THANK YOU David!!!!!

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describe your elephant in the room

I've brought my elephant to Florida with us and he's playing in the waves.

Actually if truth be known that elephant no longer lives with us because I talk about him/suicide every chance I get....it took me waaay to long to learn this but it really works...Talk about your feelings and listen when someone tells you what they are feeling.

Mine is huge....

The weird thing is, I feel my elephant is "friendly"... and, sometimes, smiles to me... I would like to hate it, but, I actually feel sorry for him...

How weird is that ?

I feel like i have gotten closer to the light at the end of the tunnel in finding this place here.
And there has to be a place for us to meet, the face of all our fears. someone contemplating suicide is dealing with there own demon . Someone dealing with the suicide of someone thy love is dealing not only with the loss of someone they love but the bitter reality of it being their chose to leave us. the realization that we ....didnt mean enough? and why?
i know that being in the grips of these thoughts for someone depressed is paralyzing being in the grips of your success in ending your life is even more paralyzing because after your pain is gone our pain our scars live on for ever not only do we deal with our demons we now deal with yours.
my brother hung himself from a tree.....the landscape of the world has changed for me forever something i used to love "nature, TRESS"S" .....i can no longer look at with out seeing my brother hanging lifeless or even worse......suffering the end struggling through the end of his life and i put that out there with a band aid on the image as to not be to harsh.. but imagine the ...reality of the movie that repeats over and over of your loved one. that is the gift your depression doesn't let you validate for us.

I don't think your brother had any idea what his act would do to you Colleen...that you would be forever changed. He just wanted his pain to end, not realizing that yours was just beginning.

:~sigh I wish I could ban the elephant forever....however, all I can do is beat him at his own game. Alffe is right, talk, talk, talk.....then do something about it.

Describe him?? Cunning, secretive, and too powerful...I have wrestled with him for a very long time. It pains me greatly to watch others do the same.

At a time like this, I continue to ask myself, "Why am I still here?" Why was I saved from him??

I'm sorry Colleen...only God and your brother know what kind of pain he was in. I hope you can continue to find the support here that you need...

Colleen

Colleen... deep down you know what you meant to your brother... you are not any of the reasons he left you world the way he did ...

And again, welcome to our forum where you will find souls who struggle and survive and yes, even thrive!

Addy

Today I describe my elephant as BIG, HUGE, Dark, Ugly, and MEAN...

Somewhere along the way I fell off... now he's standing on me....


Abbie

Lonely1, please go get Blue's mouse...Abbie needs us! (((Abbie)))