Hi Bamboo

I saw your post on BP site, and whilst reading this site noticed your posts.

Bamboo.....Where do i begin..Firstly your poem was fantastic, your command of the English language is a credit to you. I am deeply concerned about how you have been feeling lately, and would like to share another commonality we have. ................Suicidal thoughts.

Many years ago i practically cut off my left hand. Sadly i cut the Median nerve and tendons, which i'm reminded of every day... of that event. The median nerve affects the feelings in the hand and fingers, and nearly fifteen years on I have permanent pins and needles in that hand.
After that episode my world fell apart, i was shunned, ignored, and castigated like a lepper. No one understood except my wife [ but it took her a week to talk to me] The in-laws took two years.

Over the years i've had recurrent bouts of depression mood swings, ups downs, and yes Suicidal thoughts. more so when my mood swings, up or down [usualy down] But these awful thoughts are their because of BP, [ i know now thank GOD] it has not made them disappear but i know, with support help, AND meds, i will survive. My true purpose in life is to hang around AND annoy everyone L.O.L.

Bamboo as soon as you feel these thoughts arriving, you must tell yourself that you are unwell. Then Get in a taxi, and go straight to A+E AND TELL THEM YOU FEEL SUICIDAL. I promise you, you will be seen immediately, you wont even have to sit in the waiting room. I have attended A+E a dozen times in 18 years [only once having hurt myself] but each time a valid and horrific reason. Ive spent time in hospital and each time recovered to some normality.

But by attending hospital in a psychotic way Doctors have now eventually joined up all the dots and given my condition a name.
IF you want people to know your in pain YOU HAVE TO TELL THEM HELEN.


As i said to you before the UK out patients system is crap, dont wait Helen, go directly to the source of help when you need it the most. YOU are the most important person your ever going to meet,in this world, and the rest of us travelling in this world want to meet you befriend you, share the rest of your life with you., work with you talk, and laugh with you. The world deserves to have in it Bamboo ....Helen, an intelligent, nature loving, kind hearted , and likeable SOUL like you in it.

You have the skills and knowledge of life, and humanity, to offer this world great things, you just dont know it yet. But whilst i'm on this planet, i'm going to keep telling you.


TAKE CARE OF YOU.

DAVID

Let me know how your doing now and then.


YOU ARE A WINNER, A SURVIVOR, AND A GREAT GIFT TO THIS WORLD