I wonder why I forget that Alffe lives up by the big water. I remember going to Wisconsin and just being enthralled by the Lake. I bought a drive thru lunch and drove out to a small parking lot ( a church, I think) and stared as I ate. I wonder how much my dear husband would have loved it there.

I wonder if I can tell everyone that I am, by nature, very reserved about myself and about nothing else. LOL. And yes, Alffe, I remember you! LOL.

I wonder if I take it maybe one thing at a time, maybe I could talk a little about me.

I wonder if you all know that I am a widow with an adult autistic son... and that I tend to go on about my husband way too much. He's been gone ten years and it still hurts like it was yesterday.

I wonder, though, that as much as it hurts, I can still laugh about him. He was a geek. My son looks just like him ( with red hair, which we still don't understand) and acts a whole lot like him too.

I wonder if I can say that, though times are really tough here, every day brings one more thing to learn and pass on. It's how I get through.

I wonder if that is it for tonight, except to thank Doody and Alffe and Mistiis and just everyone thank you. It might help to talk. It never hurts to make a friend....

I wonder if I can tell ((Alffe)) my coalition meeting is on wed too! I'll be thinking of you and perhaps it will bring me strength

I wonder that I didn't know so many here have fibro and arthritis .. I have both as well, so I do understand what you are talking about ((big hugs)) I wonder if I can tell ducky that my nephew has been fighting severe arthritis since he was 6 (now 12), due to Lyme disease. Four of us have had it at least twice in the last 3 years ..bluck!

I wonder if ((Mistiis)) could use some extra hugs I also wonder that if sometimes, when the dam does finally break, with it also comes some much needed release.

I wonder about Twink's Dad all the time. Is there a treatment plan? Is he in pain? How is ((Twink)) holding up?

I wonder how good it was to hear from ((Moi)) and I hope their trip goes well

I wonder how amazed I always am by ((BJ))

I wonder if ((BF)) will come wonder with us?

I wonder if I can tell ((Abbie)) I shared what she wrote about the elephant with my family, they loved it as well!! My Mom had to wipe away some tears

I wonder if I can tell ((BMW)) I am STILL laughing at my goof up! Glad I made your day

I wonder that since my Dad passed that I throw up every time I see snow I know this is because he HATED the snow. We always thought he had “simple” cabin fever, but now I have learned he most likely suffered with SAD. Another acronym that seems so fitting

I wonder that last year we had record breaking snow fall. I now wonder how much that added to his already full cup? I wonder that I found out when he heard we were going to get yet another big March storm, he got up from the table.. and the last thing he said was.... yep, I think I've had enough.

I wonder how deep my hate for the snow is now... or perhaps not hate, maybe it is more my association with its impact on Dad. I wonder how long it will be before I can see snow and not shake and throw up? How long until I can look at the snow with joy in my heart like I use to. It snows a lot here! Going to be a long winter. Maybe I can send it all to ((doody))

I wonder if typing that just sucked some of the life out of me, that and the fact that it is snowing here too... and that I think I will go for now and wonder more later. Giant hugs to all

I wonder if I can tell Nik-key that I understand. My husband loved both snow and Christmas. We had the brightest house on the block. I wonder if you could have seen it from space.

I wonder that now it is all I can do to put up one small tree and the sound of Christmas music makes me want to scream. Wes ( husband) used to mangle Christmas carols and I would laugh so hard at him...
I wonder that now just the sound of Silent Night throws me either into a huge rage or a deep depression....
I wonder that Wes would be so sad to know that.

I wonder that arthritis is so prevalent...and so awful.
I wonder if everyone knows I am hoping for some peace...and some rest for us all.

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Originally Posted by mistiis I wonder if Tammi will ask her doc about her 'skin hurting' ....and what he will say....I wonder if I could move to Utah, and see her doc, and get better treatment.....I love Utah

Most of my skin hurting is my fibro flare...was diagnosed over 20 years ago. I guess its one of my oldest friends.

I wonder too whay we don't have only the tips of the mountains covered...like they have been dipped in powdered sugar.

I wonder if Nikki will try not to look at that picture while reading this...

I wonder if Ducky knows that I love to hear her talk about Wes..I feel like I know him a little from hearing you talk about him.

I wonder if Duck wants to talk about her son..and when she learned he was autistic....

I wonder if duck has a picture of him dancing at moi's wedding..I love that picture....

I wonder when I'll stop obcessing about my snow tires... now would be good...

I wonder about the "language of suicide"..that there is no such thing as a "successful" suicide attempt....????

I wonder if this will be the day I stay in my p.j.'s all day...

I wonder if I can tell Alffe it made me very queasy, but only seeing "real" snow has the power to make me throw up. WHEW!

I wonder if I can tell Ducky I loved hearing about Wes I have been losing Lynn slowly for years, when God does call him home, I know I will talk about him as long as I live. When one is part of your soul, you never forget them Keep talking and sharing

I wonder if speaking of Silent Night.... I can share that last Christmas, the first one my sis and the kids lived here with me, we went to Grams grave on Christmas Eve, and they asked if we could sing that song for her, it was always her favorite. I wonder if anyone thought we were odd, standing there holding hands, singing from our hearts.... I wonder that none of us cared

I wonder that last night, the kids asked if we would be going to sing to Grampa this year

I wonder that I try very hard to make sure the elephants in my home are something these children are never to fear. I wonder, how hard it is at times though.......

I wonder if I can tell you it is snowing out right now

I wonder if anyone here has ever experienced something close to this? I CAN'T control the weather, and I can't control my reaction to it. If it were just me, I am sure I would have my bags packed and be moving somewhere South for the winters!

I wonder if I can share that I go in for my testing tomorrow.

I wonder that I forgot to leave hugs for the room in my last wonder, so
will leave extras now!

I wonder how heart-rending this particular Wonder is? I wonder how gut-wrenching it is to talk about people who have left us before we were ready for them to go? Hmmm, I guess that applies to everyone we love who is gone.

I wonder if I can tell Nikki that my dear Dad begins his weekly infusions tomorrow. I wonder if he will tolerate the foreign substance that will go into his veins and spread throughout his body? I wonder if those lumpy lymphomas will shrink away in fear when they see it?

I wonder how some people detest what others celebrate (snow). I wonder if Nikki has ever considered moving to a warmer clime?

I wonder that I don't have time to name every one of you, but that I DO wonder and care about you. I wonder that I wish I could give you each a gentle hug, but must leave virtual ones instead?

I wonder if you will forgive me for having a bit of a confused mentality this morn, so I may not wonder too well....

I wonder if I can tell Daduck how pleased I am go begin to get to know her

I, too, wonder about our Moi's ...and send them extra prayers

I wonder when i will get my cards and packages off to friends here, and I wonder if I can share addressess with more of my friends

I wonder if I can tell Tammi that I have had fibro for 17 years. It took me many years to accept it. I'm sorry I did not remember that you have it as well. The Soma I am on to help control the pain in my neck tends to put me into the ozone but is necessary at this point, for what little pain relief I can get. Most of the time it will keep the tears away....

I wonder if I can tell twinks that I am praying for her, and her family

I wonder how hard it is to type when your hands are shaking

I wonder if i an tell Nikki that I understand how powerful emotions can affect the body. Yesterday I felt like earthquakes were moving through mine. I am owrking toa confront them. I wonder if you will forgive my typoing, I have to quit the Neurontin bexcause of side effects and the pain in my neck is now affecting my use of my right arm, and hand....there is so much I want to write, but I am not sure I will be able to.....

I wonder if I can tell alffe that I wonder agout the language of suicide too and how much it pai9ns me sometimes that I was not successful....I try not to go down that path

I wonder that I am realizing that I don't value my place in life, but I now value the fact that my choices might put my loved ones into this horrible nightmare of depression, and fighting suiciide themselves....that i cant bear

I wonder that I can forgive those who would dare to sexually molest a 5 year old....but I have yert to be able to forgive the medical professionals who treated me the way they did when I became depressed, psychotic, and suicidal due to an undiagnosed, non-functioning thyroid. I wonder when I wil share that nightmare and suicide attempt.

I wonder that my emotions are too strong right now, but better than yesterday....and my hand does not want to function, so I will not be able to post more....know that you are all in my heart, and I leave ((((big hugs)))) to all of you.

I wonder that I will go out today and buy The Shack....and OUt Of Darkness

I don't wonder that I want to leave extra hugs for Nikki, and Doody, as they wait for test results......I love you....and tammi as she sees her surgeon....

I wonder how strange and funny it was to hear from a sleep walker today..zzzzzzzzzz

I wonder if my forum family can feel my hope and prayers for them to be free of pain...

I wonder if Nikki will be an out patient and if that's why she wasn't sure about the coalition....

I wonder about the big fat squirrel who picks apples from our tree top and sit there eating them...

I wonder if Ms.Loo knows that I'm sending her positive thoughts...

I wonder if Twink will ever get to Indiana...

I wonder if BJ is exhausted at work from so little sleep...

I wonder when Doody will post new pictures...and Addy...

I wonder how Dottie is doing with the tests...

I wonder if Abbie ever did get any snow...lots of sliding off the roads up here...

I wonder if Mistiis could use a very gentle hug...(hug)