I wrote this because - you are not a waste of my life energy...

Dear sunnyside down,
You are not intruding in the least...
you are very depressed and this is the place to talk about your feelings. You sound sick and tired of being sick and tired.
This is depression.
Have you tried different meds, mixes of meds, are you bipolar?
WE have a forum jsut for that as well.
Do you have a therapist?
Have you found out if you like to journal and get things out on paper...or start a blog....
ARe you strong enough to make yourself take a walk everyd ay if you can?
Tell me about your suppoort system,,, the people in your life that you care about...any pets...they help to comfort us alot.
This is a struggle,,,this life we lead...we have to be active in getting well, we can't be passive about...things will be different for you when you decide they will be.
I wish you well ness and let us here your story.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

I don't know what nightmare you had to live through Sunnyside but we understand slipping in and out of reality. Sometimes our lives are too horrible to remember, to painful to think about....sometimes they come crashing back when we least expect it. I'm sorry... We are here for you and you can do this. I read that you have a T and I assume he/she is working with meds. for you. I don't need to tell you that it isn't going to be easy but you are worth it! Hang tough.

i like mine poached..scrambled...crispy fried sunny side down..just about any ole way...just not a raw shooter with a chaser of beer. my uncle drank those. beyond gross.

yep..kids had a good day. mine..so so..kinda blech.

how about a wave and no hug? you have mrsa..again? that is the chits. that stuff is tough. i know my kids schools are being very strict on the hand washing and using sanitizers. we own a business and sanitize everything many times a day. keep a commercial size bottle for the clients to use.

well boy howdy..i think you have met many of the regulars.

i'm glad you are posting. i know many things can't be shared on a forum. sometimes i wonder those things.

Hi Sunnysidedown,
I dont know exactly what demons you are fighting, but i've got a feeling i've been where you are. I was diagnosed with PTSD over alot of sexual abuse as a child and the flashbacks were horrid... I ended up in a hospital on suicide watch. I'm here to tell you things really do get better. That was 5 years ago. but still remember it clearly. If you'd like to chat, you can send me a PM...
I have to get my kiddos to school and then go to work, but i'll be back online this evening...
vicky

You are very welcome Sunnyside but we haven't done anything yet. *grin
We are hard to get rid of....oh and don't worry for a second about our CT (Tena) She is one tough lady who just keeps on keeping on.

Now about you........we get it...you wish you were dead. We've all felt that way at times...some of us still do. It's nothing to be embarrassed about...it's important to talk about how you feel. (That old elephant in the room that doesn't go away)

Have you read Pter's wise words at the top of the forum? The ones about redirecting your thoughts...about rescuing yourself on a daily basis?

Hopelessness is an awful feeling...you need a reason to live. And here we all are...wanting to be one of your reasons.

Hi sunnyside. I hope you keep up the dialogue here. There really are some very understanding and supportive people who visit and post.

Alffe .... you said you like "irritable" ?? (As long as it isn't in the same sentence as 'bowel' ... LOL!)

SUNNYSIDEDOWN

Your never alone in your thoughts and your pain. Your mind and soul are always aware of the hurt you feel. Those arround you see your pain only few chosses to talk about it.

When i said i get Manic , sadly its not the happy mania mine is always depression aswell, so i'll keep my mania, but i'm still willing to share your depression with you.


Life is at times the prevebial PIG,...And the cards were dealt often cruel, but they make us stronger when we overcome problems one at a time.

The past is full of memories and some memories are unhelpful and hinder our journey forward. its commonly called BAGGAGE.

So its time to clean out your closet.... things that in the past or present that make you feel ill, should be disgarded immediately, they weigh you down burden your mind and destroy your soul...It is time to be selfish think of your self.....concentrate on your needs.. you cant change the past but the future is yours to mold exactly how you want to.

Despair is a blight on life... hope is the cure....


I like my eggs scrambled by the way just like life, a mixed up pot, that tastes ok..........but if you eat to much you can occassionaly get fed up with it.

But eggs like life are very versitile and every day like life you can make a new choice to SUIT YOU.


ps SEND OVER SOME OF THAT PAIN, I'M READY TO SHARE IT WITH YOU FEEL PRETTY GOOD TO DAY.........[ and i still give a S**t..........]

David

Just wanted you to know i was thinking about you today!!!
{{{HUGS}}}}
vicky