I just knew I would feel better after sharing with you all. It is a hard road I face. At times I am certain I am not up to the task. Those are the times I come here, to my friends who have helped me survive when I thought surely I wouldn’t.

Despite there being no hope….I have found some- here- in all of you.
It moves me greatly the love and compassion we share here. I just love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart. :hug:

I seem to be having trouble with my eyes at the moment…

I saw this the other day, and thought of all of you

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Oh, Nikki...my heart goes out to you. You are the care-partner that everyone wishes for. Even if so much is gone there is still so much with you and always will be with you.

I can only imagine what you are going through. My sweetheart started to experience short-term memory problems a few years after we were married. Sometimes we laugh about the black holes in his brain but most of the time I don't let him know what he has forgotten. However, sometimes he recognizes it and thinks he is so dumb...I say no!!

I don't know what everyone beliefs are...my religious leader has told me, that for all I do and have done for my honey and loved ones that there will be many jewels in my crown for the kindnesses I have shown. I believe this is true for everyone who loves.

I have a picture in our bedroom that helps to bolster me when I need it. It pictures people pulling the handcarts of pioneer travelers. It is snowing and they are doing their best to survive. However, as they are trying to reach the top of the hill covered in snow struggling with the weight of there loaded carts the picture shows angels that are helping them to push to make their load lighter. I know they are with me. In those moments when I feel burning tears, painful tears, I look at this picture, push back the tears, and know that I am being watched over all the time. I cannot deny it. Otherwise how would little old me b able to pick up my husband who is 6’ tall when he has fallen.

I pray for you Nikki, for angels to assist you in all that you do!:hug:

Tammy, thank you! Your post was beautiful and lifted me up today:hug::hug:

((((nik))))