-Why everybody says life is too short ? for me looks like an eternity....
-Why Am I always this lonely ?
-Why cant I forgive myself ?
-Why I wish I was someone else ?

God.... habing a nasty time here AGAIN.....

Sorry guys, needed to come here and post, it's killing me....

I'm sorry you're having a bad time of it Blue..hopefully you can get outside and enjoy some sunshine today....I assume you don't have class on Sat.

Thanks dear Alffe !

I just took my antidep medicine... hopefully it will have effect soon...

Today is one of those days when I dont want to do anything... the idea of going out simple scary me... Im in my very dark room.... with a kleenex box next to me...

Nasty.

(((Majo))) Do you ever read at the Bipolar forum? Is your dx drepression?
I asked because of your mood swings.

Hi my sweet Friend! You are Not alone today for I sit next to ya,,,as the saying goes..misery loves company! I am also in a crappppy mood today

I don't know why, Just wish the day would be tommorow already, which is so sad, and a waste of the good life GOD has given me...so I feel even worse for "feeling" like this...

Lets hang out together & be Grumpy for awhile

You two ought to go into the chat room and vent. *grin

hey blu mayo,

hope it's getting better....

I used to think that life looks like it would be forever also whenever I would be in the dark...and the tunnel is narrower on one end while it's wider on the other end. Try to get to the wider end and reach the light, eh?

life IS too short as it is...if we all live to be 80. That's only 80 Summers and 80 Falls that we all get to enjoy yet too much garbage each week to take out to the curb...

every week that I drag the garbage can out I would say to myself, I cannot believe it's time to put out the garbage again to be picked up. I thought I had just done so...

Planting a slow growth tree that might take 15 years to reach it's initial maturity (such as Japanese Maple). 15 Spring only means 15 sprouts....

80-15=65.

and that doesn't include the times that I didn't know how to appreciate the sprouts or the time it took to mature to enjoy the sprouts..

it's only been the past 6 years that I have begun to slowly understand what it means to live...and if I am lucky to live another 20 years, that would only be another 20 Springs and Falls to look forward to....

sorry you are feeling crappy...

but remember that you're never really alone...the beast will always trick you into thinking so...



(for for you too, hazel... )

Seriously guys, I dont know what I would do, or what I would be without you.... Probably one of those angels of suicide, but Im still here... and that's only thanks to you, your messages, your thoughts, your prayers, for being the best friends I have ever had.... I love you so much.

Alffe: You know what, I have always suspected Im bipolar... Just that I havent been diagnosed... Actually, everybody )except parents and doc) keep telling me (sometimes like a "joke" ) that Im bipolar... I do think Im.

garden: Oh honey.... why are we feeling this way ? Something in the air ? the moon ? oh no... pathetic... I hope tomorrow can be better for us.

moi: Sweet Lord hun ! what are you doing here with that hand that hasnt healed !? *kidding of course* Im so glad and happy you had written me. I really appreciate it. You know it. I love to read your thoughts.

Thank you all.

Never forget I love you.

((Blue)) no great words of wisdom, just lots and lots of hugs

Nikki !!!

Thanks !!! I love hugs !!! they feel so good