Originally Posted by DMACK (Post 383580)

ACCIDENT=dictionary deffinition=

'any unpleasant or unfortunate occurrence that causes injury, loss, suffering, or death; some untoward occurrence aside from the usual course of events. An event that takes place without one's foresight or expectation; an undesigned, sudden, and unexpected event'.

Alffe..........a tragic accident it was.


As with all accidents if the ingriedients are at hand, the chances of an accident occurring multiply.

In my own experience, frustration, pain at the time, the inabilllity to communicate my inner desperation and remove the dark cloud hovering over my life, and addmittably an awful amount of alcohol, lead to my trajic accident. It was not until after the event did i notice the impact on others.

despair is a lonely place, sadly it has a habbit of holding on to your tongue, so that communicating its vile presence seems impossible.


David

Originally Posted by Nik-key (Post 383636)

I want desperately to believe it was an accident.
Twink I hope you don't mind, but what you wrote me
I would like to share here. "I can't help but feel your father wishes he could come back and hold you and apologize over and over. I'm sure he had no idea how devastating his action would be to his sweet daughter Nikki. "

I believe that with all that I am. The only thing I am clinging to is I
KNOW he couldn't have known how deeply this would hurt. It is trying
to destroy me. I know too, that is the very last thing he would wish
for me. I know how greatly he loved me.. and what is so ironic in a
twisted sort of way, is he was the one who always protected me..
the one I would run to when I was hurting. And yet, here I am falling
apart due to a choice he made. Lord but I don't think I can survive this!