Hi BJ

I wanted to let you know that I'm around tonight and I'm thinking of you.

I'll check in again a bit later and you can PM me if you would like to chat.

It is raining here and I'm wearing cozy PJ's. I'm going to watch a DVD movie while I work on my knitting. (socks for my dad) First I'll make a cup of tea ... and one for you too.

c|_| ~~~

(does that look like a cuppa tea?)

Hi BJ,

I'm just checking in ....

I hope you stop by to say 'hi' tonight, although I don't know your time zone and how late it is for you now. (It is about 9:30 pm for me.)

I'm watching 'Stranger Than Fiction' .... which is kinda strange ....

I'm taking a 'time out' to get some munchies. Would you like some popcorn?

I'm back again ...

'Stranger Than Fiction' is actually better ... and not so strange now.

Earlier today I went to the bookstore to pick up the new Harry Potter book which I had ordered for my son's upcoming birthday. He is away at camp for another week and I know he'll be happy to have the book to come home to.

I am about 1/2 way through knitting one sock for my dad. The top edge looks a bit too 'ruffly' so I think I'll have to turn it under and stitch it down once I'm finished knitting it. I'm using thicker yarn so I think it will end up looking like a slipper/sock.

Now I'm nibbling some honeydew melon.

I hope you are doing OK, BJ. How are your cats?

I got to play with a friend's kitty for a bit today and then I had cat fur on my black dress for the rest of the day! Oh well.

I hope you have a good rest tonight. I'm sending positive thoughts your way.

I'm off to bed ........

Nice to read you Scrabble!

BJ - did you know that Scrabble and I live in the same country/time zone - we often enjoy () the same rain storms!

BJ... I hope you are feeling better... why don't you start a new thread with an update for us all?

*womanwaving @ Addy

Hi BJ,


I like Addy's idea and I hope you do start a new thread with an update on how you are doing.

There are a lot of us who care about you.

I'm defeated. My pdoc is admitting me in to the hospital. I'm bit from mosquitoes, burnt to a crisp from sitting outside and I need help. I can't go through one more night like this. I'm so tired I'm hallucinating.

I feel like such a failure and I thought I could do this on my own but it's out of control.

thank you for being here for me. I'm sorry I didn't come back but I was trying so har d to sleep I took 6 sleeping pills. My pdoc will only give me so many at a time but it did nothing. I can't shut it off. I'm so tired. But I don't feel like I can contro it anymore. I want to go to heaven to see my mom and dad and if I do "it" I won't.

It's so embarrassing for me. I'm usually so strong but I don't know what's wrong . There's no embarrassed mood icon and if there was that would be me.

You are a winner dear girl...I'm so proud of you for going in for help. It's the right thing to do! And it will be ok BJ...honestly it will.

BJ ....

I'm glad you came by to post and I want you to know how strong I think you are because it takes strength to take action when you are feeling the way you do. It really is great that you recognize you need help from your doctor.

I agree with Alffe, I think it will be OK for you.

I hope you get some much needed rest and that you get good care at the hospital.

I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers ....

take care

(((BJ)))

I'm sorry this has been so hard on you, but you know in your heart your mother would not want you to join her in that manner. You may be feeling defeated, but at least your survival instincts are still intact. It sounds like a wise choice to give your mind/body a little reprieve from all of this. I hope it will bring you closer to finding peace of mind.