Dear Nikki..on my way to bed but wanted to check in on you...
His children will have to live with their own regrets, guilts..etc


Same old, same old.....you take care of you...

We are here for you...

It's Tuesday here in Austraia Nikki, so please know for the next 24 hours.... at least..... you'll be on my mind.

Love and lots of hugs, from me.

Thanks ((Twink)) I am sure I am mad at the situation, and that is feeding the fire. But I do remember, all too well how hurt Lynn always was that his kids never came for visits or rarely called. So now my heart is breaking for him, and in that hurt, I am mad at anyone who ever hurt him.

I do have his kids support... they all know he needs to be there. I am just angry at this whole situation, and they are just a part of it. We had a minor issuse over a photo today.. one wanted more of her up... my whole world is falling apart, I have little patience for something so petty. A picture of a stranger, is not going to make him remember he has a daughter. Too little , too late.

And I am resentful to be honest, that I had to try to care for him alone, even when it was evident it was too much, such as having TIA strokes! No one came to help. Yet now, now when it is too late, they come. I told Mom, they are not doing it for him, he wont know. Why not show him you loved him when he could have relished in it? hmmmmm....There is a lesson in there.....

Thinking... tomorrow.

You are in my prayers today, Nikkey....

God, please grant generous portions of your grace, your peace, your comfort and your hope to our Nikkey and Lynn.

Angel Friend Warrior May you be over flowing with strength courage patients and hope . I hope the tears that come today wash away fast and are replaced with comfort and an inner peace that shines outwardly.May God be with you through every step you take Please know you and Lynn are in our prayers and thoughts.

I having been trying to write down what I am feeling... but I can't find the words

I thought I had said so many goodbyes... time after time after time... day after day- year after year.....that it couldn't hurt this badly again. Wrong





LOVE REMAINS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cx-UP1Pa-Ao

We are born one fine day
Children of God on our way
Mama smiles daddy cries
Miracle before their eyes
They protect us til' we're of age
Through it all love remains

Boy moves on and takes a bride
She stands faithful by his side
Tears and sweat they build a home
Raise a family of their own
They share joy they share pain
Through it all love remains


Kingdoms come and go but they don't last
Before you know the future is the past
In spite of what's been lost
Or what's been gained
We are living proof that love remains

I don't know baby what I'd do
On this earth without you
We all live we all die
But the end is not goodbye
The sun comes up the seasons change
But throught it all love remains
An eternal burning flame
Hope lives on and love remains

This is the Hour of Lead -
Remembered, if outlived,
As Freezing persons recollect the Snow -
First - Chill -then Stuper -then the letting go -

-Emily Dickinson

One can scarcely imagine heavier images than those in the poem by Emily Dickinsonn. Yet the feeling is familiar to us - a heaviness of mind and heart.

the Chill is accurate, too - a kind of pervasive lethargy. We may find it hard to think. We forget where we put something, what we had planned to do. (It's a good time for making lists.)

But we do outlive the Hour of Lead. The will of the body and spirit is for recovery - even for growth, for there is no recovery without growth.

Even when I am feeling swallowed in an Hour of Lead, I will try to remember there will be a new time, and a new day.

** Healing After Loss by Martha Whitmore Hickman


Dear Nikki....that is tomorrows reading but I thought it appropo for today.
I pray that you draw on your strength to get through this day..this dreaded, necessary day that you knew would come sometime.

Thank you for sharing that beautiful picture of your love for one another.
Memories like that are such a blessing.

Please remember that we are here for you...as Dr.Phil would say..we are your soft place to land.

Praying for you today Nikkey!!!!!.

Holding you close to my heart today ((Nikki)).

((((nik-key and Lynn))))