Alffe

No, I'm not feeling any better - only more alone. A while ago I asked my sister and a few very close friends around here to take a look at a board where my friends and I are getting beaten up and threatened.

I never got any feedback from them, so I asked if the link worked. Asked again for some feedback.

Apparently, they didn't do much reading. One friend never responded. The only responses I got were "that's great!" "I'm sorry you're sick" and "I've been busy - please remove anything you've said about me because that's not really true." If it's not really true, then why did she tell me it was - why did it play out like it was really true? I can't really do that because I don't know how to search the site, and it was said sometime after 11/06. She knows how sick I am and knows my vision is bad. She knows I'll also have to start all over defending myself if I go back and edit/delete posts over the last 5 years.

If my sister's main concern is her own personal life (which everyone already knows about), it doesn't say much about her concern for me. If they think those people who want to destroy my grave and sharpen their dog's teeth to keep me away is "great," it looks like I don't really have any friends or family at all.

All I really have in this world is an old/sick dog, sick husband, and a cat who likes to bite me. I can't keep dumping this on my husband, and my dog gets sick when I'm upset or start to cry.

I wonder if Alffe knows its been raining here since 3:00ish yesterday afternoon. There is some flooding, but so far nothing really bad. but then again i've not been out since 12:00 last night...

I wonder if you guys know i've to the ER twice since Friday. They finally decided i need to have an ultra sound done on my gall bladder. That is scheduled for Monday morning.

I wonder how people who are in constant pain cope.... I started hurting really bad with this gall baldder stuff yesterday around 3:00. They finally decided what it was and gave me some pain meds at 10:00ish last night. It felt like hard labor pains only up high.

I wonder if i can leave {{{HUGS}}} for Kathy to day....I have to go to the place i work at as the Senior choir i direct is singing at church services there this morning...

edited to add i wondered in the wrong thread LOL oh well......

I'm sorry Kathy, sorry for a lot of reasons. I'm sorry that you've learned those people aren't really your friends...that always hurts when we learn that..I've been there and done that.

But you're wrong...you aren't alone! There's always us... We may look like a last resort at times but we are consistant! We care. Sometimes it's really really hard to put things in perspective...to decide what's really important in our lives. For me it's people like you who are passionate about issues, (mine's the gov't....don't get me started).

You have a wonderful husband who adores you...and a dog that does too (guess he still is carrying around those stones?) and so many of us that admire the heck out of what you have to live with on a daily basis.

You don't have to forgive people who only pretended to be your friends.
Family .....well that's a tough one...been there and still trying to do that.

Ohhhhhhhh, contrare my dear! You have me.

And LOL at goofy Goofy! I started to question myself wondering how I ended up in the wonder thread, and then discovered that yes, I was in the right place and not the wonder thread. LOL

And Ms. Spanish Moss Moi...I don't remember saying that about Mr. Alffe except in jest maybe? Or, maybe he did skeer me, I dunno. OH WAIT! I remember! It was when I called Alffe's house at at, um...a later hour in the evening, and he didn't sound too happy about a late night call. Heh. Color me embarrassed that night.

Alffee - I'm so glad you got the chairs and at the price reduction! Yay!

KathyM - is there anything I can do to help?

Multi-tasking again....I'm reading two books at the same time, never a good idea...The Curious Incident of the dog in the night-time and Touched by Suicide by Michael Myers, M.D. and Carla Fine. The first is a novel and very novel indeed...almost finished with it. The second I'm trying to use as a self help book. I think I mentioned that I got to meet and hear Carla Fine speak...her husband killed himself...she has also written "No Time to Say Goodbye".

I've got ham loaves in the oven (trying to cook ahead a little so Doody and I can concentrate on playing)

We aren't going to talk about flatbread! It ain't the rolling pin Curious..it's me!

what's the weather like? humid...just forget it. it will never get thin or dry enough. even if it splits...roll super thin. don't worry about looks. hehe..you can always crack away the edges.

sounds like good books. i can't wrap my pea brain around anything that will help me right now. too much drama going on. i keep reading books just to help me relax while the melatonin, calcium and magnesium kick in. crime and law type novels.

Yes, it was very humid but our house is air conditioned to I didn't think that mattered. ~sigh Doody will get store bought flatbread....

Are you "self doctoring" curious? Are you feeling any better?

I have garlic soup simmering on the stove...whole house smells delicious...if you like garlic! *grin

YUM

last week in the oh so hot texas heat i had a craving for french onion soup. but naturally i had to throw a twist. i added a bunch..of garlic whike i was sautee'ing the onions. oh my...it was D-lish. all carmalized.

might want to wait onthe flat bread until the humidity goes way down. like making divinity or many candies, they just don't work in the wet weather.

been a rough week. i am doing my very best to control myself. it's hard. this school stuff with grandmonkey.

((((((((HUGS))))))))) for you Curious.

I love listening to you guys talking about food... its so comforting... it really is.. I think that's why I like to watch those cooking shows... I dunno....

KathyM... how are you deary? Are you going to see Doody this week? (I recall her saying that she'd be visiting you - maybe its after her visit with Alffe?)... anyhow... been thinking about you...

and thinking lots about Moi, too ... even all these miles away... Iit is hard, sometimes, to put into words how much all of you mean in my lives.
Man he's lucky to have Spanish Moss...
Man she's lucky to have Moi

I've been thinking lots about Alffe today... and songs keep going thru my head... songs that I think both of us could relate to even though our son stories are so different.

And Doody and Alffe together - how lovely that the two of you have such a special friendship!!!

I think I went way off topic ... and should probably have written some of this or most of this or all of this in another thread... lol...

I can't even find a mood to describe where I'm at right now...
so I stick with my old favourite - Mellow... or Pensive...

I wish there was an icon for "stuck"... cuz I'm in stall mood right now... my creative wheels have been turning...
So....I'm taking a breath before the uphill slope on this path pushes me down.

wonder if there is an icon for all that?

ok... back on topic - yep, lots on my plate ... and to top all that off I'm still singing my little heart out!