(((Kimmy))) I'm so happy to hear some word from you even though it isn't very good news. I miss your posting and I worry about your poor (should I say, rotten?) health. I had hoped, still do hope, that with new drs. there would be new dxing and solutions. You've lived with one dang thing after another...Please God, let it be Kims turn for some relief!

Gentle hug....I don't know where to "grab" on when everything hurts. ((Kim))
Thanks for checking in and please know that we care...if all we can do it listen..please talk to us.

I bet the sun is gonna shine on you today....it's another grey one in Indiana.

Love, Alffe

(((Kimmy))) I hope things improve for you soon. I had so much hope for you when you made your big move into your new home and continue to hope for the good stuff to flow in.

{{{{{{{{{kimmy}}}}}}}}}
I am another NT member that is VERY happy to hear from you!!!
I have been wondering about you.. i am so glad you finally
had the strength to check in...I hope you come back soon..
We really do miss you round here,ya know....
{{{big gentle hugs}}}
Kell

Your messages are all I need to give me a smile, and know that someone does care about this hellish existence I'm living. Things have taken a drastic turn for the worse. I know, everytime I post it's like this. I'm not a drama queen, please believe me. This is just an unbelievably difficult time in my life, for the umpteenth time, and I'm sure it won't be the last. That is how my life goes. This isn't a pity party, it's my reality.

Since I last posted I have been given another nerve conduction test by a new neurologist, to confirm the carpal tunnel dx. He also ordered an EEG, which I had done the same day. This was mainly related to the epilepsy dx. I'll know more about the results when I see my GP next. I've had another massive breakout allover my face, arms, chest, etc., and is ugly as he!!. The neurologist asked me if I had talked to anyone about it yet, and seemed concerned about it. He mentioned Stevens-Johnson syndrome, and that he will be in touch with my GP about it. Sheesh!!

The GP called me after he got the results on the culture of the ulcer on my lower leg. He told me that it was a bacterial staph infection, and that it was not sensitive to the Augmentin he had me on. So he changed me to Bactrim, which was sensitive to this type of staph infection. After I broke out into this horrible rash, and upon looking up info on tons of different kinds of rashes, I found that the Bactrim could be one of the causes. Of course, it was a few weeks after I had finished the prescription that I found that. It's too complicated to explain, but suffice it to say, I might be dealing with an allergic reaction to one of my medications. I'm not a doctor though, and have no clue what is making my skin have such a massive breakout! There are other medical issues, but that is enough to digest in itself!

Now for the good stuff!! I just found out that Bridgette has decided to move back to IN Thanksgiving weekend, and I won't be able to afford to stay here now. Not only that, my landlord is a convicted child predator, which I found out from the neighbors. (not sure if I shared that news back when I found out) I went to the local police dept., and there on the wall was his picture! It about made me sick. This happened a couple of months ago, but ever since finding out things have gone downhill. He and I had a bad conversation, which escalated to the point that he hasn't talked to me since, and that was a week ago. Consequently, I am going to be moving back to my folks home by the end of December. I'm just sick about how this came about, and the story is too long to put out here. It's a nightmare, and I can't believe this "wonderful wish come true" of a home has just about wrecked me!! Those of you that know how much this place meant to me know how devastating this is to me!

I'm going to be staying with my parents until I can find section 8 housing, and get signed up for HUD. These seem to be the only two options for me, being that I'm alone and living on disability, which isn't much. I'm trying very hard to keep focused on what I have to do, but I am starting to break down with each new issue. I've about had it. There are many of us that are asking "Why me?", but I have started to scream it, and I feel like no one ever hears me anymore.

Then today I got a phone call from my best friend, back in IN, telling me that they have called all the family to the hospital, because her father is not responding. He has cancer, and they said it's likely he won't be going home again. It is possible I will be heading north to be with her if things continue to worsen for him.

This is part of why I haven't been around. I've missed ya'll, and don't have a clear reason for not being online, except that I've been overwhelmed with this stuff and more. Thank you for continuing to reach out, as it does make a difference!!
{{{{{{{Big Hugs}}}}}}}}
Bless you all~
~Kimmy

I hope someone is going to help you with the upcoming move...you hurt yourself overdoing the last time you moved! I'm glad you were able to smile inspite of all the "stuff" going on.....just what we would all want for a landlord...a child predator!!

Think long and hard about making a trip up here at this time of year...it was sleeting this afternoon and I worry about what the change in temps would do to your already fragile health.

I'm glad your parents can provide you with a temporary home and the support you need dear lady. Thanks for posting...pls do not worry about the content...sometimes, often, life sucks...stay in touch! Love, Alffe

(((Kimmy))) Bridgette is going to live in INdiana? Isn't she the person designated as the person in charge of the disability? Can you get that changed to your folks?

I'm SO sorry about your home, but thank god you found out about it. Apply for the section 8 housing as soon as you can. It'll be nice when you find a place.

I'm really glad you seem to have some good doctors there! Hopefully that will all work out soon as well.

Love, Doody

{{{{{Doody, Alffe, Kell}}}}}} I appreciate your support so much!!
I really am trying to keep putting my best foot forward, but sometimes it's really difficult to even lift my foot off the ground!

Alffe, I sure do hope I don't have to make that trip, but the weather doesn't matter when it's for something like the death of a loved one. Like in the case of my grandmother who passed last March. I just couldn't get there, because my dad needed me more at that same time! Talk about bad timing!! Both parents in for emergency surgery, and they can't do for themselves, then grandma passing on in the middle of that mess, and I was doing all I could to help my parents so there was no way I could go.

I'm very, very tired. So tired that I fell asleep with a cigarette in my hand tonight, and caught myself on fire! Bridgette came out just in time, as it started to flame she said! She started hitting me, trying to put out the flames that had started burning the blanket on my lap! It burnt a hole the size of a grapefruit! Needless to say she was furious with me for being so careless! When she came home tonight, she told me that she found me leaning over sideways in my computer chair. She said she tried to wake me, but I didn't wake up for a couple of minutes as she was calling my name and poking my forehead...lol...nice way to try and wake me up! She grabbed my arm to shake me awake, but I don't remember it at all. I have no idea why these things are going on, but it makes me very nervous to think of living alone for the month or so after she leaves, and after I find a place of my own again! I really shouldn't live alone, and tonight she saw exactly why. I don't know what will become of my future with all this kind of crap going on.

Yes Doody, Bridgette is going back to IN where the rest of her family is living, whom she is missing very much. It really is upsetting, because she knew she was starting to feel this way when we moved in here. I would have stayed at my parents back then, until I found something to live in on my own, that I could afford. Oh well, there must be a reason for all of this, else it wouldn't have went this way.

About the rep. payee part, mom has already applied at the social security office last week. We didn't get the new account set up for the direct deposit in my own account so there is no questions about the balance that belongs to me. We will get it taken care of soon though.

I agree with you that it is good to have doctors that seem to care about getting to the bottom of all these health issues, old and new. I do feel blessed to have gotten a pain management doctor who seems to understand what I'm going through completely! Also he smokes, so he doesn't bug me about that one! However, he is on me about my weight, and asks me about it every time I go in. I like the other doctors as well, and feel like I'm in good hands. That is a big accomplishment, to me! I just have to continue to pick away until I have put the puzzle back together down here.

I love you guys, and so glad to be here again! You have always had a way of helping me through this stuff!! {{{{hugs}}}}

Thanks so much~
~Kimmy

Hey Kimmy... just want you to know that I'm so glad you've been posting.
Words don't always cut it but here in this place, they do... we are here for you girlfriend... reaching out as always.

xoxoxo to YOU and yours...

no more smoking when you are tired, K??????

*heart Addy