are you taking zoloft or any other SSRI?
you are very young, but please know this these chemicals the doctors give us
can have a very bad reaction sometimes -they produce the very thing
you do not want, more depression, -this is called - adverse reactions:

zoloft -
Zoloft is the brand name for Sertraline, and antidepressant, antiobsessional, and antipanic agent. It is an SSRI - Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor, which is a class of drugs that increase the levels of serotonin in a patient.

Zoloft may take effect in one to three weeks or more.

Why is this drug prescribed?
Zoloft is used in children to treat obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). The obsessions or compulsions must cause marked distress, are time-consuming, or significantly interfere with social or occupational functioning.

Other uses of Zoloft include:

depression
panic attacks / panic disorder
post-trauma stress
social phobia
obesity
premenstrual syndrome
Warnings and Precautions
Zoloft has been tested in children 6 to 17 years of age with obsessive-compulsive disorder, and has not been shown to cause different side effects or problems than it does in adults. Because Zoloft can cause decreased appetite, children taking Zoloft long-term should have their growth and body weight measured regularly.

Zoloft does not have a known sedative effect, but people taking Zoloft should not drive or operate heavy machinery until the effects of Zoloft are known.

For Pregnant or Nursing Mothers: Research indicates that Zoloft has no harmful effects during pregnancy. Zoloft passes into breast milk; no adverse effects on the infant have been reported, but the long-term effects are not known. As with all medications, pregnant or nursing women should be cautious when using this drug.

Contraindications
Zoloft should not be used for people with the following medical conditions:

an allergic or negative reaction to this drug in the past
a history of seizures
recent heart attack
kidney disease
Parkinson's disease
liver disease
epilepsy
Adverse Reactions
Zoloft may cause the following reactions:

fast heart rate, palpitations
dizziness or lightheadedness
fast talking, excited feelings
skin rash, itching (hives)
unusual tiredness or weakness
confusion
flushing
sweating
muscle spasms
nausea, vomiting
diarrhea
decreased appetite
weight loss
dry mouth
vaginitis
insomnia
headache
indigestion,
fatigue
insomnia
nervousness
stupor
Interactions with Drugs and Other Substances
Drugs or substances that may interact with Zoloft are:

cimetidine
diazepam
furazolidone
molindone
MAO inhibitors such as phenelzine (Nardil®), tranylcypromine (Parnate®), isocarboxazid (Marplan®) - serious, even fatal, interactions can occur when these medications are taken with Zoloft
medicines for mental depression, mania, anxiety, psychosis or difficulty sleeping
procarbazine
selegiline
tolbutamide
Valium (diazepam), Orinase (tolbutamide), and Coumadin (warfarin) – their effects may be increased
illicit drugs (LSD, cocaine, methamphetamine)
antihistamines (Seldane, Histmanal)
certain antibiotics
calcium channel blockers
Antidiabetic drugs - risk of hypoglycemic reactions may increase when taken with Zoloft
Tambocor (flecainide) may lead to flecainide toxicity
Norvir (ritonavir) can lead to toxicity
alcohol
Sources

http://www.rxlist.com/script/main/hp.asp

http://www.mentalhealth.com/drug/p30-z02.html

thanks,
I have taken 2 sets of anti-depressants. The first simply didn't work and the second i felt made me self harm alot worse. I went back to the drs which is why i'm actually seeing a member of the mental health team at some point....
I have quite a few left over from my 'wiening' off stage. Not great. I do get a prone to taking a few all at once when i'm down to try and alter my mood state. I've only done it twice, it just makes me sick but it gives me something else to focus on for awhile.

No, ((((((Helen)))))),

I don't think you're odd at all. I think that you've got a problem that you don't know how to solve and you feel overwhelmed by the whole thing

I see what you mean about some of the symptoms sounding 'bipolar'. I'm not bipolar. Have no experience with that. My label is borderline personality disorder with depression, which, I think, is sort of a cousin to bipolar. Which is probably why I feel such a connection to you guys

Helen, have you had a real good medical checkup recently?? I don't why this comes to mind, but, the first thing I thought when I read that other thread was epilepsy or seizures.

"Five years doesn't sound long" it sounds like an eternity

Helen, if you don't feel safe right now, either call the police at 9-1-1 or go to the emergency room and tell them: "you are not safe, you are suicidal".

I'd like to see you get a real good medical workup -- physical, blood tests, MRI or CT scan of your head. This is only my "Inner Moose Instinct" talking to me -- but, it sounds to me like there's something medically going on.

You know, sometimes, we feel so responsible for other people in the world that we feel guilty when something bad happens. I felt that way for a long time after my Brother died. I felt "responsible" because I knew there was something 'not right' with him and I did not act. The thing I finally had to forgive myself for was I was an immature, unworldly teenager/20-something year old that didn't have the skills or the knowledge to solve the problems that were in front of me. They were my parents' problems to solve. And they were just as immature and unworldly as I was.

Forgive yourself, Helen. All of us of who make decisions and then act, usually are not intentionally meaning to cause any harm. Sometimes we just don't have the knowledge necessary to make that kind of decision. Sometimes we don't have enough information. Time and destiny and circumstances don't always wait until we're "grown up enough" or "educated enough" -- sometimes you have to make a decision NOW and learn to live with the consequences later. That's why "self", above everyone else, should be forgiven first and FAST.

Take care of yourself tonight. If you think you'll be safe, have a nice cup of tea in a pretty cup and hug your pillow and visualize all of us standing with you -- sitting on the floor next to you, standing in back of you in case you fall backwards, standing on your left and your right ... so you can't fall over sideways.

If you think you'll be safer in the hospital, either call the police or go to the emergency room. We'll wait right here for you.

BIG HUGS.

Barb

Hi,
Yes! Go to causualty, bring any medication you are on, and bring print outs of what you wrote from this site,
Tell them you are suicidal and that you are not safe at home.

The person in charge of triage will either ask you to wait or take you right in depending on how busy they are.

Go. Take this trip to the hospital to save yourself. You are not mad. You are on a quest to save yourself.
I hear in your posts that you have a lot going on inside you. You don't have to carry all this load by yourself. The people at the hospital can help you. That's why they are there.

Mari

Hi Bamboo, I see you've gotten a lot of good advice. It takes time and patience to hit on the right combination of meds to help you...everyone's a little different but you need a good dr. who's willing to work with you. I hope you'll hang in here with everyone and continue to talk...it really helps.

Hi Bamboo,
It's a new day for you in the UK.
How are you feeling?

Mari

I'm sorry we have to meet this way (((Bamboo))).

Please go to your hospital today. Tell them that you are suicidal.
It will take courage.

It took courage to write what you have written ..... and you are in the right place for support.

Go to the hospital.

Be humble and accept the help that will surround you.

We all speak from experience dear one. We know how difficult this will be... and we're here because we survived it.

Please go to your hospital Emergency Ward.

dear everyone,

thank you for your continual support. I made it through the night.
I didn't sleep at all mainly because i did take a couple of anti-depressants and it gave me an awful headache, fast thoughts and sickness.

today is a new day but i will sleep through most of it, if i can. i am not as far on the edge today as i was yesterday. Right now i'm simply tired.

i have not ever had a medical check up, the first dr i saw did not ask me any questions or take any history like that and when i asked my dr i have now if i should be checked out medically he said there wasn't any point as i have felt like this for so long and there are no other symptoms.

i'm really tired.
thank you for keeping me going last night, i would not have coped without you all.

Dear Bamboo ~ ~ Some of us are here almost all of the time and we want to help you all we can.
Please get some rest now and then let us know how things are going.

I haven't managed to get out of my pjs yet, nor eat or move really except to be sick.
I'm blank. I self harmed.

sorry for this.