NeuroTalk Support Groups - Would you like to choose a name?

wow...I love a lot of the names that's been chosen...

I am going to agree with NOT using "SOS" in the subforum because of reasons mentioned above..

I like the names that are associated with beach styles also.

tiki hut is cool because it reminds me of the beach

tree house is cool because it reminds me of good time and childhoods and getting away...(although we never had a tree house, we had something similar)

comfort zone is nice (but moi thinks we're usually in the twilight zone. LOL)

I like "hole in the wall" because moss and I look for those hole in the wall places all the time and have made some amazing discoveries of the best places to eat and shop. It is like finding "hidden treasure"

"Open Wide" I like it but only because it reminds me of porn...LMAO...(just kidding)

"Wondering INN" I like that and it rolls right off the tongue.

shoot, NO alpho's alley??? *disappointed. LOL (heckit? Wow, someone else is using heckit!! *BIGGRIN

the morse code SOS looks cool but I worry about our friends from Mars, they might not be able to decipher it. ;)

and NO Weird Moi's...

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I always come up with unconventional things but I think I'll let ideas such as:

"Survivor's Island"

"The Far Side" (might run into ⓒ problems, though. LOL)

"Alpho, Gets Your Whip (cause we're being too silly. plus we can turn it into a musical. LOL)"

"A survivor walks into a cyber-bar..."

all those are silly names that I know it's fun but don't think it'll fly...

so, I might surprise you all with something that I have been thinking about...

Sun Room

Why I like it:

Suicide is such a DARK topic...Depression is such a DARK subject...

I find myself in the dark whenever I am depressed and it is hard to see a ray of sunshine...

for some reason, and maybe for some others, I tend to make myself listen to sad or depressing songs and would have all the shades drawn and just sit in the dark. I seem to "indulge" in the darkness because I find myself liking to staring into the darkness...

and then it becomes a whirlpool that sucks me into a deeper depression where I can't see any light...

Before moss, my only other lifeline was here at the SOS.

I can remember coming home at 1am and exhausted and the house is dark. And without even turning on the light, the first thing I would do is click on my puter...

the first place I would come to is the SOS....

that light on the puter was a ray of sunshine for me...

coming to the SOS forum to bask in the ray of friendship was a lifesaver for me. Even though some of the topics were so sad, it still gave me...LIFE

One weekend about 20 some years ago, I was in a very dark place. I was inbetween roommates, I was broke, and I was tired of it all...nothing was going right and I was 2 weeks away from the Summer break. I didn't know if I wanted to go home or stay at the University and I felt like I was in limbo land...

after the exams, I locked myself in my room and I was in the dark. I wouldn't turn on the lights and I'd just sit there and stare into the darkness...I wrote in the dark (this was before internt and puters).

I decided that that was it...

But I wanted to go out and take a look around for one last time.

It was a sunny day and very nice...getting out really awakened me a bit...

I walked around the neighborhood and was saying good-bye silently to myself to everything I saw...from flowers and weeds on the sidewalk to the dogs I'd walk by. Even to the mailboxes that I'd passed, I'd mutter a secret good-bye...

the neighborhood I lived in was unique. A section of it was full of duplexes catered to college students, the other section is of nice houses. I started to walk toward the nice housing section. I also had worked as a delivery boy part time so I knew some of the houses that I'd delievered foods to....

I walked by one of the houses and a lady was outside with her dog, she smiled at me and recognized me so she chatted up with me. Even though I wasn't much up to chatting, I thought to myself that this would be the last person I'd ever spoke to. So I stopped and just chatted with her.

I thought that I acted normal, even cracked a few jokes and acted "fine"

and then I went on my way....

on my way back, she was still out and she called out to me...asking me if I'd like to come in for some cookies she baked earlier that day...

I was going to refuse but there was something about her voice that I couldn't refuse...

I went inside and she and her husband took me to their sunroom and we had tea and cookies...

it was a cute little sunroom, with wicker chairs and green plants. Very simple yet elegantly decorated.

The first thing I noticed when I walked in was how comfortable that room was. It had blocked out the humidity of the heat yet captured enough warmth.

It was soothingly calm and relaxing...

I sat there beside myself...dumbfounded...

they didn't say much but just talked small talk...and all of a sudden, I found myself breaking out in tears...

they still didn't say much and let me cried and she reached her hand out to hold my hand while he put his hand on my back...

After I got done crying, I was so embarassed I got up and thanked them and I started to leave....

they didn't say much but both gave me tight hugs and before I left, she said to me, "come back anytime, OK?" and smiled....

I think I nodded my head and tears started to fall again and I ran home...

I opened up the curtains and let the sunshine in while I reminisced about the sun room and the two Sunshines that I'd just encountered....

I am alive today....

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I feel like whenever I come here, that you all have shown me your ray of sunshine with your awesome friendship and embrace....

I always feel like I am back in that Sun room whenever I am here...whenever I turn on my puter and that ray of the puter starts to beam on me...

I feel like...I am home....and in the sun room, where I am sharing tea and cookies with my dear family....you all....

I have to get to work here and I just wanted to tell you all how much you all mean to me...

and, thank you for bringing me rays of sunshines when my life had been the darkest....

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