Nikki.....I'm so glad that you're back. You've been on my mind so often lately - and in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad that you were able to share things with your sister; it was probably good for her to be able to share it with you, too. Please just take care of yourself as much as possible. I know how hard it is to love and take care of for someone with Alzheimer's disease. I don't remember if I told you that I ran a convent infirmary and all of the sisters (there were 16 of them on my unit) had Alzheimer's except for one. It's a very demanding disease and I worked 12-14 hours and a lot of times just spent many, many nights and days there. One time they started calling me "Sister"......guess I'd been there too long.............. I love ya, Nikki, and you are definitely with me in spirit right now. And always. HUGS 4EVER

(((Nikki))) It's still all so new to you. Plus I think the fear of Lynn is a big part of your grief. Remember to take all the help that is offered to you!

I'm so glad to see you. :hug:

(((((Nikki)))))))

((BJ)) All I can say is damn girl! Your post made me cry, but in the bestest
way:hug: I was just telling you in another post how much you inspire me,
and I came here and read this... In reaching out and sharing our own grief...
who would have known we were helping each other hang on. :hug:
Promise me something? Don't ever hate yourself for your feelings.
As you wrote in your other post, they have helped form you into the
person you are today. One awesome terrific lady!!:hug:

((hippiechick)) I'm glad to be back too:hug: I always think I am hurting too
much to post here... but then I find when I do post, I ALWAYS feel better!
Not hard to figure out why with this wonder family we have here:hug: No,
you never told me about your work with the Sister! WOW!!! That had to
have been some tough work! I have always admired folks who can so that
type of work. Angels on earth!!:hug: I love ya too hippiechick!!! Thanks for
being here for me:hug:

((Doody)) Thank you:hug: You are right of course. I have been losing Lynn
for years, inch by inch.. each loss I have grieved along the way. When Kel
was here Lynn was asked who that person was in the picture. It was me,
but he couldn't think of my name :eek: :Sob: Broke my friggin heart.
BUT, he did say, thats my sweety!!! So, though he couldn't at that time
recall my name, he still knew he loved me. I will take it!!!!!!!:hug:
The grief over Dad is so different though. As I have said, you just can not
have the peace one find when a loved one dies a 'natural" death. I like to
think when the time come for Lynn I would be thankful in part, because his
pain and struggles are over. I know I have already prayed God will take him
before he becomes a complete vegtable.. I don't think I could stand to see
my strong brave husband that way:eek:

((Moss)) ((Bizi)) (( Koala)) thank you:hug::hug::hug: