I will ((doody)) Pinky promise

Ahh yes, it would be wonderful to be able to reach
out and physically touch those who have so deeply
touched my heart The coffee is a bonus

Well, just let me tell you a thing or two about PRIDE and I'll tell you I'm bursting with PRIDE for myself! And I will shout it to the rooftops that I'm glad I took medication for my depression.

I hope you aren't afraid of the meds, Nik-key.... they take a while to work - sometimes up to 6 weeks - trial and error because some work better than others and some have side effects... but the good outweighs the bad and one day you'll look ahead realizing that you really are feeling more in control. I am proud that I was able to take the meds even though it was an up and down struggle.

I hope you aren't afraid of feeling numb, Nik-key... some people think that the meds can numb you, when in my opinion, they allow you to slow down and take the rest that your mind and body is screaming out for. I am proud to realize that I was/am deserving of the rest my soul needed in order to heal.

I hope you aren't afraid of the stigma attached to depression dear Nik-key. Its a curse that hung around me for a long time - worrying what others think. I am proud that today I will talk to anyone about depression and medication and how meds and therapy go hand in hand towards healing.

I know you are probably afraid that your pain will never go away... both physically and mentally... dear girl... you are such a precious gift to this world I hope you can realize its OK to fear this pain. It sucks. Plain and simply SUCKS!

You have a long road ahead of you.
We're here for you.

Addy

....I am proud of all of us

Keep singing and shouting Addy

Nikki...KEEP RESTING...pretty please. btw THAT IS SO AWESOME!!!!!

I am sorry I haven't been able to get on the puter to read....

((((Nikki)))) I am proud of the step yo took.


((((((Everybody else))))) what beautiful words in response....I am so humbled and amazed at this group

I'm glad you're back home and hope that you're getting the rest that you need. Yeah, it's hard to do but you have to take care of YOU first, right??? TAKE YOUR MEDS!!!!! I take about 33 pills and 2 shots every day; you can do it. It's not fun and, yes, I sometimes "cheat" and take fewer on those "feel better" days....oh, so wrong. I forget that that's WHY I'm feeling better! I'm stubborn - and I tend to convince myself every now and then that I really don't need to take one or another of the meds.....boy, do I ever pay for it - or, rather, poor hubby does. Anyway, I love you LOTS and you're in my thoughts a lot right now. Sending TONS of hugs, smiles, and lots of laughter.

I hope that you are feeling much better,and I hope that you are experiencing peace in your heart. Bless your heart. Brokenfriend

I wasn't going to post to this thread in the hopes it could be buried.
I find it a bit But, your support keeps coming and there is no way
I can or will ignore that! I just thank you all .. you mean so much to me

The meds are not working yet, but as some of you have mentioned it
takes awhile. Last night was another hard one, but here I am reaching
out to all of you. That has to be a good thing

hippiechick everyone who has reached out to me, it has meant so
much to me... but .. and I hope no one takes this wrong... but your
post in particular moved me. I keep thinking on your first post here....and
now I see all the love and compassion in your heart.. and I am just SO
grateful you are still here with us Amazing group of people aren't
we? Reaching out to help lift each other in our times of need. I love YOU LOTS
too! And don't ever forget it

Ok done crying for the moment......

My head has cleared enough that I know it was my sisters upcoming visit
that threw me into panic mode. I can't wait to see her! But, I so do not want
to have another service for my Dad. I just know seeing her, is going to bring
it all right back to the surface. As this is her first visit to my Dad's grave, her
pain will be fresh and raw..... I am the type of person who hurts deeply
witnessing the pain of those I love. It is going to be hard, but... I guess
I will make it

I wont be on as often as I will be spending most of my time with her. She
simply adores Lynn and this visit will be a double whammy for her. She is
staying with us, so I hope we will have some wonderfully happy times.. mixed
in with the sadness of Dad and the hell of Alzheimer's

I know I keep saying this, but.. you can never say too often how much you
care for people. You have all been my lifeline... the preserve that has helped
me to just keep swimming! I love you all and am so so grateful that on a dark
stormy night, when I though all hope was lost... in desperation I posted and
shared my pain with a group of strangers... who have since become such wonderful friends

Enjoy the sweet moments


Addy

I'm glad that you realized you needed help and reached out and got it. It's hard to admit that sometimes but you are a very strong person and I admire you for that Nikkey.

I thought of you when I was in the hospital and how you're just starting out on this journey. The commonality--the grief response--with the intense feelings of loss, anger, depression, loneliness, fear, frustration, desperation, these are emotions that others will have also felt, endured and survived. What we have in common is that the grief response is felt most intensely by the heart.

I've read Silent Grief over and over and in the preface he says....