As the day went on I had the worse experience of my life wit nurse Cathy Who brushed me off a quick as quick is I pulled a dress over my head Put the food that was made for my two at home in containers and shot over to the hospital in a hop skip and a jump As they ate in the car I rushed my head ready to explode I was so angry Each of you special wonderful souls If I haven't said it a hundred times Here goes That phone call Has been a fear since she has left when younger This is my fear with Corissa also My child distraught about life and not able to stay clean is weighing heavy on her heart She sees no hope Until mommy came down and took care of business And I mean business Told by this woman who in my opinion had no business being in the field she was in was just the pushing that button I not only got police escort along with security to see my child But to speak with the attending supervisor about the utter disregard to a patients my daughter I understand the law but to give me just the vitals Is she alive or dead Is she breathing or not Do they even know I was the one who called the hospital to let them know what she did they had no clue what was wrong until I called And then to be ignored by a nurse who could have spent sixty second with me hung up She is stable They gave her a bed real quick Was in the ER for almost 48hours And there were beds available I am floored at the health care provided by some very unprofessional manner And a system that NEEDS REVAMPING my father shot and kill himself around the block from our home at the age of forty seven that was thirty six years ago I was nineteen already lef my home Because of him I have been in that dark place for about two years not to long ago not to Lang ago All my children tried to off themselves at one time or another And each time one falls into that abyss I try so hard to listen to the same difference Excuses changed over and over again I cannot do anything but let them know I live them I would be broken if they succeeded We would be broken as a family Each of my children brilliant in their own right Brilliant that is sometimes a curse My child who was almost successful Has everything to live for This is not about mommy It is mommy they call out for when they don't want to die She is distraught in her early thirties was problematic in her behavior while getting ready to enter high school A talented natural When she was born attracted attention And took that with her throughout her live And lost sight about herself Hung out with true thugs and drugs Guns violence This is what her twenties was all about Helpless and powerless and was getting myself the help needed AA my medicine Living life on life terms Not an easy thing to do Especially in today's world I care very much about getting the WORD OUT THERE IT IS POSSIBLE ONE CAN LIVE SOBER it is the ugly things one must work through And FORGIVE THEMSELVES THEY MUST FORGIVE THEMSELVES AND WANT TO LIVE I know I'm living it Oh how many times just for a brief moment The thought comes into my mind and think No more anything Just over But is it really How do we know I will always be the rock of this family When she seen me come around the curtain She was my baby all over again Today she is in a room upstairs I want to express how very sad I am how MENTAL HEALTH IS NOT ADDRESSED I understand how difficult this area is for many doctors We really really really need to look at society and see the mental BOILING POT THAT IS GROWING OUT THERE IN THE WORLD LOOK AT ALL THE PLASTIC SURGERY TO SUCH YOUNG CHILDREN FOR SOME WHO ARE TAUNTED by cruel children in school For example Ones ears may need pinning back For the taunting has taken away from that child And the parents don't get it or see it as a potential start of a difficult road of loving oneself You HAVE TO LOVE YOURSELF IT IS A MUST it is the backbone of our strength It is shown on different firms Some soft some brutally honest I will never give up on my babies And will alway be in there lives for as long as they want me in it I have come to learn my eldest has become a regular at a bar A place where poetry is read and shared She is on epileptic meds And drinking a absolute NO NO My son drinks My third child who is in the hospital drinks My youngest has entertained it to the point of blackout point All tried to kill themselves All stemming from a way they think they cannot change the pain that has built throught their lives The turn to numb it all I know what alcohol does It is my drug of choice Not today Not today I have chosen to go through this day Blessed by Heavenly Father and make it till I put my head down to retire for another day if Heavenly Father has me wake A choice Never easy Never Sometimes all I can say is Heavenly Father the pain this family suffers Will I get to see them get it without hurting themselves MENTAL DISEASE prevelent in the world We have heads of countries With young ones with the power to destroy the ENTIRE WORLD some haven't reached puberty and rule their country I think my point is understood I'm not talking politics Although it is ALL IN THE POLITICIANS HANDS TO GET TO THE ROOT OF MENTAL DISEASE LOOK IT IS REAL it can't get anymore real then to want to kill oneself And to think it will go away It will NEVER GO AWAY it is just like any other kind of addiction out of control How can this country no see what role they have in it all And not do anything about it My mother a perfect example Worried when we were young in the seventies that we were going to be drug addicts He was right Yet the one thing my mother did not see Is she became a physican induced addict who is out of control Was receptive to hearing "IT" Did not want to believe it She has had the trial of the "NEURO STIMULSTOR" It worked She is vacationing in her country Hungary and then to Italy where her exhusband who is with her will spend time with his family Upon her return She will resume the "NEURO STIM" possibility Hers began with chronic pain But that is not the point Suicide and any cry out I take seriously Very seriously The hospitals need to get a better handle on the very young to the elderly and all those inbetween Are crying out by acting out They are released back into the world Like my child a PCP user And that magical liquid that helps it along LEGALIZED ALCOHOL NOT LOOKED AT AS THE most dangerous drug out there I cannot do anything but call upon the angels Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost to be in their hearts and minds That they find that glimmer To look for it What is the medical community doing Sitting on their hands and look the other way Let me not forget the very few who DO TAKE IT SERIOUSLY I THANK BUT I DO NOT TRUST THEM OVERSEEING HER ESPECIALLY BECAUSE SHE IS A ADULT AND IS EASILY LET GO oh I forgot insurance If you don't have it you ARE not treated EQUAL shame For all the outpouring of well wishes for my family any and all prayers are ALWAYS welcomed I will call the director of the hospital and give recognition to those who helped my child And to bring to their attention of the few who hurt the system I thank you from the deepest place in my heart To those who suffer as my children My family My sisters Parents And the future of this world I pray change happen sooner then later What is going on is this country right NOW many who hate are ill mentally Where is the love Can we all agree to this With a heavy heart Love Me I am so lucky to have you all to hear me and be at my side and help when I cannot help them anymore when I just don't know what to do It hurts so deep and hard
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