[nohope]

Finally I wooped Alffe's butt! I am here and I understand! I know how to post a wonder with a number He He!

Ok, so you've heard of all my drama over the last couple months, have I bored you all to tears? I really enjoy this website, but needed patience so I could understand how to use it. Picked on by Alffe all this time, hah, I am finding my way

I wonder............................ hmmmmmmmmmmmm I wonder.................

I truely wonder if you all know how happy I am that in late January, in my worst despair, that I stumbled upon this website. Not knowing what I was doing, I have been quided by gentle hands in the direction I need to go. I have never found myself so glued to a computer.

I love you all, you have been an inspiration to me.

I wonder if you know now that Nina did not come home with me tonight and the house feels so empty.

I wonder if you know the pain I am going through as I have been there so many times the last couple of years.

Looking4hope, pick your self up, dust yourself off, and get out there. If I can get through all the sorrow that I have been dished, you can to! A blanket of snow, an overcast sky? Screw it! How many years do we have left?! I am 41, that says I am more than half way through my life. I am going to leave this earth with a smile on my face. I care, open the window and suck in the fresh air.

I wonder if looking4hope, curious, Alffe, Wren, David, Cher, Ckepi, everyone know how much I have appreciated their replys.

I wonder if you know I am at death's door with Nina?

I wonder about spanishmoss and how come there is not a lot of her around lately.?

I wonder about doody and her new luv bug?

As you have read of my troubles, I have read of all of yours and even though I have found myself compelled to this site, I am ready to ditch it just like looking4hope, I have spent more time on this computer than with my little ones because I care. I am an emotional wreck right now and don't want your sympathy. I am by no means needy. I am strong and I will be out the door tomorrow pretending to be me.

I wonder if you all know that I haven't had a full nights sleep in 2 weeks cause of my overdose.

Yep, I am rambling.

Please pray for our beloved Nina. THANK YOU!!!