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08-07-2008, 04:37 PM | #1 | |||
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I made it through my Dad’s birthday, I survived yet one more struggle in this painful journey. One thing - One day - it seems so insignificant, and yet it was monumental. That day and the days that followed, were a huge struggle for me, not only because I missed my dad, but because I missed him once again, to the point of just desperately wanting to be with him. At all costs. I didn’t want to die, I just wanted the pain to end.
In moments like these, I can not share. I need to climb within myself until I can heal enough to face the world again. While curled up in my protective ball, I decided it was time to go through the briefcase my father left me. I remember that briefcase from my youngest days, its beaten and battered and I will treasure it always. Inside; It was filled with his life, pictures he held dear…. His military life, awards and decorations……. My birth certificate, graduation diploma and every award I ever received. Some things too private to share - some cards he couldn’t part with………. And a grateful dead tape I had given him years before………. Among those cards were some I had given him over the years. I couldn’t read them, as it is just too painful…. But one I knew and remembered well. I knew it had to do with what my dad always told me. “ Something I love about you, if you can’t find a silver lining, you just paint your own!” Its true, I have always been an obnoxious optimist. But when sad , I would talk with my Dad and we had a saying between us on those sad times…….. Every silver lining has a touch of grey. Years later when the song came out by the grateful dead, I bought my dad the tape. He kept it all these years. I have the cd, so I put it in and played the song that helped me through some difficult times. As I listened to the chorus, I found renewed strength to make it another day. I WILL GET BY ….. I WILL SURVIVE http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvDwy...eature=related
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08-07-2008, 05:34 PM | #2 | |||
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Yes you will sweetie. Your strength really shows in all you say.
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08-08-2008, 01:35 AM | #3 | |||
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08-08-2008, 01:39 AM | #4 | |||
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You said it all Nik-key! You will survive and we'll be here to help you through.
Sending you lots of positive vibes.
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08-08-2008, 12:57 PM | #5 | |||
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thank you!
Not sure if you have ever heard the song? but that is the chorus... I will get by... I will survive. Have always loved it, and was glad for the reminder of the song in my Dad's briefcase. Did I mention I love that briefcase?
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