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Alffe 07-24-2011 08:57 PM

You know that I love you dear wren. :hug:

Lara 07-25-2011 08:07 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCa4B...eature=related

Mary Black
Heaven Knows No Frontiers.

tied 08-02-2011 12:34 AM

Lara
 
Love Walzing Matilda, learning it on guitar.

Lara 08-10-2011 06:42 AM

That's so cool. There's a history to it of course. (((tied)))

tied 08-25-2011 09:56 PM

Heaven
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1qE2vJdDw4

Lara 08-29-2011 05:34 AM

Enjoy
 
Gurrumul - Bapa
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DgRCBN9nyzI&feature=fvsr

Translation (not sure exactly how correct it is)

Quote:

Father

Grief have taken hold of me
for my father
when the sun sets
o..h, beloved father

Crying and crying
when the sun goes down
my mind there at Bekulnura
o..h, beloved father
m..m m..m m..

Two Gumatj ladies crying
ancestor boss ladies Dhuwandjika and Daylulu
when the sun sets
my mind there at the place Gunyanara (Belkulnara)
m..m m..m m..m

Alffe 08-29-2011 06:32 AM

Hauntingly beautiful Lara..thank you. I put it on my facebook wall. :hug:

Lara 09-01-2011 07:59 AM

Alffe
 
This is one of my favourite songs for a couple of reasons. To me it's my friend Brad's song, but I'll share it with you... I tried to find it on the YouTube, but the renditions there were not as good as on the original CD.
I shall endeavour to find the original studio rendition.

NATALIE MERCHANT

"Kind & Generous"

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
For your selflessness, my admiration
And for everything you've done

You know I'm bound...
I'm bound to thank you for it

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
And I never could have come this far without you
So for everything you've done

You know I'm bound...
I'm bound to thank you for it

I want to thank you
For so many gifts
You gave with love and tenderness
I want to thank you

I want to thank you
For your generosity
The love and the honesty
That you gave me

I want to thank you
Show my gratitude
My love and my respect for you
I want to thank you

I want to...

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

Found one... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5Zjr...eature=related
Natalie Merchant - Kind and Generous

It's a "different" film clip but it's the closest to the studio sound.

DMACK 09-03-2011 06:39 PM

My life is in turmoil at the moment... truly in free fall........and i listen to the words of this song and it gives me hope.........



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLEetXnb7hQ

I don?t know where I crossed the line
Was it something that I said or didn?t say this time?

And I don?t know if it?s me or you
But I can see the skies are changing
No longer shades of blue
I don?t know which way it?s gonna go

If it?s going to be a rainy day
There?s nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won?t stop the rain

You?re feeling like you?ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it?s done
We can make this last forever
So please don?t stop the rain

Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain

I thought that time was on our side
I?ve put in far too many years to let this pass us by

You see life is a crazy thing
There?ll be good times and there?ll be bad times
And everything in between
And I don?t know which ways it?s gonna go

If it?s going to be a rainy day
There?s nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/james-...in-lyrics.html ]
But that won?t stop the rain

Feeling like you?ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it?s done
We can make this last forever
So please don?t stop the rain

Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain

Oh, we?re a little closer now
In finding what life?s all about
Yeah, I know you just can?t stand it
When things don?t go your way
But we?ve got no control over what happens anyway

If it?s going to be a rainy day
There?s nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won?t stop the rain

Feeling like you?ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it?s done
We can make this last forever
So please don?t stop the rain

Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain

Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don?t stop the rain


David..................................


OK....rain................but occasionally please i beg....... let the Sun shine .................[i'm so tired]

Addy 09-04-2011 12:33 AM

I'm sorry David :hug: ... to read that your load is too much to bear...

Lara 09-04-2011 05:34 AM

I'm sorry too. :hug:

I truly was thinking about you when I checked here the past few days and I was hoping you were OK. I'm so used to seeing you post your songs here.

Thinking of you. I hope the sun shines through for you very soon.

DMACK 09-06-2011 06:06 AM

a poem re SELF HARM


Reflections

You think my self-harming means I’m not coping;
I think self-harm is helping me to cope.

You think I’m attention seeking;
I wish people’s attention didn’t need seeking.

You think you know why I self-harm;
I think it would be nice if somebody asked my opinion.

You think I should stop self-harming;
I think you should stop smoking and your fry-ups

You think I’m manipulating you;
I think if you took notice of what I said, I wouldn’t have to.

You think I’m a waste of time,;
I don’t feel people have wasted much time trying.

You feel that if I self-harm I might kill myself;
I think that if I didn’t self-harm I might kill myself.

You think that if you don’t talk to me when I self-harm then I’ll stop;
I think “so what’s new”.

You think that if you stitch me without an anesthetic it might put me off self-harming;
I think there are better ways to teach me to respect my body.

You think you can’t help me while I am self-harming;
I think that if I could stop then I wouldn’t need help!

You think that my self-harm is a big problem;
Often self-harm feels like the least of my problems.

You feel you have to manage my behaviour;
I wish you would just listen to me.

Today you said you couldn’t manage me, you were out of your mind with worry.
You said you felt a failure, because you didn’t have all the answers.
You looked me in the eye and said, “What do you need from me?”

Now I think we can get somewhere...

Anonymous [but very thought provoking]

David

Lara 09-06-2011 06:29 AM

sad hug :hug:

One back at you ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLlOeGeVih4&feature=fvsr

Everybody hurts sometime. REM

Hang on there David. We luv ya!

Hold on.

FeelinGoofy 09-12-2011 07:51 AM

I understand David..... if you need to chat please PM me.. {{{HUGS}}}

DMACK 09-14-2011 05:55 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nut5nQ-EMIE

DMACK 09-14-2011 07:55 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OuoaKai_L00&ob=av2e

JAMES MORRISON
..............................


I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/james-...ld-lyrics.html ]
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
Oh, we could start again

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
I can't feel it right now
I got all the right clothes to wear
I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
When you're with me

Alffe 09-27-2011 08:37 AM

Promiscuous
by William Matthews

"Mixes easily," dictionaries
used to say, a straight shot from the Latin.
Chemists applied the term to matter's
amiability.

But the Random House Dictionary
(1980) gives as its prime meaning:
"characterized
by frequent and indiscriminate

changes of one's sexual partners." Sounds
like a long way
to say "slut," that glob of blame we once threw
equally at men and women, all who slurred,

slavered, slobbered,
slumped, slept or lapsed, slunk or relapsed, slackened
(loose lips sink ships) or slubbed, or slovened, But soon
a slut was female. A much-bedded male.

got called a ladies' man; he never slept
with sluts. How sluts
got to be sluts is thus a mystery,
except the language knows what we may

have forgot. "Depression" began its career
in English in 1656, says
the OED,
and meant (science jargon) the opposite

of elevation—a hole or a rut,
perhaps, or, later, "the angular
distance of a celestial object
below the horizon,"

as Webster's Third (1963)
has it. There's ample record of our self-
deceit: language,
the furious river, carries on its foamed

and sinewed back all we thought we'd shucked off.
Of course it's all
pell-mell, head over heels, snickers and grief,
love notes and libel, fire and ice. In short:

promiscuous.

iri3po3try 09-29-2011 10:09 PM

moved
 
you are a very good po3t. i just got on this site today because of some google search i put it. i find your poetry irresistible.

Alffe 10-30-2011 08:34 AM

Sometimes, I Am Startled Out of Myself,

by Barbara Crooker

like this morning, when the wild geese came squawking,

flapping their rusty hinges, and something about their trek

across the sky made me think about my life, the places

of brokenness, the places of sorrow, the places where grief

has strung me out to dry. And then the geese come calling,

the leader falling back when tired, another taking her place.

Hope is borne on wings. Look at the trees. They turn to gold

for a brief while, then lose it all each November.

Through the cold months, they stand, take the worst

weather has to offer. And still, they put out shy green leaves

come April, come May. The geese glide over the cornfields,

land on the pond with its sedges and reeds.

You do not have to be wise. Even a goose knows how to find

shelter, where the corn still lies in the stubble and dried stalks.

All we do is pass through here, the best way we can.

They stitch up the sky, and it is whole again.

ginnie 10-30-2011 09:34 AM

Re: inspiration
 
The quote this morning by Barbara, gave me pause in my fright. It let me know we are all just passing though as best we can. I am in tears this morning and very afraid. I have some more medical problems that are coming about and I can't stop the tears. The language of the quote, touched me and let me know there is hope. ginnie

Lara 11-01-2011 07:26 AM

I must say... that is pretty darn amazing poetry. Rushing to read more... :D


ALL SOULS' DAY

Say November woods.
Say the colors of earth: ocher, sienna,
umber, a hearth where the fire's gone out.
Wind scours trees to their bones. A chevron
of geese cuts a wedge in the sky. Imagine
a hawk the color of winter. On the day
of the dead, he seeks a thermal and soars.
The dead rise, too, will-o-the-wisps
of mist & haze, tobacco smoke from Indian
pipes, the plumes of tall grasses.
They are always with us,
tangible as breath,
fill the interstices of then and now.
In the November woods, cold air
settles like a blanket.
The sky tucks itself in.
Everywhere, the silence
of all the folded wings.

~Barbara Crooker

Oh I love her poetry. It's not familiar to me here in my climate... all that talk of cold and woods and silence and folded wings.
It reminded me to go to my books and find a book that Tam once gave me. Many of you would remember Tam. It's called the Wisconsin Almanac and for November it says...

November

When Air gets light,
The glass falls low,
Batten down tight,
For the winds will blow

~ old sailor's proverb

Alffe 11-01-2011 09:56 AM

Reusing Words
 
by Hal Sirowitz

Don't think you know everything,
Father said, just because you're good
with words. They aren't everything.
I try to say the smallest amount possible.
Instead of using them indiscriminately
I try to conserve them. I'm the only one
in this household who recycles them. I
say the same thing over & over again,
like "Who forgot to turn out the lights?
Who forgot to clean up after themselves
in the bathroom?" Since you don't listen
I never have to think of other things to say.

Alffe 11-11-2011 10:39 AM

November Rain
 
by Linda Pastan

How separate we are
under our black umbrellas—dark
planets in our own small orbits,

hiding from this wet assault
of weather as if water
would violate the skin,

as if these raised silk canopies
could protect us
from whatever is coming next—

December with its white
enamel surfaces; the numbing
silences of winter.

From above we must look
like a family of bats—
ribbed wings spread

against the rain,
swooping towards any
makeshift shelter.

Alffe 12-03-2011 03:23 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjJ2gKcO71M

Thanks David!

ginnie 12-03-2011 03:59 PM

Hi alffe and david
 
I loved the vidio, even in the middle of your own trauma, you take time out to reach out to others. It was a beautiful Vidio, and I know it will touch alot of people too. I am thinking of your husband Alffe, still sending those healing thoughts his way. ginnie

DMACK 01-10-2012 05:09 PM

A poem i entered into a competition is being published.:D

its about a Soldier in the First World War in the trenches



Entrenched Senses:


Flash! A halo of yellow white light
Resonant cracking sounds of pop and thud
Acrid; Smokey stench of deathly mud.

Instantaneous sulphuric tang akin
Translucent feelings intense pain left within.
Vivid instant thoughts from home seep in.

Deep and profound unease, of foreboding woe
Visionary and pleading words make Amends aglow
Fleeting life, demised, a pause:
The Soul transcends or so seems so

by David

David

Alffe 01-10-2012 08:24 PM

Soulful....I especially love the title...and I think of your father....congratulations on being published....:hug:

ginnie 01-11-2012 03:18 PM

Re: to our poets
 
poetry speaks to the language of the soul. thank you ginnie

Alffe 01-15-2012 03:32 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0699bczcS0

I'm speechless! She is 3 1/2 yrs old!

Alffe 01-16-2012 06:07 AM

http://www.youtube.com/embed/MDOrzF7B2Kg

had to save it somewhere!

Lara 01-25-2012 05:32 AM

Barbara Crooker
 
Here's Barbara again... ;)

After The Holidays,

the house settles back into itself,
wrapped up in silence, a robe
around its shoulders. Nothing
is roasting in the oven or cooling
on the countertops. No presents
are waiting to be wrapped, no cards
fill the mouth of the mailbox.
All is calm, all is bright, sunlight
glinting off snow. No eggnog, no yule
log, no letters to be licked
and stamped. No more butter
cookies, no more fudge, just miles
to go on the treadmill, another round
plate added to the weight machine.
All our good intentions pave the road.
We stride out into the new year,
resolute to become firm, to define
our muscles, to tighten our borders.
The thin tinsel of the new moon
hangs in the dark sky, a comma
dividing the sentence between
last year’s troubles and this year’s
hopes. The calendar ruffles her pages,
a deck of shiny cards, deals out
a fresh new hand.
~Barbara Crooker

lou_lou 02-05-2012 01:09 AM

the valley of vision - puritan prayers
 
Lord, high and holy, meek and lowly, Thou hast brought me to the valley of vision, where I live in the depths but see Thee in the heights; hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold Thy glory. Let me learn by paradox that the way down is the way up, that to be low is to be high, that the broken heart is the healed heart, that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit, that the repenting soul is the victorious soul, that to have nothing is to possess all, that to bear the cross is to wear the crown, that to give is to receive, that the valley is the place of vision. Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells, and the deeper the wells the brighter Thy stars shine; let me find Thy light in my darkness, Thy life in my death, Thy joy in my sorrow, Thy grace in my sin, Thy riches in my poverty, Thy glory in my valley.

Alffe 02-06-2012 08:14 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWzgGl_zq98

Thank you Lonely1....it's a keeper. :hug:

ashleyitaa 02-21-2012 01:58 AM

...to halt the tears and hide the scars...story of my life:/ it feels like it never. ends D: sometime everything will not be an issue for any of us and we will all take happy pills:)

Quote:

Originally Posted by lou_lou (Post 171899)
The Fortress
by -tena

This fortress of walls that I have built
To suppress my rage, impatience and guilt
I need them there to keep me sane
To keep silent the knowledge of the pain


I have subconsciously put up these bars
To halt the tears and hide the scars
And forget the years the locust ate
To forgive myself and those I hate

I’ve put them there to save my heart
In case it heals from being broken apart
These are my walls of discontent
To hide my hell to a greater extent...










who dare go next?


Lara 02-21-2012 05:04 AM

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?


Edgar Allan Poe

Alffe 02-21-2012 09:55 AM

Nobody

by Michael Laskey

If you can't bring yourself to build
a snowman or even to clench
a snowball or two to fling
at the pine tree trunk, at least
find some reason to take you out

of yourself: scrape a patch of grass clear
for the birds maybe; prod at your shrubs
so they shake off the weight, straighten up;
or just stump about leaving prints
of your boots, your breath steaming out.

Promise. Don't let yourself in
for this moment again: the end
of the afternoon, drawing the curtains
on the glare of the garden, a whole
day of snow nobody's trodden.

ginnie 02-21-2012 10:03 AM

Hello askleyitaa
 
Welcome to Neuro Talk. I noticed you are new here and I want to say Hi to you. What you said in your post is true. sometimes the going is indeed rough! What ever happy pill you have I want one:). Neuro Talk is a good place to express ourselves. I need that too. I joined several years ago and just never left. I found great comfort here. Lots of good souls to hear our cries. I am glad you found this site. I hope you make some new friends too. ginnie

Lara 03-03-2012 08:46 AM

... But if you stay
 
Dusty Springfield - If You Go Away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyCVx...eature=related

Lara 03-23-2012 07:29 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gk20o...eature=related

Eva Cassidy - Autumn Leaves

Alffe 04-10-2012 10:09 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VdrjORe7kw

Thank you Lara. :hug:


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