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lou_lou 08-21-2008 10:06 PM

this famous woman wrote this at age 10
 
When I go down by the sandy shore
I can think of nothing I want more
Than to live by the booming blue sea
As the seagulls flutter round about me
I can run about when the tide is out
With the wind and the sand and the sea all about
And the seagulls are swirling and diving for fish.
Oh – to live by the sea is my only wish.

and her name was- guess who?
Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy...

http://www.jfklibrary.org/Historical...+1961-1963.htm

KathyM 08-26-2008 10:31 AM

Check out the PADS on MAX! :eek: :p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMKgb...eature=related

KathyM 08-28-2008 10:19 AM

"Alive and Kicking" - Simple Minds

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfNef6E5Jno

:grouphug:

KathyM 08-28-2008 04:37 PM

"I'll Be Missing You" Diddy :hug:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QJse82M6BM

:grouphug:

KathyM 08-29-2008 06:43 AM

"Spiders" - Moby :eek:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9IYNkTlXRc

da duck 08-31-2008 05:35 PM

reminder
 
the cut is deeper
a mortal wound
the blood runs fresher
pain comes soon
the blade is sharper
it has more sting
time does not comfort
truth has no ring
the night is darker
sleep does not mend
the scar forever
from the hand of a friend.
LM Hart © 2008

lou_lou 09-08-2008 07:03 AM

my memory of this poem -
 
when my son was in 1st grade he had to memorize this poem
and recite it -he loved poetry -he writes extremely well -
I am saddened he has no t spoken to me for almost 2 years...

here is the poem Ryan read to me


Who Has Seen the Wind?
by Christina Rossetti

Who has seen the wind?
Neither I nor you.
But when the leaves hang trembling,
The wind is passing through.
Who has seen the wind?
Neither you nor I.
But when the trees bow down their heads,
The wind is passing by.

mistiis 09-18-2008 12:18 PM

This one was inspired by a missionary I know who went through some really difficult stuff and now stands strong........I did not put the title because it has his name in it........

Did we not share in the vision
Of our Savior?

Do we not know
How He cares?

Were we not touched
By His effulgent Love,
And carried
As on the wings of a dove?

Gentle strength to help us bear
This journey's fare.

When, in hope, His Joy
Explodes in effervescence
Infusing our Souls,
Changing our hearts.

And turns our face
To Him behold
Our life in Him,
We are made whole!

I haven't shared this with anyone except the young missionary that I was inspired to write it for..........

mistiis 10-07-2008 09:20 AM

....someone who loves the ocean
 
Barefoot In The Sand

Crashing waves,
Rolling wonders
Spray uplifts - dapples
Blue sky palette,
No words - a place of strength!

Fluttering wings,
Sunlight filters
Through orange mosaics -
Beauty dancing,
Takes my breath away,
Leaves me transported,
No words - a place of wonder!

Sand encases, caresses,
Connects heart, body, and Soul
Balanced, soothed -
Connections: past, present, future.
No words - a place of peace!

Loosened! Freed! -
The child in me.
Creation, Created, Creator
Connections - Run free!
No words - a place of joy!

Blowing wind,
Off the ocean,
Cleanses the Soul,
Refreshes the Mind,
No words - a place of renewal!

I am barefoot
In the Sand!

:) :hug: :grouphug:

lou_lou 10-15-2008 12:17 PM

creative
 
http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3022/...bc107b4fb3.jpg

mistiis 11-18-2008 12:38 PM

...as I promised....for you (((Ctena)))...I wrote this on Easter morning 2 years ago....I like to think about it as I walk through the winters of my life....spring will come!!!

Easter's Price For Me

The storm is past,
A new Era dawns.
Show me your way,
Each and every day.

You are my anchor,
And my mast,
Guiding me
With the wind of Your Spirit-
filling my sails.
My love for you in joy overflows!

Let me not forget,
Nor tarry long
As I journey through
The whole night's song.

Within, my heart is filled,
No longer jailed
By life's worldly gales.
You took them
On Calvary's Hill,
And in the Garden of Gethsemane!


I haven't learned how to put up my pictures yet, or I would put one here for you. I love photography as well. My good camera is not working.....:hug:

lou_lou 11-18-2008 06:37 PM

dear one!
 
Quote:

Originally Posted by mistiis (Post 410389)
...as I promised....for you (((Ctena)))...I wrote this on Easter morning 2 years ago....I like to think about it as I walk through the winters of my life....spring will come!!!

Easter's Price For Me

The storm is past,
A new Era dawns.
Show me your way,
Each and every day.

You are my anchor,
And my mast,
Guiding me
With the wind of Your Spirit-
filling my sails.
My love for you in joy overflows!

Let me not forget,
Nor tarry long
As I journey through
The whole night's song.

Within, my heart is filled,
No longer jailed
By life's worldly gales.
You took them
On Calvary's Hill,
And in the Garden of Gethsemane!


I haven't learned how to put up my pictures yet, or I would put one here for you. I love photography as well. My good camera is not working.....:hug:

thank you!
http://dl4.glitter-graphics.net/pub/...wfz8796d5i.gif

lou_lou 11-18-2008 06:42 PM

mistiis
 
(((hugstoyou)))
if you wish to put a jpg file
you do this but no spaces
[img] www .whateverpictureyouhavethecodefor.jpg [/img]
no spaces...try it a few times...
http://dl2.glitter-graphics.net/pub/...txigtzolfg.jpg

Burntmarshmallow 11-18-2008 09:08 PM

My Take -BMW-
Feel it approaching , prepare for battle to engage
As it squeezes tight my space with a pressure change.
My whole body aches from the invisible force.
I must face the Beast NOW there is no changing the course.
I lay still as stones not daring it to strike .
Then it lashes me anyways the pain level spikes.
It tears at my face electrical claws shred
I hear myself breathing and it hurts bad in my head.
Throbbing with each breath, beating so loud
Facing the beast inside a thick war cloud.
One on one in the fog just it and me.
I have been here yes I know the admission fee.
The alone isolation I am a fly trapped in a jar
Try to keep going ,the barrier wont let me get far.
I have to carry it with me, wear it like lotion .
Fight the urge to think the attack is even a commotion .
Realize hell is nothing more then a sensation.
In battle, facing the demon there is no imitation .
And I shake for no reason , I just shake shake shake
Its present is permanent I must take take take.

Alffe 11-19-2008 06:24 AM

Such intensity..I almost can feel it. :hug:

mistiis 11-22-2008 12:47 AM

....for my struggling friend
 
....sometimes this is the only way I can express what I am feeling. I hope it helps, and will touch your heart as you have touched mine.

WHEN ALL DOORS SLAM

To find a way,
I reach and try,
Seems I hold no sway.

Uncaring world,
It all seems black,
I'm caught up in the swirl.

Can't control,
Events around me
Fear lurks at every door.

Slam them shut!
I will not see,
What's pent up,
Inside of me!

Sick and lonely,
No one there.
Can they hear? Do they care?

Isolated...
Dark and bent,
I truly am
All spent!

On my knees,
In desperation,
How to live or die?

Prayer is there!
I know we share,
The love
His children bear.

They're spent and lonely,
Sick and dying,
Only need,
Someone to share.

A helping hand,
A friend to care,
Magic happens there!

My mind is lifted!
Smiles are gifted!
My heart is shifted!
A friend is mended!


MY PRAYER FOR YOU

I can not find
The path before me,
People everywhere.

I want to run,
I want to hide,
Pull it all inside.

Help me Lord,
To give the love
That you prescribe.

Give me strength,
To fight this battle,
Angels to light my way.
Lift my feet...be my hands...
So I can find a way!


.......someone who's struggled, and cares...:hug:

Burntmarshmallow 11-25-2008 08:08 PM

Alffe Mom asked if I would post this up here instead of the wonder thread and I am changing the line "poetry slam" to - life. :)

“Chain saw” -BMW '08-
The thought caught me
Stung me boring
Tearing like a chain saw
Bleeding a purpose
Spilling drops of stubborn persistence
I gather my strength
And proceeded
Like a chain saw
Buzzing ,smoking
Cutting threw
Life Like
A chain saw.

Alffe 11-25-2008 08:11 PM

I love this! Thank you BMW...

lou_lou 11-30-2008 05:57 AM

my philosophy of life -wisdom in the quotes
 
by William H. Channing



To live content with small means;
To seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion;
To be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich,
To study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly;
To listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart;

To bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never.
In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common.

This is to be my symphony.

Alffe 12-01-2008 09:23 PM

It Hurts
 
It Hurts

It hurts because,
You were a special friend,
It hurts because,
Your life has come to an end.
It hurts because,
It was never meant to be,
It hurts because,
You always meant so much to me.
It hurts because,
I could always feel your pain,
It hurts because,
I know I'll never see you again.
It hurts because,
I knew what you were going through,
It hurts because,
I couldn't reach out and comfort you.
It hurts because,
I couldn't help you find the way,
It hurts because,
I couldn't find the right words to say.
It hurts because,
You really touched my heart,
It hurts because,
It has now been torn apart.
It hurts because,
We can't share secrets anymore,
It hurts because,
It won't be like it was before.
It hurts because,
You were too young to die,
It hurts because,
I never got the chance to say goodbye...

{©2008 Jan B.}
:hug:
~Jaime~
__________________

Burntmarshmallow 12-01-2008 09:31 PM

My pal "Jaime_S " did that poem Alffe mom. She is a pretty good writer and she draws/paints really fine too. Yesterday was her birthday .
It is nice to see her work up here :cool:
PEACE
BMW

Alffe 12-02-2008 06:26 AM

I'll Never Understand

When I found you crying,
I didn't know what to do,
I held you close,
And tried so hard to comfort you.
But it wasn't enough,
I could never take away your pain,
Erase the past,
Or convince you to try again.
If only I had been there,
If I had known right from the start,
Maybe I could have helped,
But could I have prevented a broken heart?
You've changed so much,
Nothing would ever be the same,
It tore me apart,
To see you taking all the blame.
Your dreams were shattered,
And your spirit had been broken too,
More than you could take,
But I didn't know what you would do.
So I was unprepared,
For the shock that awaited me,
I didn't understand,
When you said you would soon be free.
I found you that morning,
Lying so peacefully on your bed,
I had this strange feeling,
I knew inside that you were dead.
I wanted to touch you,
But this inner fear kept me away,
I wept so hard,
For the dear friend I lost that day.
A bottle of pills,
Took away your life and your pain.
But it hurt so much,
Knowing I would never see you again.
Just why you gave in,
I'll never really understand,
Why didn't you fight,
Why didn't you reach out for my hand?
I wanted to help,
I wanted to be more than just a friend,
But it's too late now,
And it's so hard to believe it's the end.
I will never forget you,
You will be forever in my heart,
A sad and fragile soul,
A beautiful life that has been torn apart....
{©2004 Jan B.}
:hug:
__________________
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/im...ine=1219105061

Alffe 12-03-2008 11:56 AM

thank you wren and thank you mistiis for reminding us
 
http://www.findingjoymovie.com/land.html

Jaime_S 12-06-2008 10:00 PM

Mind Of Confusion

A mind of confusion,
You just can't seem to think straight,
You try to sort it out,
But wonder if it's all too late.

A maze of thoughts,
Conflicting inside your head,
It's so overwhelming,
This horrible feeling you always dread.

Nothing makes sense,
You feel you're spinning out of control,
It's so humiliating,
As it destroys your confidence and your soul.

A kind of torture,
Nothing but a constant intense pain,
Dragging you down,
Making you feel like you're going insane.

It's so hard to focus,
Some days you struggle to break free,
Find some direction,
And be the person you want to be...
{©2006 Jan B.}
:hug:
~Jaime~

jimzeeone 12-17-2008 12:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CTenaLouise (Post 171899)
The Fortress
by -tena

This fortress of walls that I have built
To suppress my rage, impatience and guilt
I need them there to keep me sane
To keep silent the knowledge of the pain


I have subconsciously put up these bars
To halt the tears and hide the scars
And forget the years the locust ate
To forgive myself and those I hate

I’ve put them there to save my heart
In case it heals from being broken apart
These are my walls of discontent
To hide my hell to a greater extent...

who dare go next?

peace and solice

da duck 12-20-2008 07:45 PM

Soon
 
Soon will come the day when I will have missed you longer than I knew you..
and then where will I be?
What will I know?
What will it mean?
Soon will be the day that I will have to say
I have been a widow longer than I was a wife...
And then who will I be?
Soon will be the day...
but not tomorrow.
Tomorrow only draws soon nearer...
Soon will come soon enough.
Tomorrow will come too soon.

LMH

To Wes, for our 29th anniversary...12/21/08

Nik-key 12-20-2008 09:57 PM

Ohh ((ducky)) :hug::hug:

lou_lou 12-27-2008 11:53 AM

Poetic Medicine. org
 
:Ponder:

http://www.poeticmedicine.org/
http://poeticmedicine.org/links.html#poetry_therapy
http://www.poetryandmedicine.com/

very intresting!

Alffe 01-04-2009 08:33 AM

Winter's Roads

by Ron Carnell

I cannot speak for all who stem
'Long roads less traveled as their way,
Nor question choices made by them
In days long past or nights long dim
by words they spoke and did not say.

Each road is long, though short it seems,
And credence gives each road a name
Of fantasies sun-drenched in beams
Or choices turned to darkened dreams,
To where each road wends just the same.

From North to South, then back again,
I followed birds like all the rest
Escaping nature's snowy den
On roads I've seen and places been,
Forsaking roads that traveled West.

This journey grows now to its end,
As road reflections lined in chrome
Give way to roads with greater bend
And empty signs that still pretend
They point the way to home sweet home.

But all roads lead to where we go
And where we go is where we've been,
So home is just a word we know,
That space in time most apropos
For where we want to be again.

For even home, it seems to me,
Is still a choice we all must face
From day to day and endlessly,
To choose if home is going to be
Another road - or just a place.

Alffe 01-27-2009 09:38 AM

Happy Birthday Louis Carroll
 
The Crocodile

by Lewis Carroll
How doth the little crocodile
Improve his shining tail,
And pour the waters of the Nile
On every golden scale!

How cheerfully he seems to grin,
How neatly spreads his claws,
And welcomes little fishes in,
With gently smiling jaws

Alffe 02-06-2009 10:05 AM

Uncle Jim

by Peter Meinke

What the children remember about Uncle Jim
is that on the train to Reno to get divorced
so he could marry again
he met another woman and woke up in California.
It took him seven years to untangle that dream
but a man who could sing like Uncle Jim
was bound to get in scrapes now and then:
he expected it and we expected it.

Mother said, It's because he was the middle child,
and Father said, Yeah, where there's trouble
Jim's in the middle.

When he lost his voice he lost all of it
to the surgeon's knife and refused the voice box
they wanted to insert. In fact he refused
almost everything. Look, they said,
it's up to you. How many years
do you want to live?
and Uncle Jim
held up one finger.
The middle one.

GmaSue 02-13-2009 03:32 AM

silence
when words would be better
words
when no safe ones exist
emotions
when all is begging for calm
calm
when intensity is needed

will it always be this faceted
stacked and balanced off balance
as oblique angles of opposites
fight for relevance

in a perfect world,
only safe words would be said
calmness would bring respite
emotions would morph into true feelings
and intensity would spark a revival

but until then
words will come out stumbling
never knowing for sure if they helped
or caused pain
and the ratio of intensity to calmnes
will never be exactly right.

lou_lou 02-22-2009 03:07 PM

Eldorado~~~
 
ELDORADO

by: Edgar Allan Poe (1809-1849)

Gaily bedight,
A gallant knight,
In sunshine and in shadow,
Had journeyed long,
Singing a song,
In search of Eldorado.
But he grew old—
This knight so bold—
And o'er his heart a shadow
Fell as he found
No spot of ground
That looked like Eldorado.


And, as his strength
Failed him at length,
He met a pilgrim shadow—
"Shadow," said he,
"Where can it be—
This land of Eldorado?"


"Over the Mountains
Of the Moon,
Down the Valley of the Shadow,
Ride, boldly ride,"
The shade replied,
"If you seek for Eldorado!"

lou_lou 03-11-2009 07:01 AM

'Tis the Set of the Sail by poetess -Ella Wheeler Wilcox
 
'Tis the Set of the Sail -- or -- One Ship Sails East

Ella Wheeler Wilcox 1916

But to every mind there openeth,
A way, and way, and away,
A high soul climbs the highway,
And the low soul gropes the low,
And in between on the misty flats,
The rest drift to and fro.

But to every man there openeth,
A high way and a low,
And every mind decideth,
The way his soul shall go.

One ship sails East,
And another West,
By the self-same winds that blow,
'Tis the set of the sails
And not the gales,
That tells the way we go.

Like the winds of the sea
Are the waves of time,
As we journey along through life,
'Tis the set of the soul,
That determines the goal,
And not the calm or the strife.

BlueMajo 03-11-2009 01:14 PM

"Cry" - James Blunt

I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel a fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
Once again.
Cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.



I so want to cry right now.... :(

Doody 03-12-2009 10:11 AM

Little Cloud
 
Little Cloud
© 1999 Mike Bosson

When we look at a cloud,
we look at it and call it a cloud,
but we know it is composed of other things.

Today it is a cloud,
but yesterday it was part of the ocean
and tomorrow it will be rain,
we know this and don't struggle with it.

We don't hold one stage as being
more important than the other,
the ocean is beautiful,
clouds are beautiful,
rain is beautiful.

When the cloud becomes rain
we don't say that the cloud has died
and lament its passing,
but it has died if we want to say
that the cloud no longer exists
in its previous form.

But we feel comforted because we know
that rain is essential to life on earth
and embrace the change,
the cloud in its new form.

It is only ego that holds that we are more important
than the cloud and makes us cling so dearly
to our present form.

From all I have observed in nature
and from within my soul,
I cannot believe that anything that exists
after death can be anything but wonderful.

lou_lou 03-16-2009 12:31 AM

Afternoon on a hiill
 
Edna St. Vincent Millay -

Afternoon On A Hill

I will be the gladdest thing
Under the sun!
I will touch a hundred flowers
And not pick one.

I will look at cliffs and clouds
With quiet eyes,
Watch the wind bow down the grass,
And the grass rise.

And when lights begin to show
Up from the town,
I will mark which must be mine,
And then start down!

Alffe 04-02-2009 08:38 AM

A Father's Pain
 
A Father’s Pain
by Larry Smith

My father ignored his pain,
rode it out without complaint—
high threshold they call it now.

He worked as a brakeman in snow and rain.
Once he pulled his own back tooth,
held the pain in his side one time
till it burst his appendix, then
lay in a hospital bed for days.

He wasn’t hard on us kids,
never struck us, took us to
doctors and dentists when needed.
He used to sing in the car
bought us root beers along the road.
He loved us with his deeds.

The day he died, he played golf
in the morning, came home,
muffling the pain in his arm,
went upstairs and lay down.

Alffe 04-06-2009 08:53 AM

Honey, Can You Hear Me

by James Tate

Alison stared into the mirror and combed her hair. How
beautiful she was! "I look awful," she said. I bent down and
tied my shoe and hit my head on the coffee table on the way up.
"Ouch," I said. "What did you say, honey?" she said. "I said
we ought to buy a new couch," I said. "I thought we just bought
one," she said. "We could buy another one so we'd have a backup
in case anything happens to this one," I said. She didn't answer
me, but continued to brush her hair. I stared down at my shoes
and said, "Something is so wrong there." "What did you say, honey?"
she said. I said, "It will be wonderful to be there tonight."
"Where's that, honey?" she said. "Wherever it is that we're going,"
I said. "We're not going anywhere," she said. "I meant here. It
will be wonderful to be here tonight," I said. "A little romantic
night at home," she said. What did she mean by "nomadic"? A little
nomadic night at home. There were times when I worried about
Alison. She hovered right on the borderline, about to cross over into
her own private realm, where nothing she sees or hears corresponds
to anything in the known world. I live with this fear daily. My
shoes are on the wrong feet, or so it seems to me now

Alffe 04-11-2009 08:54 AM

Simple Drops of Grace
 
In my fondest vision, I see you
dancing with incredible dexterity
and boundless elation.
leaping from cloud to cloud.
lighting flaming torches
to keep the darkness away from others
and hurling moonbeam spears
somewhere beyond forever.

I see you shining now in an ecstasy of perfection
and blending perfectly
with the glory of unlimited love.
You have resumed your dance
with the power of creation
and all the right moves are coming back.
And when play is over,
passion stilled for just a moment.

I see you peering over the precipice of heaven,
looking down to where we're rooted, awash in grief,
and breathing compassion and blessed assurance that
falls into our hearts like simple drops of grace.

author..Harold Hopkins


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