I went back and the only 2 I could break up were the last 2, that is if I did it right, and no I don't care to go to sister sight, I doubt I am that far gone, I have survived things that would destroy most!

And surviving is what this forum is all about! Glad you came back Junie.

Have you thought about writing letters to your family members and telling them how hurt and disappointed you are? Or just writing down what you are feeling in a journal...not good to let it simmer inside.

I need to re read this and coment after some thinking

but I send prayers of healing and some hugs to you Junie.

You name it I have done it, they don't care I guess!!

Junie...(((hugs))) I am sorry I am ill right now. But I want to welcome you here, and give you a hug. Please keep talking, that is important. We do care. And you will find things to distract you, and make you smile, and help to lift your load. I doubt that there is anything wrong with you. It sounds to me like it is them. They are involved in their own lives. Such is life. Prayer, my friend...that is what is getting you through. Keep it up, and keep coming back. I hope to be well soon, and look forward to chatting some more......

Junie,

I'm sorry this has all happened to you.

But you have found us now. Friends can be better "family" sometimes than blood family.

I am closer to my friends than my family. They love me cuz they want to, not because they are supposed to.

Might be time to write all this out as a means to letting it go.



BTW, you did an AWESOME job as spacing. I went back and did the first ones. Members only have so much time to edit.

Thanks everyone,
I am overly sensitive right now so sorry if I get snippy, its been a hard year. I guess I am afraid to have to say it out loud, I may not have a family and may be better off without them.

I thought Junie seemed familiar and I do remember you from a bit ago.
You have been threw he-- and high water then back again.
I am so sorry for how the people around you have acted and treated you .NO ONE deserves that !!

Do not let all the negitive control how you think and feel, and what you do ..that is letting the past and those peole still controll you and your life. that is not good.

Writing it all out little by little will help you get it out and let go. Sometimes i burn my stuff when i am done it is a way for me to be rid of it to send it off and away .
Are you seeing talk doc I may have missed that part sorry.
I am glad your here and please know this place is safe we are here for you and we care. each in our own way ..each of us is reaching for you and trying to help best we can.
Like Curious stated ..Me too I am way closer to my friends then my hub or family I live with and most of you here....my nt family know tons more about me then my hub who ive been with for 24+ years. so do my friends i have. they care because they want to they want to see me smile they want to hold me when i am crying not because it is expected or they feel they have to but because they are my friends and they WANT to--- thats what real friends do.
I hope I can help you and lift your spirits and be your friend...I already am on your friends list...See I thought Junie seemed familiar and I we are gald you are back here sharing
getting things out.
sugestion 1 naww a rule to live by--- baby steps one step at a time.


Suggeston 2 --is that you take care of you and love you because YOU are THE MOST IMPORTION person in YOUR life.


sugesstion 3 .. we care and do not judge . we want to help and support you ,be there to be leaned on while you take them baby steps and find sunshine and smile again. because YOU are a wonderful special friend family memeber here and
Rule 4 never forget what i just said! You are a strong beautiful person!!!!
Keep talking and sharing let it come out.
B.T.W.I have mean bro who used to abuse me when I was little ... he is not part of my life ANY MORE I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hugs and wraping you in my prayers Junie

PEACE
BMW

I get what everyone says, but don't you miss the touch of a real person, or the sound of someone saying I love you. I have not been with a man in over 5 years but I just miss that part of my life

well I cant say i would not miss the "touch" of a real person
I would but i do think a hug from a real friend would be as good or better then a kiss from a -----. a massage nice relaxing, every human being needs phyical touch to be healthy. but not abuse ...love, caring warm touch a hug holding hands . we all need that its a basic . pets give love and are warm fuzzy buddies that are there no matter what!

Do you know that hugging yourself is a positive action one can do ??
It can lift your mood? It is ture. try it. even forcing your self to smile has positive affects.

I think as far as hearing another say they love me...

first I would have to love myself believe in myself and then when I heard another say they love me...no matter if guy or girl or kidos ... hearing that would be the best. but not until i loved myself and believed in myself. if i didnt believe or love myself well everthing eles is just dukie squat. if ya get what i meen.

between you and i when my marriage ends thats the last time i want to be with any man ..live with ,have sex with, hang out with... when my marriage is done i am done with men! dare i say ...AMEN to that?? sorry That is just how and what i feel for a long while now. No offence.
I better go before i say or do something totaly stupid.

Chat with you soon.
Junie...wrap both arms around yourself and squeeze. your a wonderful worthy strong person.! ! !
we love you ! we care! we are here for you.





PEACE
BMW