I wonder if this is really number 50 or did I lose track somewhere....

I wonder how long this train is that I am under....

I wonder that I no longer care... it's been running over me for so long that i'm getting used to getting run over...

I wonder why the harshest of words are sometimes what's needed to make us open our eyes....

I wonder that i sat at my doctors office for 3 hours today... after he saw me.... I just couldn't leave....

I wonder if you all know that I have so many wonders but they don't make a lick of sense right now...

I wonder if BJ knows that I sooo admire her strength and courage!!!

I wonder at Alffe... bouncing on her bed to get the spidey webs...

I wonder if I can just leave a BIG HUG for all... and go now...

Abbie...

Come out for a min. and get a Cause ya need one..Sue

I wonder if I can hug Abbie too

I wonder if I can leave one for BJ
and for the room
and tell yas again how it brings me to a really special place inside of me whenever I have spent time here.
Thank you

I wonder if anyone else hears a song on the radio and it's the song that they need to hear at that time... (i hope that makes sense)

I wonder that I heard ANGELS AMONG US today as I turned on the car...

I wonder if it's weird that when I got out of the car last night that it was the song on the radio too....

I wonder if that means that I was supposed to hear that song??


sigh....
abbie

i wonder if abbie knows i think she is on to something?

i wonder what it means to me then...that lilmonkey and grandmonkey have been watching high school musical 1 and 2 over and over?

i wonder if abbie knows how much i care?

i wonder if we are going to find a pair of jeans for lil'monkey today that are long enough? i think her inseam is 36" and she wants a pair to wear with heals. <-----yes...that is me looking up...wayyyy up at her.

i wonder if i told y'all grandmonkey finally got registered for kindergarden? but oy...even the principal said they have the worst traffic inthe whole district.

I wonder that I discovered that Razzle doesn't live too far from me and she has a friend where I live.

I wonder if this will be a short wonder because my hands have been abused. I just finished mowing and trimming my lawn and pulling weeds AND trimming bushes with a big scary huge trimmer. I'm EXHAUSTED.

I wonder how it will go babysitting Granddoody tonight. Parents are having a parents night with their friends at the state fair.

I wonder that we've finally gotten rain. What a BEAUTIFUL rain we had last night. Thunder and lightning, but no strong winds. Just a hard beautiful rain.

I wonder if Scrabble will read this. I didn't think Big Brother was on Friday nights. The last one I saw was Thursday, AND SCRABBLE, IT WAS FRIGGING AWESOME!!!!!! You probably aren't a fan of Evil **** and his daughter Danielle, but ED was put up on the block with Danielle.

Evil **** WON the veto and he used it on his daughter to save her from the block. So, Dustin was put up, and he thought he had it in the bag. NOT!!!!! They voted 4-2 to boot out Dustin.

And not only THAT!!!!! Danielle then won the head of household!!!! YEHAAA!!!! I was laughing and yelling and jumping up and down! All the other people make me cringe. I'd like to see Danielle and one other person go to the end and Danielle get it.

And that is the synopsis of Big Brother. I can hardly wait to see it until tomorrow night.

I wonder when I'll stop sweating from mowing.

I wonder if you'd like to see a pumpkin that weighs 1,175 lbs! HUGE FAIR WINNING PUMPKIN.

I wonder if I too can leave Abbie a hug and BJ and lots of kisses. Plus, hugs for the room.

I wonder why people think it's so much fun to fight, 'specially those who say they just want a little peace in their world.

I wonder why people think it's fun to watch others struggle to survive and fight off predators.

I wonder why people like to kill animals, then pick them apart to study them - just to see how fast they run.

I wonder why these voyeurs decide to wait their turn at playing predator to these people who are struggling to survive. I guess they think tag-team wrestling is fun.

I wonder if some of my friends may have found their way over here. I wonder if they will be treated like dirt or puppets - or be accused of being a troll and promptly banned from seeking a little health and comfort.

I wonder why I can't go outside and play with my friends, like other people do.

I wonder why I can't just be friends with them out in the open without getting attacked, like other people do with their friends.

I wonder why I have to hide in closets just to say "hello, how are you." or tell them about my day.

I wonder why people want to throw cigarette butts, trash and vomit on my grave.

I wonder why people say they need to sharpen their dog's teeth before allowing me to come anywhere near their homes or families?

I wonder why the only time I'm wanted is when I can entertain others.

I wonder why I feel so used and abused.

I wonder if dear ((Kathy)) needs a hug today...

I wonder if I can leave her a big hug.

I wonder that I need to excuse myself now to take a much needed bath, go fuel up the car and head back down to Granddoody's house before I get a call saying, "WHERE ARE YOU MOM!? GET DOWN HERE!"

Hugs for the room.

I wonder if my friends will be fed to the wolves if I take a break from all of this.

I wonder who will protect my friends when I'm gone.

I wonder if any human beings would ever try to protect them - with more than just prescripted words of encouragement.

When I die......

I wonder if it's okay if no one finds out.

I wonder if it's okay if no one knows where my body went.

I wonder if it's okay to tell them not to hunt down my grave.

I wonder why people want to leave me alone while I'm alive, but threaten to keep me company after I die.

I wonder why I wish I never posted my photograph here.

Kathy??
Dear Kathy -- you know I'm not smart and I misunderstand a lot. (that's why I'm quiet)
So Please tell me you're OK. Please.