reading about hope ,
trying to 'find'
but can't...
by any definition, or in the Hope many have shared


i just can't find, conjure it up

i've been trying to write, but can't find words...
all thats been, come, is now too much
I can't take it.... really can't...
too much happened past days
yesterdays 'events'
felt like the final nail...
today can't stop shaking
or calm my pounding head & heart...

each minute, second excrutiating ...
i'm so sorry ....
for so much...
but regrets don't change what is...