It's all in the definition my friend. Would it help if I said...poor you, life is so unfair to you...no one has ever had a worse time of it or felt like not going on or....well, you get the picture.

I care, you may not like my advice but I have a lot more years on this trip than you do and I'd like to see you try to help yourself.

Hugs for the room...and that includes you Looking.

No, I don't want your pity...

You may have more years on me but you haven't been in my shoes, so as the saying goes "Walk a mile in my shoes before you tell me how I should be feeling." I am where I am and I am doing the best that I can, even if you don't think it is the right thing for me. Sorry to be so blunt.

Love,
Hope

Something good happened for a change! I met with a new job developer/employment specialist and I think she is really good and is exactly what I need. I am hoping good things will come from this. I am very hopeful about this!

Yeah Looking4hope!!! Have a great day!

It's been a long day of traveling but I'd like to say that I've hardly tried to tell you what or how you are feeling Looking. You've told all of us...."you don't care, you're tired of trying, tired of empty promises, tired of being hurt, you give up......"

I think we all have tried to respond to you with suggestions that might help you feel better...might make you try a new way of looking at things. If the shoe is begining to pinch you need a new pair!

And I am not going to beat a dead horse!

Love,

Alffe

Boy, Looking, just the med change alone is enough to give a little (or big) punch to your world. I'm beginning the process myself of changing meds and am doing it veryyyyyy slowly. I think everyone needs to be careful when dealing with antidepressants.

Looking4hope

The title of your thread reminded me of a time back in the 80s when I felt my world was falling apart. When I felt overwhelmed, I'd crank up this song and hold my head up in total defiance and allow myself to express that emotion. Once it was out, I'd realize I really do care. However, that song helped give me the strength and focus I needed in order to make the appropriate adjustments in my life. I found it was okay to direct that song at God too when I was angry with him - I never got struck by lightening.

I hope things work out with the employment specialist, but just in case you still don't care, I'm giving you the song. Go ahead - crank it up and stick your nose out at God I'll be over here in the corner, just in case lightening strikes you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6KMYms8is0

(((Kathy))) Dear friend, you're just the best.

((Looking)) I hope you are on an upward swing. How is your med change coming along? I'm doing pretty well so far, but doc has me starting on one, getting me used to it, then will slowly bring me off the Cymbalta. He knows me berrrryyyy well.

Thanks everybody again for your understanding.

Alffe, I am sorry that you are mad at me. I can't apologize for what I said because it was true, it didn't help. I feel bad that you felt that you had to come back and defend yourself. But it felt like you were rubbing my face in it. That I said this... and I said that... And you weren't going to beat a dead horse. That sounded like an insult to me and it hurt a lot. It made me feel like it's not OK to come here and vent my feelings whether they be rational or not. I know what you originally said to be true but it all hit me the wrong way and at the wrong time. I've stayed away on purpose but I consider you a friend and friends don't let things ferment. Yeh, I guess I did take things the wrong way, but things like this happen when emotions are running high. I'm sorry that this happened and I hope we can move past it.

And I hope I can let this thread die.

Love,

Hope