I am still here and reading all the new posts.

I am so sad for Burntmarshmellow. Nobody needs to go through so much grief. I am so sorry for the losses. Just when I think I have it "that bad", someone always has it much worse. I am so glad you opened up to us. It helps just to talk it out. burntmarshmellow

I have to say my birthday was totally uneventful. I got a precious bead made ring and handmade cards from my little ones that I will never let go. It makes me wonder about who will be going through my things after I die and what will get thrown away. Its all just sentimental stuff that no one else can give a rat about. Trash to them, but my life to me.

Yesterday, child swap day, was my day, but I ran to the aide of the other parent when they called me crying. I went to pick up my child, but took her two home with me in addition. Am I nuts? There is no such thing as "my time" anymore. I am always with kids. Love them, but need "my time", sometime.

I DID finish the bottle of wine on my b-day and never did take the bath my girls commanded. Just wanted to be left alone and found my time spent in front of the computer. David's ryhme was precious.

I am still here and lurking, just not responding cause I have no magical words to make someone's day. Does that make sense?

I think about all of you all day long. I truly care. My love goes out to each and everyone of you.

Bp, how are you? David, so glad you've come back. Alffe, did you run into your neighbor again? Doody, is Bruna's barking picking up, surely she has found home and guarding it, curious, I miss them bananas on my screen, love them bananas, wren are you there? Abbie please get some rest, Chemar, you are really loved with all your loving hugs. I know I am missing a bunch of ya here, but these were the ones that popped into my head. Now I am brain dead.

Gotta get the kiddos to bed now. Just wanted to check in.

Nohope...

thank you for checking in....

I understand having no magic words... I often find myself having no words at all.

You are a wonderful lady so caring of others.... please take care of yourself too.

Sounds like your girls are wonderful... please give them a hug from me and have them give you a hug from me too...


Sleep...what's that?? thank you for caring!!


Abbie

Dear Abbie, please rest tonight and know that I got your hugs from me and my girls.

I felt you lurking here nohope... It's hard to see the future when blinded by our tears. And it's especially hard to find any "me time" when you have young children in need of your time and attention.

Our three daughters were in college when their big brother killed himself so I had all the time in the world for me.....spent it in bed, crawling on my hands and knees to the bathroom. When I remember things like that I know that I have survived and am able to move forward with a life.

My neighbor is exactly where she should be in this nightmare...she repeats herself over and over to me...she doesn't remember things I have said to her so everything I say is "new" but that's normal...she can't concentrate, she can't retain anything. I will listen to her for as long as she needs me. And she is talking to a grief therapist which should really help.

I wonder if your Mom could come visit for awhile...please consider asking her to travel the 300 miles because you need her. I wish we lived closer dear girl.
You are in need of some hands on support.

We're having such a good time with our daughter who is visiting for the weekend. Grandchildren are wonderful but it's fun to once in a while have a one on one with just your kid!

After lunch we picked up my sister and went shopping..found material for the two dinning room chairs I want to recover and then took off to the Outlet Mall...all of us found treasures..(clothes...that fit!)

Went to Hacienda for dinner and margaritas...noisey place on a Friday night..so we came home and ended up in the hot tub.

woke up today with hot tub hair but no earthquakes. I guess in Southern Indiana they had quite an aftershock around 11:00 a.m yesterday, we didn't feel it.

My daughter and I are going to the Praise Service tonight instead of Sunday morning services.

Hugs for the room. Stay strong..be safe.

Enjoy your time with your daughter Alffe!!!! I'm glad you didn't wake up to another earthquake this morning LOL!!!!!!

Our daughter left after lunch and she should be home by now. We had a wonderful time with her and I'm not just being a "mother" when I say that she is a remarkable woman. She is the daughter who lost an 8 yr. old son to a medical "mistake" and who has not lost her way on that grief road. She laughs now a lot more than she cries.

I got the outside of the dinning room door painted after she left. It's a beautiful day here and I should be outside raking leaves!

I think there is a full moon tonight or almost full. Look out your windows and say howdy. *grin

me thinks we just need to outside and howl a bit.

LOL! Very cool Abbie...something for everyone. *grin