thanks ALL...
for every word, thought prayer...

for condolances, sympathy & support, caring concern Love...

that is my father's legacy... Love...

and what i feel, see here... that touches so deeply...
thanks esp now...

its been a week since dad passed on...
last Sunday nite...
quietly gracefully
peacefully

he said he had a wonderful life..

he endured so much, without complaint, so courageously
humbling inspiring

he is missed but has given 'sign's that he's in better "place' -the Next place
Moi thanks
you found 'right' words...

as did each, all in your own special ways...
thanks...
each message touched deeply

BMW angel sis, thank you much-- for starting this thread... and all thoughts, prayers, more ...

i hope can "talk" share more
now...
too much...
too many emotions, feelings, memories ....

reality of what to do now, next...
after 7 years of living w/ parents in their home, as primary caregiver, advocate, companion/friend more, for both my father and mother who died in march 2006. today would've been her 83rd birthday. feel loneley, lost, empty....


yes, many memories, thougts, feelings...
and more to deal with....

(((pono))) take your time. And we will be here to offer what support we can. You have a lot to sort through. You are in our prayers.

pono, hoping you're feeling a bit better today...or now...

keeping you in our thoughts...

(((pono)))

((pono)) Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and wishing you some relief from the pain

just thinking of you, pono...

thanks
ALL
for support , compassion concern more..
extended to me
and so many others...

as i've been trying to 'catch up' here... reading posts
so many questions , stories, situations, experiences emotions shared....
also the moving responses of caring outreach...
support

"life lines".... indeed, and in these deep dark times of need...
that come in PM's, or a 'wonder' in that & other threads, posts here

how to explain how so much of what's shared here, deeply touches...

its been month since my father's death
its been hard, harder than ever imagined
things occured never imagined
more 'hurts' with flares of pain exacerbated by crazy weather , changes
stressors... that seem beyond 'control'

trying to understand or at least make or find some PEACE
somewhere, somehow...

i don't know...
so much i can't express--have tried to write before as well as attempts to respond to posts , PM's....
again not finding words, ways...

maybe later???

(((pono))) When you are "ready", please consider a support group.

And of course we'll always be here for you dear lady.

((Pono)) Some times there just aren't words for different things we are feeling. You have been in my thoughts and I am glad to see you have posted I hope your memories are bringing you comfort and that your pain levels will allow you a measure of peace. Much love

thanks....
Alffe...
i have been seeking bereavement , grief support... thought Hospice would offer more ... very disappointed.
Nursing care was excellent but 'support' & other services, supplies initially offered didn't materialize.
prior to dad's death, issues had come up with what pain mgt hospice would pay for --different than what was promised when we first signed up ....long story and no longer relevant....
i was surprised that after dad died , no one from hospice even called .... thought grief support for survivors was big part of Hospice..... but quess not with that one.
close friend said Hospice is what got her thru days & year after her sister's death.

i'm wondering what may get me thru... few freinds, family have even bothered to call ...
hurtful, but i quess busy living their lives...
i don't know... so many "hurts" pain and more that are hard....
sorry for rant...



Nikki...
you too have been so much in my thoughts.
i've tried to write, reply to your posts .... so touching, many had me in tears ....
my heart goes out to you, and family....
i pray your pain , levels , more 'controlled' too... (mine not)
will try to write later...
thanks for taking time & energy to reply