when you start to cry in years, try to cry in your ears...

that way, you won't hear yourself being sad...

((((BIG HUGS)))))

(inside joke. LOL)

let us be here for you when you need.

Just bumping this up for Nikki
I raised my cup and looked skyward last night in your honor and prayers were said! Hope today the "flood" is receding and those eyes are dryer and your stress lower..and pain next to nothing.
Your in our thoughts and we are here for you
Peace
BMW

Nik,

5 more days, maybe writing a journal in this thread and speaking of your feelings might help...besides, for those of us that are peeping toms, we like to read other people's journals.

((((BIG HUGS))))

(((Nik))) Forever in my heart and prayers. Anniversaries in the beginning are so very hard, and yes as time goes on, the pain lessens.

Hugs and love sweet lady.

Angel friend, thank you so much... you know I feels about u 2

LMAO Moi, just what I needed!

Thank you Doody, I will check in with you next year... see if that is true

*sigh it is so hard.....but you guys are the boat that is keeping me a float.
I truly mean that. I mean I am still a mess...but where would I be without my SOS family? I can come here and share what I can't with anyone else in this world! I use to be able to share with Lynn, but with the AD, well I have lost parts of him years ago... deep communication was one of them. He has zero recall, and the poor buggers thinking and cognitive fuctions are rapidly declining.....

We went to my Dads house today to visit my mom... Lynn kept asking where Dad was.... asking and asking and asking! We had to tell him over and over that he had passed away. Then, he still didn't, or couldn't believe us, so he went outside calling...."Ernie... Ernie!!! Come on answer me..this isn't funny!! OY!!!! Break my friggin heart all over again.

So, I had to take a trip to his grave... and I wasn't planning on that today. I need to phyche myself up for it. Was a hard long day...and I am feeling damn sorry for myself! Plan on having a BBQ and drinking !!

Oh and Tina... if you love storms so much... you wanna come help me clean up all the trees we lost Lord but that was a mighty storm...It was a tornado AND a microburst, what a mess!!! Winds up to 135 MPH I HATE wind storms....Scary stuff... me no likey!

Well if I could afford to get there I would be there in a flash. a flash of lightening
I have 2 chain saws and a pole saw too I have done that kind of work , got rakes, Tarps and even a John deer tractor with a cart on back to tote heavy stuff.
MMMMmmkay the only thing I dont like about storms is before they come my pain is crazy bad but once the storm is here it is like a massive relief. when a hurricane is close to florida It is really very bad even if it isnt hitting florida if its off shore way at bottom of florida off the keys I still get the wicked ugly pain flare off the scales..

Now you go have a good meal and a drink or 2 and Relax Angel friend. soak in a nice bath and be glad today is done because I know it was a rough and tough bad ****** day for you and like the strong warrior one you are..ya made it. so .... from me
and
from all of us.
love you.... and take care of you. and I pray God you can feel all of our healing strength and positive love and our prayers we send to you via God and the sky and.. the computer posts here at S.O.S. MANY BLESSINGS TO YOU AND YOURS NIKKI
PEACE
BMW

Well....we love you Nikki. Mmmmkay?

Love you guys too.....Mmmmkay
My sis who lives in WA, my soul twin... she says that too....yep you guys made me smile!!