[jaded2nite]

I Have always been proud of my strength , have ALWAYS been the one that was there for others.

I am on my knees right now, I can't see myself going on this way for much longer.....I am depressed and YES never thought I would say it BUT ready to end it.

I kept hanging on because I have to care for Mom.....but she is so far gone now that it doesn't matter anymore, even if she goes to my sister if I am gone she will probably be better off.

I am losing my mind and will soon lose my house, I am paying 20.00 an hr to have a caretaker come in and care for Mom while I work full time for less!I can't pay my bills. I have no HELP from my SIBLINGS ......I am DONE!!!! let them do it!!!! My sister DOES not work!!!! But can't handle Mom!

Can't see the light that I always thought was shining so bright at the end of the tunnel!

[Lara]

(((jaded)))

It sounds as if it's time for Sister to step up and take over for a while. Ask her or beg her, doesn't matter. You need a break.

[Alffe]

Please no Dottie. Family, children that know and love you would be forever changed. I have some knowledge of what you are going through as we watched our mom struggling to take care of dad....there comes a time, and maybe you are right, it's now....to seek help if not from your siblings then a nursing home. You have been selfless in your care for her but please, please get some help somewhere.

[barbo]

Originally Posted by Lara

(((jaded)))

It sounds as if it's time for Sister to step up and take over for a while. Ask her or beg her, doesn't matter. You need a break.

You took the words right out of my mouth!

[jaded2nite]

I refuse to BEG!!! nursing home is not an option.......no money medicare doesn't pay for care for this horrific disease and Mom and Dad were not financially smart.....hanging by a thread waiting for state aid......and we know how quickly they work!!!

My Sister KNOWS what I am going through......she WILL not step up unless she has no choice. she has proved that over and over again.....lives in a million dollar home in CT and doesn't have to work.......told me this is what I signed up for when my dad died and I took Mom to live with me in Florida.....

She sent me 500.00 last month so I could pay for electric and Moms meds, But needs it back ASAP!!!

[jaded2nite]

Alffe

It is amazing how family and friends disappear when you need them the most!

[Alffe]

Not medicare but Medicaid. It was very hard for them/her to choose this route as they had always paid for everything or done without their entire married life. When it was all gone, including the deeds for their burial plots, Medicaid paid up for his nursing home care.

There is no shame in that jaded, I know it isn't your first choice but maybe if your sister can see how very serious you are at this point in time, she'll "step up".

I'd like to kick her where the sun doesn't shine!!!! Where is Doody when we need her???

[jaded2nite]

applied for Medicaid.......WAITING!!!!!!!!!!

we co-own the house....big mistake!!!!!

assets .......Medicaid looks 5 yrs back..........she was fine 5 yrs ago. she was watching my granddaughter 5 yrs ago while I worked I hate this EFFIN disease!!!!!!!!

[Alffe]

Do you know who your congressman is, or senator? Make a lot of noise!! Write a letter to the paper!!! Wish I could help you real time dear lady.

[jaded2nite]

if I make it through this nightmare. I WILL become an advocate for the families of the victims of this horrific disease. May start a non-profit!

The lack of resources for those suffering and those that care for them is disgusting!! Unless you have lots of $$$$$$$$$.

A lesson to all......however...... like suicide no one wants to think it will ever happen to them or their loved ones.

Always thought by 53 it would be me time,,,, raised my kids. ....worked since 15 to have a retirement...and all I see is everything slipping away along with my Mom!!!