http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/sh...d.php?p=372422

Thank you Chemar. Hopefully Earth Angel will follow your suggestion and find her way here.

Just bumping this...I did reply to her post in PM.

Thanks again for watching out for all of us...

Hey earthangel~ I posted on your other thread, but I do hope you follow the bread crumbs and come over to this forum for more support. As I said in my other post to you, please don't blame yourself. You were a wonderful daughter and in no way are you to blame for losing your Mother.

As I posted earlier, I lost my dear Mother last year to a devastating illness that took her away from us too soon. I turned around and she was gone. I tried to find things I should have seen, done, etc.... but it wasn't my fault and it isn't your fault either.

We both just have to remember how much our Mom's loved us.

Please know that you are among alot of friends here.

((Chemar)) thank you for the link

((Earth Angel)) I too posted to you in your other thread.
My heart goes out to you. When I read what your Mom
wrote, I just burst into tears. We love them so much!!
But, we don't want them in that kind of pain either... so tragic

I forgot to mention in the other post, it is so easy to
blame ourselves. I wrote several posts here, asking the
same thing.. was I the one that pushed him over the
edge? I have been disabled since 99, and had recently
had a TIA stroke that left me partially paralyzed...
I no longer blame myself. In time, I hope you will be able
to see through the pain to KNOW you were in no way
to blame!

I will share with you something a friend of mine shared with me.
He is a minister. He said he and some other members of the
church where at a friends house, as he was on suicide watch.
They had taken every "weapon" out of the house, they stayed
with him 24/7 Yet, he still found a way to take his life. There
simply was nothing anyone could have done. I'm not sure why
that helped me so much.. perhaps because it eased my feelings
that there was something.. anything that I could have....
should have done...

I do hope you will come and share with us. Sometimes it
helps to know you are not alone in your pain. I have 6
brothers and sisters, we all handled the loss differently,
there is no right or wrong way to grieve. One brother
couldn’t come to Dad's service.. that was right for him.
Me, I tried to be strong for everyone... I couldn't handle
the pain, so I tried to block it... and ended up in the hospital
having a break down. Let your emotions come freely, let us
try to help you through them.
Again, my thoughts and prayers are with you Nikki

(((Earth Angel))) First, I'm sorry for your own physical problems.

Second, you are not responsible though I'm sure you are feeling that way. As Nik-key said, she would have found a way no matter what. She was obviously in so much pain.

I'm just so sorry for your loss. And I hope you find your way over to this forum because there truly are people who care about you and understand what you are going through.

Much love and hugs for you.