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Originally Posted by Lasgo
When we compartmentalize our emotions to the point of thinking that we cannot or should not share is, to me, a sign that we have "grown up" too much, and have grown away from God. Two of the most powerful words in the Scriptures, I believe, are: "He wept."
So keep the faucet running and like you said, "this too shall pass" and - it will, it is promised, and you can count on it:
Psalm 30:5 "For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."
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This is very comforting. Thanks for sharing this with me. I believe what you say to be true...
Most of my life, I always thought of God as all-powerful and judgemental. I was forever afraid of dying. A long time ago, a friend reached out to me in a time of trouble and told me how she thought of Jesus as a friend. It was then that Jesus became human to me and I found great comfort in that knowledge. And even more recently, another friend helped me realize that God is the embodiment of love, and ever since then I have been able to see God as a loving father.
With all that said, it hurts to admit the self-loathing that I have been feeling towards myself lately. It is scaring me. I thought that I had worked through all of this before. I feel so unlovable. And I guess because of that, it also explains why I haven't been feeling God's presence in my life. I feel so alone and am tired of fighting the fight.
I long for the joy in the morning, but I haven't been able to see it.
I truly hope you are right, that by talking about it, I am helping myself.
Thank you so much.