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It is now 2am UK time, and I’m compelled to write this as if I keep it in, I know my head will explode..

On Tuesday when I last wrote a thread, I never included an event that had taken place earlier that day at work.
A young man at work who I will call BOB returned to the hostel at 8am he came in and went straight to his room. At 8.30 am he came to the office, and asked to phone his mental health worker, saying he felt he needed to be in hospital. After his phone call I asked him to come in the lounge and talk with me. Bob explained he had an argument in the morning with his mothers neighbour. He had been at home for a few days. He told me the neighbour had complained at 6am about him playing loud music. He told me if she had been nice it would have been ok, instead she was [understandably annoyed] He told me he wanted to kill her and her kids. He then told me he felt suicidal and had thoughts of hurting others. He was saying how worthless he was and life would be better without him in it. He also told me he was hearing voices, when I asked what they were saying he told me the voices were saying ‘go on kill yourself ‘ or ‘go on hurt that person. I told BOB he had done a commendable thing by ringing his mental health worker, and I praised him for recognising all was not right. When I asked Bob if he had been taking his meds, Efexor and Quietapine, he told me he had not and had flushed them away down the toilet. He said he did not like feeling zombiefied. I told him that if his leg was broken would he expect his leg to be put in plaster, he confirmed yes. I then said your mind is broken at present Bob and that medication is there to help you heal.
He told me he had not told his health worker how he had been feeling recently and I told him that when he arrived he must tell him everything. When this person arrived I asked Bob to repeat all the things he told me. I left the room to give them privacy.
5 minutes later Bob went upstairs I went out and met the health worker in the lobby. I expressed my deep concerns and stated that very rarely do young men state they want to go into hospital Bob is 17 years old. He said ‘he is calmer now, we will go and get a coffee and have a chat, and all will be ok’.

Later on they returned the worker told me Bobs medication had been increased by the consultant and they were picking it up later. He once again stated he is calm now. I said surely he should be hospitalised, the worker said that the hospital now prefer home intervention. ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I was off on Wednesday and Thursday, I went into to work today Friday at 2pm /now Saturday 4am
I was confronted by staff telling me that on Thursday evening Bob had gone out and returned after getting into a fight where he had been assaulted. He then behaved uncharacteristically, and made sexual advances to a female night worker, this is a boy who is usually is frightened of his own shadow, never talks to staff, and is agoraphobic. The night worker told him to behave and he started again talking of suicide and went upstairs retrieved all his newly prescribed meds and went out, he returned half an hour later stating he had taken them all, wrote a suicide note and asked for an ambulance he lay on the floor with the urge to sleep and though the night worker tried to keep him conscious he became unconscious very quickly. The emergency services arrived but they had him outside in the ambulance for 45 mins before driving off.
I was told by staff that this boy was in intensive care in a critical condition ………….i have since been told by his sister he is very ill and may be brain damaged as he stopped breathing for some period of time and has high toxicity in his blood levels.

I Am angry because health professionals never listen to others, they feel they know it all, and your observations count for absolutely nothing,. This young man was crying out for help and they ignored those cries and instead upped his meds… this may have helped if he had been taking them properly ..yet he had not been taking the previous dose correctly…which in its self exhaserbated his state of mind.

I was supposed to leave work at 10 pm, the night worker who had been present was asked to work at another hostel and that worker was due to work here.

At nine pm the Sister of Bob came to the hostel with her husband, they wanted to check his room for notes, and his mobile phone for text messages……….and just when you need a manager as normal no one is available……..no night manager ill….on call manager not answering telephone,…..usual; crap.

I sat with Bobs family and explained the night before events, I also felt it was right for them to see his note, he left behind… they left not feeling the need to go in his room for which I felt relieved because technically they could not do this [procedure]

The night worker was due here at 9.30pm it was now 10pm, no managers to help out the agency where the worker was from took forever to get back to me, and in a nut shell I’m here now until 8am tomorrow.

17 YEARS OF AGE is no age at all …………and this sucks so much………..i’m writing this to vent my frustration with the medical profession, my own company , the whole sorry event,

a tragedy that was preventable……………yet in my opinion inevitable………..sometimes personal insight is a curse, because as loud as I shout out [metaphorically] help this person no one hears and the world still turns.

David

My apologies but I needed to get my thoughts out…for my own self preservation I suppose.



It is now 9.30am as i post this