Alffe I almost ended things when I was a teen and if i didnt get the help I needed ... my 2 girls would not be here . When my youngest was 4 we were hit by a 18 wheel trailer truck, Hazel could of died along with me.
I am a Libra ..I think to much. I think I would like to hear about Allfes boy but then I think maybe I shouldnt mention that because it will bring tears ..then I think well maybe Alffe would enjoy the chance to share about him becuse telling and sharing about him might be a way to keep him alive in memories.
And my small mind gets pulled in both directions so i just dont say anything and that is probly the worst thing I can do. I feel guilty because I was one of the kids there sitting in stevens living room sharing a six pack and then ... I we took away a son from his mother ,father and family. an only child and only son. and me and 3 others oh boy man it lives with me how stupid ! so ***& stupid. And I think when people hear they judge me and hate me and well it just isnt fun or nice or pleasent not in the least. but i learned quickly and learned allot. anyways I want to ask about your son but I do not want to cause more pain then i think well the pains is there has been there so.. what the heck? If anything it will make me see how damn lucky I am to have my family. gosh I dont know what I am trying to say... maybe this I want to ask but dont want to make more saddness. that sound kinda close.
Alffe . I am sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PEACE on you
BMW

It is hard to know what to say. And sometimes folks avoid getting involved because they are protecting themselves from the pain of 'exposure' to the situation because they are emotionally fragile as well. I don't think that made sense, but to me it does.

I still work with leaving guilt behind for things I didn't do, didn't say, or did say or did do when my sister was so ill and frail that last year.

((Alffe)) I'm so sorry it's hard for you to hear about sons or to talk about Michael. But, I love hearing about the girls as well. You say or not say whatever you want to about Michael.

The same applies for me when people talk about their siblings. My insides kinda cringe or retreat or whatever. In fact, every time siblings are mentioned by someone, I remember all over again that I don't have one and miss the one I had. I'm afraid the world can't stop talking about those siblings just for me though sometimes I wish it could.

You're a dear friend to those people who are grieving right now. They are very lucky. I'd love to be retired and living down the road from you (in fact a lot of my internet friends) so we could play about and have fun, drink coffee, share stories...(share mudslides). Too bad we aren't all living in the same community. OMG, can you imagine? We'd never get anything done.

Love you Alffe.

Don't pay any attention to me dear people...I just got overwhelmed yesterday with things I can't do anything about. It's frustrating to me not to be able to help people that I care about.

But I do thank you...it helps me to know that you care. I'll quote from "Peter's Friends"

There are some friends you know you will have for the rest of your life. You're welded together by love, trust, respect, or loss -or- simple embarrassment.

alpho, alpho, alpho, alpo...

make yourself some a$$soupie and some chocolate pie...and don't make any meat...

and put a couple of scarecrows in the other two seats...there, we are there eating with you...

((((BIG HUGS))))

I am so glad you hit "submit!"

Your initial post... and every post following it... is so full of healing!

You all have deeply touched my heart! I am grateful, even though tears follow. Tears can be so healing, too!

This community is great!:grouphug:

((DejaVu)) you're pretty special yourself and a very supportive person.

Thank you for your kind words... I am truly blushing...

I love people so much! Animals, too!