[sunnysidedown]

A lot of people here have this list of things going on and they are all dealing with it and I know all the things that are suppose to get you through all this **** but I guess I'm lacking something because I don't understand how you find a purpose when things just keep going wrong. How do you figure out how to keep going?

[KathyM]

Sometimes we scream,
Sometimes we cry,
Sometimes we laugh, and
Sometimes we shake our heads and wonder why

When life gets overwhelming to me, I try my best to brace myself and do what I need to do to get through whatever crisis I'm dealing with most at the time. I keep going with the hope that I'll make it through and learn something valuable to help either me or someone else down the road.

[Wren]

hmmmmmm I bet I don't make a bit of sense. That's OK. I rarely do. I don't have enough to spread, do ?
I was a heavy smoker for 42 years and knew I couldn't quit ... I didn't really want to ... I loved every cigarette I lit. Then I was looking at all the hospital stays for that brain tumor including the long stay, wired in the bed for the VEEG ..... yikes.

Honest - I'm trying to talk about how I hang on some times when I think maybe I just cant.

The standard methods of quitting smoking didn't make sense to me but I was able to quit by just telling myself to "wait two hours and I could have one". And I just kept plugging on with other things. When I felt like I had to have that "two hour" smoke I promised myself one "the next morning". The next morning I said, to myself, that I was could have one just as soon as I did yadda yadda.

Did I make ANY sense? When I want something , something wrong, I promise myself I can have it, but I just have to wait.

So Sunnyside just keep waiting, keep plugging along
I wish I could give you candy cigarettes

[Alffe]

I doubt if there is a point. I think it's a trial and error thing...you have to have the courage to get up each day and just do it! It takes guts but you have to want to. You can't have a me me me attitude. Nobody ever said that this would be easy...there is no magic wand to make the allure of suicide go away...you have to fight it...you have to work hard to make a change in your life but most importantly....YOU have to want to!

[Addy]

Wren you make perfect sense!

Give yourself a break dear sunnysidedown... you're going to get thru this and wake up on the other side again... it seems impossible right now but it does happen... and especially if you set yourself little goals... like getting off the couch to pour a cold glass of water - drinking it is healthy - wow! that's a good thing to do!

I hope you see some hope... and pat yourself on the back for the least simple thing...

go get a glass of water
I hear it goes good with candy cigarettes

[sunnysidedown]

I guess I'm just to ****ed off right now. I'm tired 3 years 6 surgeries, taking care of in-laws, working until 6 mo ago, TM, MRSA, and in 3 wks time liver problems, sciatic, tennis elbow, HS, Progressive MS but don't tell anyone we can do this all by ourselves.

[dreambeliever128]

I just wanted to say hi and to say that we can't do this ourselves.

When we deal with major depression and suicidal tendencies we need help in getting through the hardest of times.

I just left my Dr./Councellor's office today. He talks me through the hardest of times and lets me talk through the hardest of times.

I won't go into my history of medical issues or personal but sometimes we have more on our plate then we can seem to deal with.

I do know where you are coming from. We have a lot of wonderful people on here that we can talk to and keep us company when we think we are alone.

I live by myself now and I come here to visit when I am feeling down. Holidays can be the worst for us.

I am glad that you have found the forum and if you stick around you will feel like you have found a family and that you are not alone.

Feel free to vent anytime.

Ada

[Curious]

ssd, no one here can give you one answer than solves all of lifes problems.

if you have toxic people in your life, then the best thing is to get away from them. at any cost. what ever it takes. starting over is not easy, but there is help out there.

but like alffe said, YOU have to find that tiny seed of want. feed it and help it grow into the desire to live.

nobody has the right to ever make another person feel that the one chance they have at life...is not worth living.

i think you do have some want in you. if you didn't, you never would have joined and even posted once. we never would have known you even exhisted.

take it minute by minute.