That really is it, isn't it.

Oh heck yeah....

I reached the point when I was tired of being me, angry of being me, sad of being me because I always was tired, angry and sad...

Uff... But patience... patience... lights will guide you Pono.... time to time...

More hugs and more prayers for you (X 1,000,000)

Just wanted to leave you more hugs dear pono (X 1,000,000)

Hope you can start to feel better soon

thanks for all prayers, support more...
i've been trying to come back & update...
but 'connection' problems w/ puter & LIFE...
I'm sorry...
so sorry for so much, so late, too late...

i wanted to share some of the feelings, 'messages' more that i was 'getting'
about how powerful prayer and to give thanks again for , to all...
to share about feeling the Light that found way into my deep darkness..
about seeing greater "plan' & Truth emerging, thru & in HOPE,
the power of Life ..
Lessons in the 'signs' symbols , seasons -- going from the dead, death of WINTER into the Rebirth, Renewal of spring...
HOPE full...

Vernal Equinox-first day of new season--seemed to usher in Light - on that gray cloudy snowy cold day--felt 'warmth' .
HOPE
that day i really wanted & tried to share that
HopeLOST
found...

but LOST
not only response post
but LOST 'it'
now
more hopeLess than week ago... when began this ..
HopeLOST...
so lost....

so many up & downs... but even with more 'downs' felt i could would pick self up ,dusting off & carry on....
i knew it wouldn't be 'easy' but could would find tway thru-, felt renewed 'strength; thought i could embrace Life and Lessons-- flow with the yin/yang, dark /light, good and and not.... that were LIFE...
that i'd accepted would be part of this process...of dealing with Pain and Grief, LOSSes ...
more LOSSes... too many hit hard , too hard ...
Pain & Grief overwhelming
literally knocked me down ... so down...
feeling that vital energy- Life force go
leaving me alone
now
without hope

HopeLOST
so lost....

the feeling --'too late'
has haunted & taunted...
"too late'
hit too hard...
those feelings i've fought
all i've prayed for...hoped for...
too late...
HopeLost

(((pono)))

Hold on.

We're there beside you.

Pono, I'm sorry that I wasn't here for you when you typed your message. I'm here now though and will be around for the next 3 or 4 hours. If you'd like to talk I'll be here on this thread, or if you feel more comfortable .... just send me a PM.

Don't forget that Sleepless at SOS is there as well. You'll find the link to that thread at the top of the Social Chat Forum, under stickies.

Pono, I'm sending you my love, and I do so hope that you'll come back and talk to me.

Here's my shoulder to lean on, and here's some hugs for you my friend, as I really think you might need them right now.

((((((Pono))))))

Im here too. In case you need to talk.... I know perfectly how you feel... Hold on. Breathe. Time to time.

God Bless.

I spoke with our dear pono this afternoon. She is struggling but hanging in with us. ((((hugs and prayers))))

I'm so glad to hear that. Thank you, Sunshine...

Thank you for letting us know. We are very concerned.